The Fruit of Our Love

Dedicated was my one way thinking
planning and guiding my future with you
dreaming of the day we could look back
and see growth, how the fruit of our love
would be the greatest thing in life

But the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

Well time has never been my friend
always seemed to be on the losing end
scraping by trying make ends meet
sometimes never having enough to eat
meanwhile you get to go on and reap
the benefits of the fruit of our love

As they pass the days get long
twenty years wondering what went wrong
always missing a part of my heart
when it comes right down to it
you were the one that took it away
talking about the fruit of our love

But the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

During all this time it's been real hard
trying to get someone to listen to my sob story
they keep saying I'm the one who needs to let go
there's no need crying over spilled milk
even if it's the fruit of your own love

So i hope one fine day that she she'll want to say
hello Dad this is the fruit of your old love
i hope you will want to talk about missing me
now it's time you see cuz I'm all grown up

Mom can't stop us from her own hate
and even though she never approved
i want you to see your legacy
I've got my own fruit from own love

Oh the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/29/2012

Someone Has to Come Down

Sitting alone in the darkness waiting to say our last goodbye
wondering if a kiss will be the way we seal this unsettling disarray
we used to enjoy the simple things...they always came so naturally

So why in the world did it go so far gone and how did we finally come to this
two hearts that beat as one sharing the light...the nights would never end
now I'm just a lost and lonely soul looking for a way to fall from disgrace

Traveling in my mind's eye to and fro just wondering when will it all end
I told you my love was pure for you it last my life time and beyond
but you didn't want it you made sure we had to throw it all away

You kept saying this wasn't you...this life..deep inside
then who are you because I'm still waiting to see the person i know
this can't be cured...on the fly, someone has to, someone has to
someone has to come down and take the burden and cry

Listening to the songs of those in the same heartache despair
wandering the road in life we all tread on the same side
trapped between two worlds too far one way to try and turn back

How far can we go on with the charade when we know how well you cheat
no sense in trying to back paddle out of this one you're in way too deep you see
your actions make perfect words spelling it all out to me for the whole world to see
just can't believe that I've been such a fool to let you pull your wool over me

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12\27/2012)

The Tears of Christmas

The feeling of loss was seemingly at it's apex again.
Too many tears were lost to tally for today's count alone.
One would think one's own body would be permanently dehydrated by now.
Just how many years have passed and how many more are to come is a guess.
This kind of torture is more than an Angel or God could handle for sure.
So why is it thrust on my shoulders to bear and weigh heavy upon my poor heart.
Surely it is someone's idea of a joke or sad excuse to repay me by some spirit.
There is no other answer as the days build up leaving me heart broken in despair.
The pressure always builds even more when i see what others have that I don't.
Why should I be the one passed on or dismissed by joy and happiness?
What did I do to deserve such a doom that warrants this exclusion?
And yet I can feel joy and hope for those that do get to indulge in one of life's bliss.
Small smiles of happiness that glow brightest with unconditional love and admiration.
How is my denial for the better of mankind in any way, fashion or form?
Am I chosen to bear the pain because I alone can handle it more than others ?
Is my heart and soul colder than I even know to surpass that of the universe?
Will I get a chance to be reborn in the fire of love one day for my repayment?
Could there ever measure enough to fill my tears of Christmas ?

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/25/2012)

You Get What You Get

Your making me do what I don't want to do
telling me what I need to hear I'm such a fool
you keeping me close so you won't have to know
telling me your lies... I'm believing them
you think that you're so cool

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

This thing between us as black as a cat
you strut around like a cock on his walk
it's only a matter of time until you get caught
and when you come crawling
I'll just throw you back

I'm done with the lies you can share them out there
I've already come to terms with my own little lies
believing I could live a life under your kind of love
I'm done with you now so just leave me alone

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

They don't know when they've become your prey
they're just out there pretending to be someone
they want someone to call out their name
perfect scenario it's just you're kinda game

The circle becomes round once more again
no shame or remorse when you take them in
under a black shroud until it all comes undone
then you begin your control...when will it end

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me...when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/23/2012)

I Can Barely Hear You Cry

I cant help it if misery loves your company
you do all you can just to invite it in
living under your dark cloud
it breeds and multiplies
the perfect place to steal your dreams

This wasn't how it was suppose to be
we were suppose to fly above the clouds
you were suppose to take me far from here
but you fell from grace
ya you made some mistakes

Pick up the pieces and sort it all out later
look into my eyes you'll see you're still there
some where way off in the distance
you should know
I can barely hear you cry

The darkness calls...always outlasts it
this love is lost deep in your caverns
the echos sound out along the walls
makes it too hard to gain direction

So I'm left wondering how long it would take
when one of us has gone and went astray
leaving the dagger in way too deep
now my love is left spilling all over the floor

This human feeling consumes every thing
this being drawing breathes of deep despair
uncontrollable involuntary spasms
I'm choking on your deceit
how could think it wouldn't get back to me

Your world spins on a different axis
one that lets you get away
you don't ever have to come down
from your hiding place

So high above my clouds
you always try to tower over me
you snub your nose at anything
that doesn't include you

Now the new day comes
and I can feel the cold right next to me
this wasn't how it was supposed to be
the picture's fading so fast you see
soon enough it will be just me

So pick up the pieces and sort it all out later
if you look into my eyes you'll see you're still there
some where maybe way off in the distance
and you should the first to know
I can barely hear you cry...anymore

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/18/2012)

You Gotta Stay Away

This is gotta be... gotta be
one for the books
so ridiculous what you
what you do to me

You used to lift my heart above the clouds
you used to care so much, maybe too much
now for some reason we don't even talk

This love... this love
has become the tragedy that they all talk about
this love...this love
is lost...is lost... yea beyond the farthest cloud

You and me
we had something few get to see
a connection... a sync, beyond belief
so why...why did we...let it leave

You used to lift my heart above the clouds
you used to care so much, maybe too much
now for some reason we don't even talk

This is gotta be... gotta be
one for the books
so ridiculous what you
what you do to me

This love... this love
has become the tragedy that they all talk about
this love...this love
is lost...is lost... yea beyond the farthest cloud

I thought you and me
we had something few get to see
a connection... a sync, beyond belief
so why...why did we...
why did we let it leave

So why did we let it leave
So why did we let it leave
So why did we let it leave

Where did you go when I needed you most
who was that you always say is no one
I feel as if my blood is all over the floor
you keep digging the knife in deeper all of the time

Don't you know you're hurting my soul
Don't you know you're hurting my soul

You're killing me with kindness and lies
You're killing me with kindness and lies

Why don't you just stay away
yea stay away
yea stay away
please stay away

Don't you dare to come back
I don't want you anymore
oh I'm just not strong enough
to resist this feeling I have for you

Where did you go when I needed you most
who was that you always say is no one
I feel as if my blood is all over the floor
you keep digging the knife in deeper all of the time

Don't you know you're hurting my soul
Don't you know you're hurting my soul

You're killing me with kindness and lies
You're killing me with kindness and lies

Why don't you just stay away
please stay away
yea stay away
please stay away
yea you gotta stay away
please stay away

Yea you gotta..you gotta stay away
stay away from me
stay away from me
stay...stay...stay..stay
stay away from me

You gotta stay away
you gotta stay away
you gotta stay away

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/17/2012)

I Tried To Tell You It Would Go This Way

I'm falling from grace once again
trying to bend in your over bearing wind
but I'm not going to last much longer
for you see the storm is waiting to begin

You know this can't go on
living this double life on a whim
it's safe to say we can't break any promises
when we won't even talk about them

You're driving me, the insanity that lies within
in the distance, my salvation always just beyond
why does one simple little word hold so much power
it keeps us from our dream and slowly kills us from inside

Your hands are so cold when you touch me
has the heat from our love grown so old
are you just going through the motions
torn between what used to be you and I

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain
then everything would not be the same
knowing that one of us was to blame

How could it survive with all these lies

Yea I'm falling from grace once again
trying to bend in your over bearing wind
you and I are not going to last much longer
for you see this storm is waiting to begin

And you know this can't go on forever
living this double life we live on a whim
it's safe to say we can't break any promises
when we won't even talk about them

They're all one sided in your favor
so please tell me how this was fair to me
when you always knew from the beginning
just how this love affair would end

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain
then everything all at once would not be the same
one of us knowing that one of us would be to blame

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain

Then everything...all at once...would not be the same

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/17/2012)

I'm Tired

I'm tired, tired of living this life
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on dreams
tired of just skimming by
hoping for more to come my way

Ya I'm tired, tired of looking for love
tired of losing face when they leave
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on God
because, because he don't listen to me

One day I'm walking on sunshine
the next day I'm running for cover
just when is happiness going to settle on me
I held my hand out to you
and you took me for a fool

Well I'm tired, tired of believing what you say
I'm tired, tired of you always running away
ya I'm tired, tired of these games you want to play
tired of the things you say
ya when you want to get your way

I'm so tired, I'm too tired
well I'm tired, can't you see
tired of these childish games you play
so tired, ya so tired
well I'm tired,
Darling
can't you see it my eyes

One day I'm walking on sunshine
the next day I'm running for cover
just when is happiness going to settle on me
I held my hand out to you
and you took me for a fool

Ya I'm tired, tired of looking for love
tired of losing face when they leave
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on God
because, because he don't listen to me

You know, you know
I'm tired, tired of living this life
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on dreams
tired of just skimming by day by day
hoping for something more to come my way

Well I'm tired, tired of believing what you say
I'm tired, tired of you always running away
ya I'm tired, tired of these games you want to play
tired of the things you say
ya when you want to get your way

I'm so tired, I'm too tired
well I'm tired, can't you see
tired of these childish games you play
so tired, ya so tired
well I'm tired,
Darling
can't you see it my eyes

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/13/12)

On The Other Side

People like to criticize me
they question why I never say good bye
if they only knew how or what I feel
if they could just see it in my eyes

Maybe then they would feel some comfort
some warmth warranted to store me in their heart
but why do they feel they need these reasons
what is it that has them so discontented

Don't they know they get automated
can't they feel what's been there all along
from the first time we began our adventure
what we've learned about each other along the way

I hoped you would know so I wouldn't have to say it
we should know it's always there forever and ever
this love I have for you in my heart will never leave
for eternity you will always be my special friend

So if I turn away it's not because I don't love you
it's just that I want to believe I will see you
hopefully in some part of our near future
but if that don't happen then I'll remember

The way you are here today still happy
and when I'm old I'll hang on to your smile
it will help me to not worry I'll be seeing you
when you'll find me on the other side

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/10/12)

What the Heart Wants

In a cold and lonely night
there are still stars that shine on bright
and in the darkness they can be used
to guide me back to you

Now there have been some times
that we were left to wonder why
the things so cruel were left to me and you
but the heart wants what makes it feel good

So you strayed too far away
and lost the one thing that held you true
but you wonder if it's too late to try and go back
somehow I don't think forgiveness will erase this in time

Because it's too late for my broken heart to mend again
I tried and tried but I can't forgive this repeating sin
maybe i thought you finally would see something
like you could look in on you from your own window

But i guess I held on way too tight
to a dream I had since i was young
maybe it's way to high even for me to reach
you see I've been searching for a love
that really wants me for who i am

I made so many promises to compromise
tried to bend to far in the pouring rain
held too much for too long in these empty arms
and like mercury these so called loves escape through my fingers
I just can't seem to hold on to them

In a cold and lonely night
there are still stars that shine on bright
and in the darkness they can be used
to guide me back to you

Now there have been some times
that we were left to wonder why
the things so cruel were left to me and you
but the heart wants what makes it feel good

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/8/2012)

You Said the Words of Forever

This love of ours is fragile
like a delicate flower in a dream
we try and try to reach out for it
it escapes our grasp with the extremes

You said the words of forever
they rolled right off your lips so easily
they were floating throughout the air
softly landing right here in my heart

They grew with loves nurturing
couldn't keep them from taking root
but it was stale and barren
so no fruit would it yield us

If time could be kept in a bottle
you would surely see us in every way
listen to me calling, listen to my cries
listen for my heart beat, listen to it die

This love has spoiled , it has rotten
way down deep, even to it's core
you know there's only one way out
you have the key to it's door

These walls that have risen
reach way up, up in the sky
there's no way around it
we just have to head straight on through
the stones it was built from are formidable
backed up from the love torn heartache

Did you you wish upon shooting stars
did you throw your coin in the wishing well
did you cut off your own lucky rabbits foot
did you search for the four leaf clover
so you won't go straight to hell

You know what you did
do you know what I'll do
do you care at all
or is this the end !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/4/2012)

The Sound of Heartbreak

Listening to the heartaches rain
their sounds will drive you insane
you would like to run away
but they will just find you the next day

Trumpets call you with their song
they do it all day long
and their notes bounce around in your head
until it makes you wish that you were dead

The Christmas bells they keep ringing
people on the sidewalks they keep singing
they don't even know how you are feeling
they just want to spread some cheer
they don't know they sing
the the sound of heartbreak

When the sounds of heartbreak calls
you can see the writing on the wall
they captured the end of you and me
my future's darkness makes it hard to see

It makes me follow a path that I don't like
it left me with no rhyme or reason of what went wrong
or what was right

All I hear is the call of heartbreak
all I see is the signs of heartbreak
all I can feel is the touch of heartbreak
all I can sense is my heart break

Oh I cant see my silver string
my destiny too dark...it must be lost
wandering in the clouds of deep despair
wondering if there will ever be another chance
listening for the sound and touch of love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/3/2012)

A Love Torn Heart

You always want to know what my deepest fear is
well it's just what you have done here tonight
every night you left me laying all alone here
wondering where you are out on the town

Who are you really making love to
it's not me who holds your heart or close to
when you're out there with a cheating heart
then you come home like there's nothing wrong

What am I left to think of when I've lost the picture
I barely see your face when I finally dream of you and I
this love lost in the darkness no one's left to dream at all
and when I see your face in the morning light
I can surely see the writing on the wall

Oh why does it hurt so much to feel it flowing
the knife you yield still in me feels so cold
the heartache you cut it's like a canyon
it's too deep to ever really heal
it's river ever running forever
knowing it will be worse during the thaw

Now I've see you again after so many years
you haven't changed because you're still stealing
all of those poor lonely hearts that want to love
maybe it's you who's really hurting deep inside
not ever knowing how it is to truly love

I used to wish for an answer
I used to cry to myself in the dark
I thought my heart was always dying
trying to figure out what went wrong
time doesn't really heal a love torn heart

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/3/2012)

The Withered Flower

I was so afraid I felt all alone
always being pushed never time to grow.
I was like a flower in the desert
slowly drying from the blistering wind.

Ya I was dying from the heat
no one cared and no one to understood
just how this flower would survive
how could it get a chance to grow.

Then came the day
you took a walk through the desert
you came across a withered and dying flower.
The leaves were all brown
and the peddles were cracked

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
survival only for the fittest

But that must have not bothered you
because you plucked me from the scorching sand
and then you re-planted me in your nurturing soil

You gave me water and time to grow
every day saying sweet nothings to me

I know now you are my sweetheart
you were the one and I'll love you forever
because you took me from the desert
and you took the time to allow this flower grow.

Rising up from the ashes
from the scorching heat
you gave me hope again

I love you...I love you

I was so afraid I felt all alone
always being pushed never time to grow.
I was like a flower in the desert
slowly drying from the blistering wind.

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
and now... you gave me new life

Ya I was dying from the heat
no one cared and no one to understood
just how this flower would survive
how could it get a chance to grow.

But that must have not bothered you
because you plucked me from the scorching sand
and then you re-planted me in your nurturing soil
survival only for the fittest

You gave me water and time to grow
every day saying sweet nothings to me

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off on the ground.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
and now... you gave me new life

Rising up from the ashes
from the scorching heat
you gave me hope again
I love you...I love you

I love you...I love you

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved in this format 12/2/2012)
(original by Terry Lynn Barbara's mother- The Dying Flower)

My Blood Boils Cold

This time you've really gone and done it
always your way and then over the edge
so extreme this life you want to lead
just where do I belong
how do I fit in it all

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

I don't know which way I'm going
is this up or is this down
tossed around like a rag doll
my stuffing is almost gone
I just keep telling myself
to hang on for one more day

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

Hope is all that I have left
it's what I can cling to
can't you see it in my eyes
I don't really want to lose you

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

Our house is warm
but our bed is cold
this heartache grows and grows
this love that started out so grand
somehow lost now has really gotten old

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

Do you hope that I'll just go away
fade into the shadows of your past
just like all of the others
who broke your heart and they left

I told right from the beginning
I was in this for the long haul
I could take the roller coaster
of love's hardships and it's flaws
but what you're doing to us now
will be the end of it all

This time you've really gone and done it
always your way and then over the edge
so extreme this life you want to lead
just where do I belong
how do I fit in it all

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/2/2012)

Will This Be The End Of You And Me

What makes you think you have it all
where do you get off...I don't recall
this is the life you told me that was so great
then why does love so grand turns into hate

You say you want your freedom now
you say you want to see the world
your desperation in full bloom
so transparent for all to see
this will be the end of you and me

The writings on the wall
I can see it in your face
just where do I fit in its place
you love to rip the love right from my soul

Some days are filled happiness
others are in a funky overcast
waiting to see what mood you're going to be in
why can't you just say what you have to

You say you want your freedom now
you say you want to see the world
your desperation in full bloom
so transparent for all to see
this will be the end of you and me

Life's too short for me to play your guessing games
this day will be done before I'll really know
which way I'll turn or which you'll go
I have to pretend I'm in love for another night

This time tomorrow the sun will surely shine
it's warming glow on me will fortify
this lonely desperate heart of mine
giving me the opportunity
to rise above the flames

You say you want your freedom now
you say you want to see the world
your desperation in full bloom
so transparent for all to see
this will be the end of you and me

this will be the end of you and me
this will be the end of you and me

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/30/2012)

Lost On the Wrong Road

I woke this morning to find you have gone
the only sign that you were even here
was the tears on the pillow left beside me
and the smell of your perfume

Until this day I still do not even know
what it was that I did or what I said
that made you hold it in and run away
not to say one word of good bye

Sometimes things are harder to say
that the actions one leaves behind
to tell the tale of love lost to a dream
gone astray somehow it simply drifted away

Tracking the past will only hold you back
letting go doesn't ever seem to make it easier
there's still a hole where that love was supposed to grow
what will it take to fill this lonely heart in

Just another day that I hope and pray
for someone new to love and love me
wondering how do I stand in their eyes
when they won't even see me for who I am

What does this life provide filled with emptiness
the darkness seems to run right over me
when clouds of rain follow my every footstep
how can I find the shelter built just for me

Walking down the line it's hard to follow
when the dotted line starts to fade away
makes one wonder if the is the way to go
there's no directions to really know

Could I be lost on the wrong road
how do I find a way to turn around
if I listen to my heart when it cries
I'll just get in deep and be fooled again

So help me if you can to try and be the man
the one you hold so dear to your soul
guide me when I'm down when I'm on the ground
here at your feet pleading for you to not let me go

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/28/2012)

In The afterglow

There's nothing
wrong with desire
when there's
a deep burning fire

From your head
down to your toes
Honey
don't go too fast
let's do it slow

What ever you do
don't let your daddy know
his sweet little angel
loves the afterglow

She's bringing on
the devil's demon heat
each and every time
we sneak to meet

From your head
down to your toes
Honey
don't go too fast
let's do it slow

Let's do it slow
yeah... yeah
let's do it slow

There's no hurry
Darling
the hands of time
are standing still
waiting on
the afterglow

Weeping now
a guilty conscious
is overtaking her

You know she's been
such a naughty girl
she just wants to float
in the afterglow

She just wants to float
in the afterglow

She just wants to float
in the afterglow

There's nothing
wrong with desire
when there's
a deep burning fire

She's bringing on
the devil's demon heat
each and every time
we sneak to meet

From your head
down to your toes
Honey
don't go too fast
let's do it slow

Let's do it slow
yeah... yeah
lets do it slow

Let's do it slow
yeah... yeah
let's do it slow

Let's do it slow
let's do it slow

Let's do it slow
let's do it slow

We just want to float
in the afterglow

In the afterglow
in the afterglow
in the afterglow

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/26/2012)

Between the Sun and Moon

When the sunlight
slips away
the creatures of the night
come out to play
long hair...shapely hips
ruby lipstick
that sweats

Sweet surprise
that will catch your eye
they'll tease you
with their lullabies 
when the night
turns to moon

Yeah when the night
turns to moon

You'll find her
in my room
telling me
with her bewitching eyes
synchronizing
while she hypnotizes
her body
never repeating
a single move

Now I'm lost
deep in her
deepest dark
never wanting to let go
falling fast
nothing to hold
only her
here right now
lost to love's
after glow

The morning's here
daybreak's come
she says
now were done
leaves me in despair
only the smell
of her long long hair
lingers in
the musky air

Time stands still
waiting for
the night to stir
has me waiting
by the phone
shaking like
an addict for a fix
yearning for her
bewitching tricks
In my mind
she haunts me still
body writhing
in ecstasy
you know that girl
is such a tease
when the night
turns to moon

Yeah when the night
turns to moon

Yeah when the night
turns to moon

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/26/2012)

Find a Love to Stay With Me

Just look at you
so sure you know what to do
but it's oh so clear to me
because i can see straight on through
you see...your eyes tell the truth

They won't lie
no matter how much you try
their windows
can't pull the shades down over me

Well sit right down
say what you have to say
we're both adults with affairs of the heart
guarded and hurt with scars from the ones we let in

We don't ever want to feel that again
Honey i know the pain
it hurts so much when the knife's still in
and there's just no way to heal
this broken heart

Well you hope for one more day
hopefully it will be just a bit brighter than before
maybe the sun will grace you presence again
maybe the sky will be a bit bluer than yesterday
maybe this heartache will go away

What good is hope if it never arrives
what good is waiting for it to all to begin again
what good is this life I'm constantly drowning in
tell me please how to make it all go away

This time tomorrow still filled with sorrow
looking to the stars, wishing upon one
will i get one last chance, one last try
to find a romance, to find a love
that will want to stay with me

Will i find love
that will want to stay with me
will i find love
that will want to stay with me

You know it's true
I'm so lost without you

Will i find love
that will want to stay with me

Will i get one last chance, one last try
to find a romance, to find a love
that will want to stay with me

That will want to stay with me
that will want to stay with me
that will want to stay with me

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/24/2012)

When You Stop Believing

So this is the way you want to show me
leading the way across the bedroom
do dreamers believe what you sell them
they'll never know until you try and groom them

Distant eyes hurry and just get over with
this is how internally you say you're close to him
far off clouds in your mind swallow your pride
the days go by and you're feeling so trapped

You always say you would never hurt them
but you use them all up like a old sponge
take what you can get before they dry up
then when its gone you throw them away

Whats this you want to show me
leading the way across my bedroom
do you believe I'll buy what you're selling
I've seen this before I've been grooming

Your distant eyes say what you're feeling
here with me now but so far away seeing
lifted by clouds while you swallow your pride
why do you believe it's always a trap when loving

Don't you know its your heart your hurting
losing your soul up like an old sponge
you try to take what you can by stealing
but you lose more than you gain

When you stop believing !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/20/12)

You're My Final Heart Break

It's been so long i don't know what I miss
the soft touch of warm skin, a tender kiss
waking up with the surprise of you in my arms
cuddled in close using me as your shield

But I know...you're just hiding from the night

And there was always something contagious
about the way you talked the way you smiled
that made the day always go way too fast
I couldn't wait for the nights for us to be together

But I know... they'll never last

Like two birds that flocked together
we did every thing we braved the weather
we kept each other safe from the cold
but we couldn't stop mother nature

Life's quirky turns and love's funny twists
we kept it going, we never missed
keeping it strong all night long
hoping it would last forever
hoping it never ends

But I know...you're going to be my final heart break

Now the years have slowly passed
I don't know where you are or how you turned out
I just hope that you finally found love
that your nights are filled with calm
and that you never lost that contagious charm

But I think you already know...
you left your loving impression upon my heart
yes...you left your ever loving impression on my heart

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/9/2012)

Run Away and Hide

She's been a stranger in this love
don't get to see her very much
when she's around won't look me in the eye
I don't even know why she tries

We both know it's all come undone
we lost the spark we lost the fun
you know when it's over because it hurts inside
just going thru the emotions of this roller coaster ride

Up all day and all through the night
worrying about the last words we said
one never knows when it begins
just how this new love will turn out or how it will end

So you sit around wondering if you'll ever find
someone to love someone to be your friend
listen to your worries and help you to understand
what this life's mysteries behold
and what you can hold ultimately in your hands

Mortality is never so apparent than when you're all alone
life's question are never so unclear than when no one is near
and you wonder what it is that you were put here on earth
what will you leave for the future something that's a part of you

There's nothing worse than thinking you been an outcast
from your own family, friends and children too
this feeling of loneliness that consumes every part of you
there's a gloom that follows every footstep that you make
hidden deep inside is the pain of every heart break

Oh she's been a stranger in this love
and I don't even know why she tries
we both know it's all come undone
because we lost the spark...we lost the fun

You know when it's over
because it hurts inside
We're just going thru these emotions
of this roller coaster ride

Roller coaster ride...Roller coaster ride
just want to run away and hide
Roller coaster ride...Roller coaster ride

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/9/2012)

Losing The Game

This wasn't what I thought I had planned
this isn't what this life was supposed to be
one after one these days become closer to grey
night after night they get colder and colder around me

You used to warm me through and through
my core yearns for what only you can supply
the touch of our bodies in secluded sands
the wind in our hair slowly drifting us apart

All that's left is whispers and dreams
when I cry at night I know what it means
there's no hope for this broken heart
struck by cupids arrows they're still stuck inside

Oh why Oh why did you set your sights on me
why was I the one, did I look like easy prey
the knife that you wield dug in too deep
the love that I had only for you
now on the floor see how it seeps

These wounds they may never heal
blunt was the tool you used all crusted with lies
the stains of the fools who were there before me
I should of know when I...I couldn't believe

I couldn't run all your charm swept me off my feet
stuck under your thumb you always kept me on a tight leash
I tried to hold on... I tried to hold on
waiting for one more day, something inside hoping to see
some part of you that I could believe in

So here I am lost in your shadow trying to see
blinded by lust, I have to admit I'm blinded by me
just wanting to love, just wanting to be loved
holding on to anything, I'm even praying to God

Please...please save me, cmon and save me
ya...ya...you know...you know...
I'm losing...I'm losing this game

Please...please save me, cmon and save me
ya...ya...you know...you know...
I'm losing...I'm losing this game

Please...please save me, cmon and save me
ya...ya...you know...you know...
I'm losing...I'm losing...I'm losing
I'm losing this game
this game ...this game...this game

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/8/2012)

This Is The Way

Some truths should never be let out
it's better to leave them under lock and key
some times the lies should be unknown
better for them to be unsaid, better to be alone

It takes two... two to steel...two take the love
one to run away, as far and as fast as they can
what makes them believe...this is the way it has to be done

Those words that you wanted to say
the anticipation it haunts me everyday
there hasn't been much left unsaid
two broken hearts that's been left for dead

It takes two to lose your soul
it's when their gone you lose control
somehow the darkness becomes your closest friend
not knowing when the heartache will ever end

It takes two... two to steel...two take the love
one to run away, as far and as fast as they can
what makes them believe...this is the way it has to be done

I use to look up to you for all that I am
held you so close, closer than most
never wanted these feelings to end
but I didn't known you had other plans

So the nights are so long, waiting on sun
the morning brings in the light, no change in the sight
you're still not here by my side, no where to be found
so crying is the sound, echoing so loud
I'm all alone in this empty house

It takes two... two to steel...two take the love
one to run away, as far and as fast as they can
what makes them believe...this is the way it has to be done

They're the only one that knows.. what was the reason why
don't they even know...know that they leave us in the dark
hoping for some answer, searching ourselves
praying for something to quench our heartbroken soul

It takes two... two to steel...two take the love
one to run away, as far and as fast as they can
what makes them believe...this is the way it has to be done

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/8/2012)

We Kiss With Our Tongues

We kiss with our tongues
sweet and yet it all numbs
where will it all go
where will it end
I'm so lost in your love

We do this, we do that
and then we
kiss with our tongues again
we don't talk, we just walk
back to our place
always hiding in the dark

Someday we're going have to stop and breathe
we'll look up, we'll down,
maybe we'll have to realize
that what we have isn't real after all
but until then

We'll kiss with our tongues again
sweet and yet it all numbs
from my head down to my toes
you know I'm so lost in your love

I'm so lost.... in your love
I'm so lost.... in your love
so lost.... I'm so lost
I'm so lost.... in your love

You show you're brave out in the streets
but we hardly talk when we meet
I feel this is all getting out of control
when alone you turn away
when I really need to know

I feel hot , I feel cold
don't know where i stand in this great big world
you hide it all so very well
you lead me on and on again
and then we

We kiss with our tongues
sweet and yet it all numbs
where will it all go
where will it end
I'm so lost in your love

I'm so lost.... in your love
I'm so lost.... in your love
so lost.... I'm so lost
I'm so lost.... in your love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/4/2012)

This Could Be...Our Last Goodbye

you know it's nothing that i can say
keeps falling on deaf ears
don't know if I'm even getting through

you have to hear it even if you don't want to
because this could be...our last goodbye

I'm heading out the door
the one you used to throw yourself into
when i said i had enough

you would cry and make such a fuss
couldn't dare take it, the end of us
you just didn't want to be alone
or you would of seen it way before

this isn't love, the way you conceive it
with you it was always a one way street
no way to avoid the out come
as long as you got to drive us

so you may have to hear it
even if you don't want to
because this could be
...our last goodbye

i don't want to be the one to fail
but I've tried and tried to solve what's between us
i can't break through that high a wall
even though i stayed when you asked me
i just wasn't prepared for this at all

too many years we keep repeating
month after month it's the same old thing
we can't ever seem to make progress
living in a room filled with lies
knowing some day we'll have to end it

so you may have to hear it
even if you don't want to
because this could be
...our last goodbye

i'm heading out the door
you know the one
you used to throw yourself into it
when i said i had enough
but you wouldn't let me leave

you know i don't want to be the one to fail
but i've tried and tried to solve what's between us
i can't break through that high a wall
even though i stayed when you asked me
i just wasn't prepared for this at all

so you may have to hear it
even if you don't want to
because this could be
...our last goodbye

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/3/2012)

Easy To Break Down

the quiet in the darkness, it claims to be my friend
brings me unwanted hauntings, love that came to pass
repeating all the heartache, when will ever end
this torture it wills me to remember, flickering in my head
i can't shake my despair, don't want to lose my love for you

you know you gotta lick the wounds to heal them
salve the scars of heartache dug deep from penetration
put away all those tears from fear that lost us in the first place
hold on to our time don't lose it, for it will come back around
fill our cup again and toast it , to a new found love

nothing changes, it stays the same
and the motion, ya it's creations
lost to seduction, writhes with conceive
never ending, the circle just continues
all of your planning, well it concedes

you and me we had our good time
at last it's finally come to it's end
there's no turning back my darling
we've been there so many times before
can't keep the wheels from going forward
they just don't know how to do it

the tide is swelling, brought by the moon
our blood is boiling, loves after glow
the sweat is pouring, like a warm massoon
we're happy drowning, in each others flow
we can't help but to cry, as we wash away

now nothing is forever, but we can surly try
savor our earthly pleasure, retrieve it in our eye
listen to it's flavor, smell it until we die
lust for it while we're dreaming, spit at it and cry
learn from our mistakes, or scream out loud it's lies

it's dirty little lies, they pile up on me
can't see one from the other, all too familiar to me now
what does it really matter, we're far in too deep to care
can't see what's in the road ahead, they're fogging up the glass
we'll just have to burn and crash my dear

and start again, from scratch
we won't learn, from our mistakes
destiny, it's a circle, built for only one
the path we take, so rigid and strong

so easy to break down on it
out here in nowhere
the cold comes with the darkness baby
i can't seem to ever get warm
your images are fading darling
can't remember your face
gonna let you go now girl
hope you...find your way
all on your own

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/3/2012)

Waiting for the Morning Sun

Bend the light, until you get it right
then discard, what's really hard
wash away, until it's time to play
be discreet, until the next time we meet

Hide away, under the midnight stars
fly south, when the winter gets too bold
dare to rush, straight into my waiting arms
feel safe, because I've been waiting, oh so so warm

Feel the race, of my heart beat when you're around
can't even imagine, what it really means
with my eyes wide open, is it still a dream
so beautiful, i feel like a storybook queen

So amazing, this embrace so teasing
hand in hand, waiting for the morning
i don't know, but this has to last forever
don't take it away, for i will surely die

Don't want to feel that heartache
no way, it digs way too deep
can't avoid, the scars that they leave
just hold me, until the morning comes

My love, don't you say goodbye
if you do, I'll just have to run and hide
hide away, under the midnight stars
fly south, this winter is just way too cold

I'll bend the light, until I get it right
I can't help but feel the race
of my heart beat when you're around
see us then, we were hand in hand

Waiting for the morning sun

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/30/2012

Waiting For Tomorrow

I said something wrong,
now the knife's in deep
i can feel it's burning blade
my soul it tries to steal

My life blood pours unbound
I see it seeping upon the ground
no...my love has never been my own
you know it's always been yours to sow

Distant cry upon the breeze
I know it knows just what I need
it's just this old heart of mine calling out
yearning for tomorrow's tease

I'll do what I'll damn well please

You can never hold me down
your words geared to break my crown
you'll never see what makes me free
you'll never cut me down and kill my dreams

I'm out of here, I'm on the road
going anywhere, going nowhere, as I roam
ya..you've pissed me off for the last time
so I'm going to be, be my own man,
only going to listen, ya..listen to my own plan

You don't have me in your grasp anymore
so stop telling not to let my ass hit the door
no you can't tell me what to do
ya ... now I don't have to tune you out
this new found freedom I found...it really rules

Ya... it really rules

At home in the darkness
the shadows are my best friend
hiding from the sorrow
will my lonely heart ever mend

I'm waiting for tomorrow
to start it all again

Waiting for tomorrow
waiting for tomorrow
ya waiting for tomorrow
....to see you again
  
(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/23/2012)

My long Lost Love

Well i just don't know what I'm going to do
I've tried everything I'm gonna try with you
you don't listen to anything that i say
you don't care about what heart you hurt today

i wont cry no more, no i wont cry no more
cant listen to your lies, no i wont
i wont pretend no more, no i wont pretend no more
that there's still some hope, ya some prayer
that will want to make you stay

on the road again, this tried a true heart spent
yet again, cut down to the bone again
when will i listen to lessons that I've learned
gotta get out, ya gotta see when to jump out
gotta drop my losses, before i get burned

you don't know what you're missing
what you let go, what walked out your front door
this love that resides in me, the passion that yearns
i would of been good to you, would of stayed by your side
i would of shown you all and everything that i learned

so run away, so far away, fade into the sun
this old heart of mine, wounded with the scars
more than a thousand loves and they all went a stray
how much can it take, how long until it breaks
when will it be my turn, will i ever find it before i die

weathered and torn, I'll brave the storm
been used to the rain of tears on my face
so strange to love the concept linger and tease
it pops up in every new face i meet

will you take a chance on me
will you be my long lost love

love is ever fleeting,
always deceiving me
tricks me into believing
that it's my friend

will you take a chance on me
will you be my long lost love

oh will you take a chance
will you be my long lost love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/17/2012

My Ship I Missed

never would of guessed this would be my circle
and how it had it's turns and how it became round
never would of guessed that these would be my cards
how they were dealt to me or how i laid them down

wasn't thinking about how the hands of fate
wait hoovering in anticipation to cut short my silver string
ya i didn't see you coming at me
even though i thought i was seeing everything

isn't a wonder what we see in the mirror when we see ourselves
can't see the past , present or future but the reflection is still our self
deep in our well is the very thing that we don't want to let out
for fear that someone will stomp on it and crush our poor heart

oh I've been waiting here for my ship to come in
and it's just my luck that I'm stuck, I'm at the airport standing there,
waiting here for you to appear, watching the time go by on that old clock
wishing all the while i was standing on the dock,
but I'm all fogged in and now it's slowly disappearing in the mist

I'm all fogged in..ya I'm all fogged in

it was the last time i saw your face,
no good byes, you didn't hesitate
you just ran away through the soft gray light
fading in my memory, now it's all too late

it's all too late... it's all too late

ya your fading in my memory, baby
you know it's a twist of fate, now honey
it's all too late sweet sugar, can't change the hands of time
can't make it all go back, can't make it unwind

moving on, moving on...moving on, moving on

all this fog, where's that dock, just my luck
when my ship came in, I'm stuck right here
waiting for you, but you're not coming, so I'm fogged in
in the mist, my ship i missed, so fogged in

my ship i missed...my ship i missed...my ship i missed
I'm so fogged in, ya so fogged in
my ship i missed...my ship i missed...my ship i missed

Their Eyes Are Always Upon Us

They say that I'm strange
why don't I fit in to the norm
but I know, yes I know
they can't see me like you
we're all caught up in the storm

Heavy breathe rises, softly slowly drifting
love's heat partial hesitating, oh paralyzed
looking into each other eyes, the sweet sweat dripping
this night will last forever, the memory locked away
for some, some future references

Their eyes are always upon us, so heavy with the hate
their jealousy is raving, cuz they ain't got what it takes
now say something honey, put me to the test
no ones going to stop us, no matter how much they try
can't separate the willing, not when it's true love

You know these affairs of the heart
so many tried and blew it, destiny over-ruled them
the knifes that cut them, deep and unforgiving,
left them with scars, still bleeding from harm
and the tears they keep crying, brings on the storms

Ya you and me now darling,
well we'll keep on going, testing the hands of time
no one to tell us, no one to say it's a crime
that no two people are allowed such happiness
no two wrongs make a right, it goes against grind

But my love for you honey
they don't have a clue, when I reach out for you my baby
what this world becomes now sugar, infinity times two
there's a universe out there awaiting darling
just for me and you

We can end all this searching,
right here and right now
just hold me in your arms
for just one more night you'll see
tomorrow will still be there waiting,
all cozy and all warm

We can show them how it's done,
just hold on for one more day
and this world will keep on turning
but this life will slowly fade away

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/2/2012)

The Common Courtesies

Withered roads tethered and torn
this shriveled up life soaked and pruned
yet I still feel young even though I look old
oh..the things I've seen
the things that have touched me inside

You're alone with no one to hold
it's been so long since you've felt love
so many people around you
but they don't seem to notice
you're just part of their ignorance

The day and nights are cold
it's been too long you can't remember
when the last time you had a human touch
people all around you, they sit right beside you
you say something to greet them
but the try their best to ignore you

What's this world come to
what happened to the common courtesies
what's the harm in a smile, no matter where is comes from
the innocence of a child, they accept you for who you are
they can see right through you, even the toughest exteriors

I thought I would find a new love
been so long I wouldn't know it if I seen it
this heart of mine, too many scars to speak of
those wounds seem like they'll never heal
how much time do they need now
my sands of time are almost gone

I see me whither away, my hair turning grey
she said she was sorry, but she can't stay
only true love can measure, what it takes
only two people, can commit for heavens sake

This love was supposed to be special
this love was supposed to last forever
we were going to raise a happy family
were going to do whatever it takes
no one or nothing was suppose to stop us
happily ever after was our only mistake

It's been too long since you've felt love
you're alone with no one to hold
it's been so long you can't remember
when's the last time you had a human touch

What's this world come to
what happened to the common courtesies

What's the harm in a smile
no matter where is comes from

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/2/2012)

It's A Roller Coaster

Big city lights are all the same
dimly lighted so you can play the game
I'm on the hunt, I'm on the run
spending all my time and nights looking for you

Black top streets and dirty back roads
every where they say it's being sold
get there just behind you, I'm closing in
something tells me inside
you're just around the next bend

Please, don't hold me responsible
I tried my best to keep you from those demons
the ones haunting you, constantly calling out your name

And please, don't thinks it's incomprehensible
plenty of people know, what it takes to shake them
hiding their heads underneath their pillows
waiting for the daybreak, hoping for tomorrow

Now I was there when you gave in
your heart and soul begging for another chance to live
you took my hand and promised to re-begin
but i knew we would have this day
always there waiting to haunt us

I'm holding on, hoping this thing won't come between us
I could see the happiness in your eyes slowly fading
those dreams, the ones that we shared, turning grey now
we both knew, that love, well it's a roller coaster

So please, don't hold me responsible
I tried my best to keep you from those demons
the ones haunting you, constantly calling out your name

And please, don't thinks it's incomprehensible
plenty of people know, what it takes to shake them
hiding their heads underneath their pillows
waiting for the daybreak, hoping for tomorrow

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/19/2012)

It Wants To Borrow

There's that sound again,
it's begging me, it wants to borrow
just what do I have, what does it want me to give it
don't dare fall asleep, not until the day breaks,
until it's tomorrow

You came across mean
saying those words you said, what do they mean
when will i know, when will they hit me, will they dig deep
wound and inflict me, the knife still buried in me, so it will seep
down to the ground, where I will lay, waiting for dreams

But it can be cold there
my life running red rivers, all over the floor
right where you left me, still shivering in scores
you words like arrows, refill Cupid's own quiver

You love and you hate together
your moss grows on all sides, no way to recover
I can't find my own way, I'll look for my rivers
oh my bright red is fading, my bright red is fading

I'll hope for some Savior, to lead me on home
heading south for the winter, my heart break is forming
my heart break is forming, this love is looking bleak
no hope for tomorrow, my last heart beat is weak

There's that sound again,
it's begging me, it wants to borrow
just what do I have, what does it want me to give it
don't dare fall asleep, not until the day breaks,
until it's tomorrow

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/19/2012)

But I Love You So

There's just too much
to the little things that you say
just quiet enough for me not to hear

When I ask you what it was that's bothering you
you just say that it was nothing Dear
then you run away and hide, you disappear

And I have to try and find you
to make you try and understand, your fears
holding your hands in place, so you can't hear

So I try and sooth your insecurities
with my embrace, you pull away from me
like I'm the one to blame for what you think
what you think you saw, it's all in your mind
the tricks you always play on you

So tell me dear, how can I help you
you won't even let me in, to your heart
much less than what it takes to make it right
you toss and turn and scream all night

You jump on me in my sleep, fists full of hate
how am I supposed to reprieve myself
when I know it's not me, in any doubt
it's just you, your inner self, that can't mend

Somehow someone hurt you bad
they must of tore and ripped your heart out
now I'm left picking up all the pieces
I must be crazy, but I love you so

So here i am, waiting on your beckoned call
to see just what this is and where I stand
is there any room left in your heart
for this to work out, or is it lost in a dream

There's just too much
to the little things that you say
just quiet enough for me not to hear

When I ask you what it was that's bothering you
you just say that it was nothing Dear
then you run away and hide, you disappear
ya you disappear

How am I supposed to find you in the dark
I can see you but you're not there
no you're not, no you're not
you're holding your hands in place
so you can't hear

Somehow someone hurt you bad
they must of tore and ripped your heart out
now I'm left picking up all the pieces
I must be crazy, but I love you so

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/14/2012)

What I Can Steal From You

Sometimes I think your ears are full of water
you only seem to hear what you want to
and your eyes, I never get to lock onto
you don't want me to see what's in them

I got to believe, what I don't want to
I gotta feel, what my heart
is only allowed to steal from you

You're so hard to read anymore
keeping to yourself in the moon light
what did I do, to deserve this
I thought we had love, to bind us

This must a dream, I cant wake from
we're living in sin, but you beat that
who's this other man, you sleep with
is that him calling you, on our phone

I got to believe, what I don't want to
I gotta feel, what my heart
is only allowed to steal from you

Why do you listen to him rather than me
I'm left all alone, can't help but to think 
about all the worst possibilities here
whats it going to be all about
when I'm without you by my side

I can't run and hide from you anymore
just so i don't have to listen to the score
about how many times you've tried to explain
about what's happening here between us

I got to believe, what I don't want to
I gotta feel, what my heart
is only allowed to steal from you

This must a dream, I cant wake from
we're living in sin, but you beat that
who's this other man, you sleep with

Oh I got to believe, what I don't want to
Oh I gotta feel, what my heart
is only allowed to steal from you

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/14/2012)

Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop

Too little and much too late
I took my time and I hesitate
no more chances, it's all defined
so I think I'll drink some more of that wine

A little bubbly to ease my whine
to desensitize my hearts despair
there's nothing that's gonna
bring you back, back to here, to where I am

Solely lost in your shades of grey
the memories of us fall just like clouds
I can feel them slowly slipping away
one more drink so there's no doubt

The sun's so bright, it burns my eyes
something inside, hoped it was all a lie
but there's nothing like the cold hard truth
no one can help me, not even DR. Ruth

I gently rum the sleep from my eyes
tickled it with some re-ground limes
mixed all together with my sweet love
and that's when I heard a voice from above

Too little and much too late
I took my time and I hesitate
no more chances, it's all defined
so I think I'll drink some more of that wine

A little bubbly to ease my whine
to desensitize my hearts despair
there's nothing that's gonna
bring you back, back to here, to where I am

Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
I'll drink some more of that wine

Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
I'll drink some more of that wine

I can feel them slowly slipping away
one more drink so there's no doubt

Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
Gargle...Gargle..Mmmmm...Smack..Pop
I'll drink some more of that wine

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/14/2012

You're Going To Get Burned

Ashes and flame
that's what you get for wanting fame
but you never did anything quiet or tame

Lost in the darkness
looking over your shoulder
can't have anyone be your witness
no one can see how you play your game

Losing control is you're worst fear
you don't know what you're really looking for
but you know it has to be right here
it only takes a little time before it appears

You call out like the Phoenix rising
for the whole world to hear
the flames from your wings
captivating all that you survey
they never had a chance or give a whim

Born with a silver string
you don't care about anything
handed to you on a silver platter
making love isn't any concept that really matters

The finest wines and some caviar
that doesn't even tease you
cause you've already gone way too far

Listen to me, listen to my heart girl
I've seen it before, burnt out on the dance floor
high speed, flying as fast you can
you're going to crash and burn
when it all, when it all comes to an end

The finest wines and some caviar
that doesn't even tease you
cause you've already gone way too far

I've seen it before, burnt out on the dance floor
high speed, flying as fast you can
you're going to crash and burn
when it all, when it all comes to an end

Ashes and flame
that's what you get for wanting fame
but you never did anything quiet or tame

Lost in the darkness
looking over your shoulder
can't have anyone be your witness
no one can see how you play your game

Losing control is you're worst fear
you don't know what you're really looking for
but you know it has to be right here
it only takes a little time before it appears

Ashes and flame
that's what you get for wanting fame
Ashes and flame
that's what you get for wanting fame

but you never did anything quiet or tame
Ashes and flame, Ashes and flame
but you never did anything quiet or tame

Like a Phoenix rising, like a Phoenix rising

You call out like the Phoenix rising
for the whole world to hear
the flames from your wings
captivating all that you survey

The finest wines and some caviar
that doesn't even tease you
cause you've already gone way too far

Listen to me, listen to my heart girl
I've seen it before, burnt out on the dance floor
high speed, flying as fast you can
you're going to crash and burn
when it all, when it all comes to an end

When it all comes to an end
when it all comes to an end
when it all comes to an end

Like a Phoenix rising, like a Phoenix rising
you're going to crash and burn, crash and burn

Ashes and flame
flame...flame
flame..flame...flame
you're going to get burned

Ashes and flame
flame...flame
flame..flame...flame
you're going to get burned

Ashes and flame
flame...flame
flame..flame...flame
flame
you're going to get burned

Flame...flame
flame..flame...flame
flame

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/11/2012)

Doing Me Wrong

They say...I'm not supposed to worry
about where you are or what you're doing
when I'm gone or when I know
you're out there on the town
doing me wrong

I don't care...I cant stop this sinking feeling
so hard for me to stay afloat..keep my cool
it wouldn't be so bad as long as I really knew
but my heart doesn't...doesn't want to let go

Well you know as well as I do
there's been too much time between us
no where to run or hide it's forlorn
doesn't matter what you wish on
some things were never meant to be moved

The sun always leaves us for the moon
but we all know it will be there to start our day
that's how I've come to see us darling
that's what I've learned, why I know you'll stay

You may love them for a fleet moment
but I'm here. I'm here now honey
waiting to take you back in
waiting for you to believe again
waiting for you to see
that there ain't no one else darling
no one else like me

So come on home, come on home
you know you want to
I'll be the blame, I'll be the blame, if I have to
we can work it out, if you'll just try to
we'll get right down to it, I'll show you

They say...I'm not supposed to worry
about where you are or what you're doing
when I'm gone or when I know
you're out there on the town
doing me wrong

Doing me wrong, doing me wrong
doing me wrong
doing me wrong, doing me wrong
doing me wrong

Upside Down Screwtony

Tuesday's gone and I'm all alone, Friday's finally here
the week is way too long, can't wait for it to disappear
the days are always filled, but the nights are heartache cold
can't sleep you know, your fragrance in my pillow still lingers on


Here's my song
it goes on and on and on
my desperation keeps drives me along
it keeps me strong
hoping for a better day
hoping for a better day
I can't go wrong, staying on the path
this loneliness will be gone
time you know just has to pass

Doesn't make no sense or rhyme
why you left or why you cry
no matter what I do I can't ever seem to please
maybe I'm not the one that needs to look inside
when I laugh want to play
you always try and bring me down
you can't seem to let it go, can't stand to smile
what am I supposed to do
when it's not me, it's you

So here's my song
it goes on and on and on
my desperation keeps drives me along
it keeps me strong
hoping for a better day
hoping for a better day
I can't go wrong, staying on the path
this loneliness will be gone
time you know just has to pass

So many years since I've felt love
I don't know if I know, what it looks like or how it goes
too tired to see even if it fell on me
all the nightmares collecting, they won't let go
of the past with you and me
I can't run or hide, with you still on my mind
no new love can seem to get a foothold
the damage done from your upside down screwtony
I'm a lost soul floating aimlessly
so someone please, please save me

So here's my song
it goes on and on and on
my desperation keeps drives me along
it keeps me strong
hoping for a better day
hoping for a better day
I can't go wrong, staying on the path
this loneliness will be gone
time you know just has to pass

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/7/2012)

Looking and Searching for Love

I lived my life running around, looking for love
hoping some day it would find me, save me from myself
oh and when I thought I found it or it found me
I would jump right in, always hoping for the best
but it would always, always seem to slowly ravel away

Ya.. all I ever, ever wanted and dreamed of
was someone's shoulder to lay my head upon
just seems like all I ever get is someone who
always brings me down and steals my heart away
I just hope and pray someday, I'll find the one

Day by day each and every one filled with heartache
hoping and praying for that special someone
to cross my path and return to me everything that I lost
pain and despair are my only friends, no one to hold my hand
guide me now, show me how, show me there is still some hope
worth my trying to steal some chance, that tomorrow will be a brighter day

You live your life hoping that tomorrow
tomorrow will be a brighter day, wash your fears away
the cold of night is a lonely mistress, a lonely mistress
she don't care if your warm, she'll steal your life
if you don't take care, take care of yourself, cuz you're the only one
the only one, that can hold on, just for one more day

They come and go, the winds of change are hollering, they're calling to you
wanting you to feel their pain, they want to lie down next to you
cold as hell, warm to the touch, but freezing you, freezing you to your core
you need love, you need it now, you need someone that wants to care
you need someone that wants to care, care about you and how you are

So again, you jump right in, hoping for the best to mature
will this be the last, the last time you'll have to pass the test
the test of love, will you make it through another day
another day, another night, will she help unfreeze your frozen heart
all you want, all you're doing, is looking and searching for love

(By Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/6/2012)

That's It, Just Right !

Yea baby, that's right
mmmmm.... move on in there
that's it, snuggle in tight
yea that's it, just right

I don't know how we do it
but some how we fit like a glove
all cozy and warm, baby
like two peas in the same pod

We were made for each other, honey
there wasn't no harm, no fuss
you know they broke the mold, darling
when they made both of us

Come on over here now baby
mmmmm...you know you feel so good
to me honey, right now, tonight
laying here right beside me darling
can't think of a better place to be
no honey, than right here with you, like this

Get a little closer now baby
try if you can
get a little closer darling
get as close as you can

You know its only you that I want, now baby
only you can help me, now honey
get me through to another day

It's your love that lifts me higher
only time will tell me baby
if it will ascend me through the clouds
yeah yeah yeah

Oh hold me even closer, now sugar
whisper in my ear
tell me that you love me honey
make me understand, make it clear
make it clear to me baby

Oh I cant help this felling honey
cant help how i feel
its you, you're the only one
ascend me through the clouds

Take me in your arms, now woman
show me how, show me how
you'll love your only man
love your only man

Yea that's it baby, that's feeling right
mmmmm.... move on in there, now darling
that's it now sugar, so good, so right
snuggle in real tight, my baby
yea that's it honey, just right !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/4/2012

When the night comes

You know its you girl
that puts a smile on my face
when I think of you
it's your love that makes me strong
when my day has gone all wrong

And you know it's you girl
who lifts me when I'm down
who turns my frown upside down
you're the one that brings all the joy
that sums up what I feel inside

And you gotta know it's you girl
that's shown me how to
be half the man I am today
showing me every day you see
loving me unconditionally

What would I be without you by my side
where would I run, where would I hide
what would I do without you when I cry
who's shoulder would I have to lean on

When the night comes
sending away the sun
when the night comes
just you and me
when the night comes
it's in you that I believe

When the night comes
when the night comes
when the night comes

All I have left in this world
is the love that you share with me
don't want to lose you
please stay with me

When the night comes
when the night comes
when the night comes

When She Use To Tell Me

She used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name
she would often say
she wants me to be her man

But she was young
maybe way too young
even though she was wonderful
I guess I had other plans
for you see, I was just being me
and as time went on
our paths never crossed, again

This life that I've been on
this up and down
this roller coaster ride

I wonder how she is
how life turned out for her
did she finally marry
did she have some kids
does she still think of me
when the nights are long
back when we used to be friends
when she wanted me to be her man

This life that I've been on
this up and down
this roller coaster ride

I think about her from time to time
her beautiful smile
and that twinkle in her eye
as she looked at me, so endearingly
would I be her man

She used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name
she would often say
she wants me to be her man

But she was young
maybe way too young
I guess I had other plans
for you see, I was just being me

And I wonder how she is
how life turned out for her
did she marry, have some kids
does she think of me
when the nights are long

This life, this up and down
this roller coaster ride

And does she still think of me
when those nights are long
back when we used to be good friends
when she use to tell me
she wanted me to be her man

This life, this up and down
this roller coaster ride

Oh she used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name

This life, this up and down
oh this roller coaster ride

This roller coaster ride
This roller coaster ride
Oh this roller coaster,
Roller coaster,
This roller coaster ride

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/30/2012)

No Last Goodbyes

you called me on the telephone
telling me that you won't be there when i get home
its the middle of the day, working away
no way for me to be there, no last goodbyes

don't know what you are feeling
you been distant for so many days
seemed like nothing was wrong
when i left this morning, working to the bone

then you say you been sleeping with another man
this the second time, you don't who's child
you want to end this life, you want to end your shame
i don't want to be a part of some other guys game

the drive so silent, except the tears falling from my eyes
how could you say you love me and do this a second time
i should of left the first time, but i forgave you
thought it was true love residing in my heart

but now here we are on our last adventure
silent intentions, whispered words
half in the emotions, the other in disbelief
how could you be so cold hearted, even to me

i thought we shared a special kind of love
but i found out you share it with everyone
no boundaries will you follow, not with anyone
sometimes i wish i didn't even know you
but its too late

now i get home to an empty house
seems there is no line you won't cross
left me with nothing but my clothes on our bed
what was it that makes you act that way
what is it that lets you remain in my head

all i ever wanted was some one to share my love
some one to hold my hand walking in the park
some one to share my dream
some one to hold me in the dark
some one to believe in, some one to believe in me
was it too much love for you, too much way too soon

you called me on the telephone
telling me that you won't be there when i get home
its the middle of the day, working away
no way for me to be there, no last goodbyes

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/27/2012)

Losing You This Way Just Doesn't Count

what this is, doesn't work anymore
now I'm stretched from end to end
wondering where it started, where it all began
throwing all my chips in, I'm flowing out

dreams of sin, rearing it's ugly head
holding out for my final demand
losing you this way just doesn't count
you know I'm not one to just give up

i try to understand what you said
the way you think, whats in your head
but i guess I'm just to dense to figure it all out
something's just not right, no not yet

who's smell is on you today when you say hello
you must think I'm a fool
carrying on like I'm not supposed to know
the way you act and how stare at me
what am left, what am I supposed to believe

i don't want to give up
tried to give it one more try
thought i could change and you will see
but it wasn't the way
you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way

turn on the flood, i don't care
drown my sorrow, drown my heartache
take it all away, take it away today
don't want to hear anything you got to say
you didn't you turn my way

you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way
no you didn't you turn my way

even the sun won't shine
the grey blocking it's path to me
not even the hands of time
will release this heart of mine

your steel still buried deep
dripping wet with my disbelief
only one way to heal your deceit
make believe it's all a joke
move on and look for hope

turn on the flood, i don't care
drown my sorrow, drown my heartache
take it all away, take it away today
don't want to hear anything you got to say
you didn't you turn my way

you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way
no you didn't you turn my way
losing you this way just doesn't count

Just Got To Ride It Out

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
something you saw on tv that made you crazy
you take it out on me what you're feeling
but you won't say what it is

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

When are you gonna come to terms
with your own mental frustrations
when are you gonna let go
of all your demons
the ones that control your sexual intentions

Now I ain't the one
keeping all you locked up inside
bottled and presented with a fancy label
it's building and building up inside you
going to blow and what an explosion

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
why does your subconscious tell you to hurt me
telling me that it would be something I liked
as if I was the one who told you to watch it

You need to get control of your senses
understand what you really want
because I can't go on this way
sleeping with one eye open
waiting for you to blame me
for something that's all in you
right from the very start

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

It's building and building up inside you
going to blow and what an explosion
so confusing
what is your subconscious trying to say
what are these feeling rising up from your darkness
your losing control another side of you
wanting to become one with your soul

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
something you saw on tv that made you crazy
you take it out on me what you're feeling
but you can't tell me what it is

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

Listen to me when I say
I won't know what to think until you know

What these feeling you have and where they'll go
will you be able to remain or go insane
leaving me to blame
for your improper christian thoughts
wasn't what you were raised up on
your inner feelings casting doubt
their creating wrought

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/24/212)

All Around Me Like Ghosts

I woke up yesterday
not knowing what today would bring
yes we've had better times
but this time I think its all come undone
just waiting for it to spring up in my face
just because I couldn't agree to let you go
you wanted to fool around and eat your cake too

This old house creaks way too much
you should know by now you can't sneak in
past the hour most people go to sleep
fumbling with your keys
the neighbors are starting to talk

Why couldn't we just end it like adults
now we have to go through the ropes
I find myself struggling to get through all these emotions
never mind the good times that we shared
I couldn't even remember if I tried
just want to get it over so I can cry
these tears they keep falling and i know why

This valley in my heart
it's river running red, it's running wide
my soul seeping all the trust I gave unto you
how can I even pretend it's alright anymore
your blade still hanging from my back
beyond my reach to pull it out

Slipping away, I can feel you slipping away
running through my fingers like the sands of time
no matter how much I try I can't stop them
falling to the ground, scattering in the wind
we're turning to dust, our love turning to dust
the color of rust stains our relationship
there's no turning back now that we've lost the trust

Sitting here in the dark
I can see everything with out any light
the memory of you all around me like ghosts
looming in every room so plain to see
I can't stay here, I guess I'll have to leave

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/22/2012

Your Darkened Charms

Such a darkened heart that dwells in you
even the cold from winter draws from you
I can't believe one word from your forked tongue
one touch from your lips feels like freeze

I wake up from my nightmares and you're right there
a curled up smile upon your face while you pretend to sleep
somehow I know you're projecting influence into my dreams
this insanity I'm going through I can't believe it's just me

Why can't I dream of a better life than the one you hold on me
when I try to go into the light you drag me back to the darkest deeps
why can't I seem to break these silver chains you got hooked in me

Destiny calls
but I'm stuck here with her
someone help...help me please

She's got her fingers dug in deep
beauty can only reign supreme for so long
no one can hear my tears when they fall

You run around like nothing's wrong
that evil look within the corner of your eyes
trapped like a spider to a fly I'm stuck here no where to run
I have to wait until you're ready to draw blood

No one can hear me when I scream
what's your obsession within me 
what keeps you coming around
I ain't got nothing left
you've stolen everything that I am

The burn of your skin from the sweat the you sieve
you keep thrusting your utter hell upon my breast
why can't I resist your darkened charms
go away...I don't want you here ....just leave

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/21/2012)

Maybe I'll Be Broken Hearted

This life that surrounds me
it's full of mystery you see
making me blind to your darkness
something about the magic
that you possess
it wont let me let go

Some kind a hold me
let me go..let me go

I was the one shedding my tears
for so...so many years
I was calling...calling to you
help me...help me dear

I needed you
but you didn't listen
you didn't hear
hear my fear

Run away...Run away

I tremble and shake
when I think about all the years
I've wasted with you
sitting all alone in my desperation
I prayed for my salvation
please take me away

But there was no answer
Run away...Run away

Left on my own
so cold in the shadows

Run away...Run away

It must of pleased you
to leave me in the darkness
while you watched from the window
your eyes so full of hate
anyone could see they were shaded

Where do I go
where do I hide
where will I run
because I cant confide in you

You twist my words
to fit you
make no mistake
as long as it suits you

Run away...Run away
never no more
Run away...Run away

I can't feel you
the weight of your stare
won't steel me
never again

Run away...Run away
never no more
Run away...Run away
I win

Never no more
I win...I win

Maybe I'll be broken hearted

No..never no more
I win...I win

I win...I win..I win...I win

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/15/2012)

How Our Love Would Fall

Misconceptions
are wandering...in you
false confusions are building up
they'll cut you in two

I've been searching for so long
trying to be strong for you
cast away and forgotten
they all said and made you believe
that I was the one who was wrong

Now the truth they all knew
wasn't what they were portraying
they didn't what you to know
all the things they were sinning

I thought it would just be a matter of time
when it would all come crashing down
somehow they built up their defenses
with more and more lies
it's so hard now to get through

All my hopes and dreams all shot to hell
it's not what I thought the future would hold
it's not how I hoped our love would fall
just gotta keep holding on
just gotta believe

One day we will be together
hugging one another showing our love
I know it's only a matter of time
but it's been so long since I've seen you
when will I know
when will it be over
my child

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/15/2012

This Feeling I Can't Control

For so long the silence was just right
no need to worry no need for love
then one day it was broken by mistake
and the light so bright filtered through

I stood alone there in the darkness
waiting for my eyes to focus
so comfortable was the blackness
as I got a chill waiting for the view
it was always there for me
so blinded by my madness
I couldn't never see it

I caught a glimpse of my reflection
just who's this person in the mirror
a figure of a man that I never got to know
I fall to my knees the tears overflow

My heart is so empty
it cries out for you
how long have you been gone
I'm coming for you

No need to apologize
I'm the one who was wrong
just come home with me
together our love can be strong

Burning...burning
whats this feeling I can't control
the passion of my love has a flame
without love it runs free and untamed

So hot with desire
our blood flows like fire
so hot with desire
were burning down to the wire

Can't you feel it
can't you feel the heat
it's getting stronger with every beat

Two hearts beating as one
full to the brim with each other having fun
don't want it to stop
don't want it to come undone

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/14/2012)

it was all i could do

distant through the years
but i still hear you calling me
i remember those tears
i still don't want to see them

it hurts me way too much
so deep down inside me
i have to turn away
even in my desperation

wasted were those years
you had to be so controlling
always telling me what to do
all i ever wanted was to love you

but you wouldn't let me in
telling me it was a sin
such a hardened heart
not much left to believe in

some one hurt you hard
some one who was there before me
i was just the one
who you came undone on

no laughter left in your eyes
no where to run or hide

it was all i could do
to try and calm you in the night
we argued and we fought
not about us
just what about consumes you

what makes you want to fight
everyone that tries to love you
you keep holding them back
screaming in your sleep at night

you wont let me in
you leave no choice
I'm leaving you
can't handle this anymore

i hope one day
you can find your peace
open your heart
and let some one in

so sorry my love
you leave no choice
you wont let me in

no laughter left in your eyes
no where to run or hide

some one hurt you hard
some one who was there
way before me

i was just the one
who you came undone on

i hope you can over come
what consumes you