No Sleep Until the Dawn

Sometimes all you need
is a push that makes you bleed

So that it wakes you up
when reality makes it tough

Like the cold of winters touch
or the call of something else

When you have it deep down inside
something wrong and nothing else

Every morning become a challenge
can't get no sleep until the dawn

My mind's in a mental whirlwind
when my brain just won't shut up

Oh I can't turn it off
too many questions that start with why
too many answers in preconceived scenarios

It makes me cringe and grow so cold
deep down inside the ice still flows

Day after day you know I've tried
to forget the way you make me cry

Drowning my sorrow until I pass out
but this ain't no way to live, if it's living at all

How can those simple words
bring down my house of cards

How can they topple all of my defenses
how can they tear down my walls
how can they make me so vulnerable

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

In my dreams I call out your name
I look to my side but you're always gone
In my fear I hold your pillow tight

I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/30/2015)

Pushing and Pulling

We're gonna break
cuz something gotta give
this constant stress
it just won't let us live

Oh this life,
as the way we want it
you want to pull
and i want to push

Nothing can help the magneticity
there's always this static electricity
and it's driving us apart
while it's pulling us in

We're looking down both barrels
lining it up, looking for our target
trying our best to resist an itchy finger
hesitant to be the first to pull the trigger

Not wanting to be the first one
to give up on forever, like we promised
not wanting to be the lonely one
when it's all done and we know it's over

We gotta return to reality, when we're ready
can't force a broken heart to start too early
cuz it won't and you know you know it

The hurt and the pain
it just keeps going, you feel it
and the crying seems like it's the rain
it keeps coming and coming, down on you

You rack your brain to make sense of it all
thinking how in the hell did i end up here
this isn't what i wanted, this isn't what i dreamed

Oh this life,
as the way we want it
we're gonna break
cuz something gotta give

You want to pull
and i want to push
this constant stress
it just won't let us live

Ya we're looking down both barrels
lining it up, looking for our target
and it's driving us apart
while it's pulling us in

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/29/2015)

Oh I Lost my Soul !

Did your lips
all painted up and poisonous,
just attack me
You know i can't resist
ya... i'm doomed

Now did those hips
all pressed up against me
oh how accidentally, oops !
Then you shove me
and we fall

There's no time for mistakes
i gotta run, gotta get outta of here
You know when the devil wears a red dress
someone's gonna lose their soul

The lights are all off
but i can feel you getting close
There's a freezing cold
connected with your every touch

For far too long
sitting all alone day by day
with you keeping me in the dark
while you go out and play

My heart grows cold
this weather so unfavorable
the way you make it rain
what am i supposed to do

You're in my mind
making me insane
All of these scenarios
but which one is to blame

We both know
I've given you everything
and you've given nothing in return

But I've been a fool
for lesser things

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/15/2015)