How Can I Be A Man

How many times are you gonna listen to him
when all he spells out for you is your doom
ya it's me I'm the one that listens to all your pain
and it hurts me so knowing there's nothing I can do

Maybe one day... ya I hope and pray
you'll open up those beautiful eyes
and see what's been right here all along

But it's all just been a dream on my part
hoping to share my heart and love
with someone who won't break apart
from the very thing that's killing them

How do I carry this burden you've given me
would it be right to right your wrongs
and if i did how could you look at me

Knowing I was the one
who set you free from harm

Oh I stand to lose everything
what I believe and what I've learned
in my heart and my soul

I know I'll be the one
cast aside for what I know

So where do I go from here
wanting to be your friend
wanting something more

And how can I be a man
knowing what it is that you endure
how is it that he can be so much less
and still somehow keep you to himself

Tears flow whenever you come by
filling the sorrow in my heart
I'm compelled to try and save you
even though the signs tell me not to do so

Am I the knight in shining armor
will you see me mount my mighty steed

Will I dare to save your honor
will I force my style of steel
will I do it for myself
or will I do it...just for you

Just for you Darling
Just for you my Baby
just for you my Honey Child
just for the sake of it
no just for the one I love

Just for the one I love
just for the one I love
Just for the one I love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/37/2013)

The Promise

You..you looking at me
with grounds in your coffee
looking like disgust in everything
saying why...why did the sun have to rise

It's a drag, look what a scene
non-recognition, you know what I mean
pretending you don't know who you are
wiping the misty film from your mirror

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

The earth so sound
it's deafening to your ears
the ground you walk on
wanting, calling you to come

Just five more minutes please
then I'll be sure to come
running just as fast as I can
today was supposed to be the last time

I promise, this I make to you
a better person, you know I'll try

But not until it's time
maybe tomorrow
will show me the way

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

Too many years have come and gone
always breaking the promises
the ones to yourself that you can't keep

And is it no surprise
they all have come and gone
why do you hurt the very ones
that you've loved so very deep

Tired of all your lies
they decided to give up
who is that person looking back at
is this who I've really become

Just five more minutes please
then I'll be sure to come
running just as fast as I can
today was supposed to be the last time

I promise, this I make to you
a better person, you know I'll try

But not until it's time
maybe tomorrow
will show me the way

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/27/2013)

Here I Am Again

well here we go again
it's time for you to say goodbye
you say you've gone done something
that weighs too heavy on your soul

I've tried too many times you know
over and over until
my heart can't bleed anymore
honey why do feel you have to hurt me so

i gave until i couldn't give no more
so now that you've taken everything
you're heading out the door

if this is what you call love
well you've finally cut me to the bone
don't know why i tried forgiveness
when it became such a burden on my soul

so here i am again
looking for love that will mend
this broken hearted man
who just wants someone to love

someone to call my own
someone that wants a lifetime filled with love
someone who knows what it's like
to hold on to a dream and what it truly means

so now I'm back the silence
that comes with the known
hoping this valley cut deep within my heart
will someday fill on it's own

until then I'll just have to pretend
that i haven't come to my end

trying to keep this facade on my face
so everyone won't see or find out
just how broken i really feel i am

well here we go again
it's time for you to say goodbye
you say you've gone done something
that weighs too heavy on your soul

I've tried too many times you know
over and over until
my heart can't bleed anymore
honey why do feel you have to hurt me so

so here i am again
looking for love that will mend
this broken hearted man
who just wants someone to love

someone to call my own
someone that wants a lifetime filled with love
someone who knows what it's like
to hold on to a dream and what it truly means

Can't Keep a Good Cheater Down

came home last to the shades drawn low
the music blaring and the lights still on
i tried the front door but i couldn't get in

I looked through all the windows
but i couldn't see you anywhere
you were nowhere around

then i heard your voice talking
as i was headed for the back door

talking in whispers
you were saying to someone
that you had to go

sometimes i wish
that i never brought you along
the first time should been enough
for me to know

you can't keep a cheater down
they'll promise you anything
before they'll sneak out on the town

i didn't want to admit it
i didn't want to be the one
who let you down

but the tide turned on me
i was the fool for believing in you
and now i nearly drowned

i see you huddling in the corner
when you make your plans
somehow there's never enough
even when you hold it in your hands

you know i heard your voice talking
as i was headed for the back door

you were talking in whispers
you were saying something to someone
that you had to go

sometimes i wish in my heart
that i never brought you along
the first time should been enough
for me to know cheating's in your soul

and i should of known
you can't keep a good cheater down
they'll always promise you anything
before they'll sneak out on the town

I came home tonight to the shades drawn low
the music wasn't blaring and the lights were off
i tried the my key in the front door
turned on the lights and everything's gone

not even a note...saying good bye
nothing about you're slightly sorry
for killing our only child
now i don't even think
that it was mine

you just ran away baby
now you're staying with him

i should of guessed when i first met you
honey
your beauty surpasses the evil in you

you know how to cut them deep
you know how to take them for a fool

Living Life

i was just a lonely boy
not looking to hurt no one
ya...just living life

then one fine day i was caught off guard
i didn't know what i would find
looking at me from behind the scene

you knew right there that you would
make me your man
make you my wife
ya..just living life

and there we were making love
not a care in this great big world
as long as we had each other

everything was alright
ya...just living life

then came the day you gave me the news
said it was time we shared something more
ya...a new life
and our baby was born

after that the sun never shined so bright
and the moon always seemed to bless us with it's light
like they were looking out for our love
wanting to help us to make it work out alright

and over the years everything was alright
ya...just living life

i was working to the bone for our future
never thinking there was anything wrong
then i found those letters of love
you were hiding from another man

how could i of missed the signs
i kept my nose to the grind
in my heart i was always faithful

never gave you any reason
to doubt me
just living life

i thought we were just living life, baby
that it was all part of the master plan

you could of heard the world crack
ya my life, it came crashing down
all the time i thought we were moving forward
honey you had other plans

what happened to our love
that was supposed to be forever
what caused your heart to become so cold
when you knew mine was yours until the end of time

you say you lost the big picture
that you couldn't keep holding on

you didn't expect to start a family
you just wanted to live a life
free from the chains that bind you

how could i of missed the signs
i kept my nose to the grind
in my heart i was always faithful

i never gave you any reason
to doubt me, baby
i thought we were just living life

so I'm gonna be on my own again
I'm not even gonna have my children
you wanted me to die a lonely person
and you made certain of that

I'm wandering on this road of life
wondering what if i took a different path
one that didn't have you

living it day by day
almost buried in the ground
i guess I'm just living life
still thinking I'm living it for you

The Sorrow and the Strong

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

I can't help but listen to your heart cry out
it's wondering when will it ever find a love
like the one's that they all share

You see it every day
it even comes to you in the dark
the heartache that just won't go away
the pain that comes after the love

The tears fall so unwillingly
they can be most inappropriate
you don't want everyone to see
how it cuts you oh so deep

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

You call to God to end it all
saying you can't take it anymore
when will it finally be your turn
haven't you paid your dues

No answer nor any sign
he just leaves you to your own
all you get is the time it takes
to finally heal yourself

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

I can wait until it's done
until you finally call me home
this life that you call your own

It's me that will be there
for you when you return

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/17/2013)

It's Always Been You

Who's comforting you and how
now that you've said what you've said
the questions run through my head
how did I miss the signs, when I was mislead

This time I'm gonna take a while
gonna think about it before I jump in
so many times before I've been the one
looking for something they all can't give in

Crushed just when I thought just we began
you know love and trust have to go hand in hand
and jealousy is an ugly face you have on

Why don't you calm on down, take another view
look at this from my side, before you say something
that we'll both regret, before there's no way, no turning back

And now you say you'll never trust me again
when it's always been you holding us back
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
Ya...it's always been you holding us back

This illusion of love, all on my behalf
wondering when you'll come on board
finally let go of your worn, torn past
learn to love, learn to love, ya trust someone
when are you going to learn to love, again

They won't know what hit them
they're just looking for love when they meet you
I know they'll put in their heart and soul
trying to make good for all your past

But it's not fair because you don't care
you just go on being scared
you don't want to lose love
I know you don't want to lose love

But you drive them away, can't you see
what you've been doing to them and me
we tried to hold on, we tried to hold on
believing in you with all that we are

But it was never enough, cuz you're so tough
you won't let anyone in, pretending it's done
it's all our fault, you won't let down your walls
not wanting your heart to be hurt again

Crushed just when I thought just we began
you know love and trust have to go hand in hand
and jealousy is an ugly face you have on

Why don't you calm on down, take another view
look at this from my side, before you say something
that we'll both regret, before there's no way, no turning back

And now you say you'll never trust me again
when it's always been you holding us back
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
ya...it's always been you holding us back

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/8/2013)

Even If It's Only Me

They took all my tears away today
they said they will never give them back
who are they to think they can treat me this way
I need them to drown out my heart and soul
so sorrowful to hear their cries

They took my memories and left me all alone
they said I can't live in the past, but that's all I had
who are they to think they can just steal them away
I need them to tell me who I am, to remember them
some one has to, even if it's only me

Distant times seem just like yesterday
I can see them there just in front of me
it's as if I can reach out and touch them
but I know they're gone...I know they're gone

A flash of light blinds me in my dreams
so I call out loud hoping to hear some one
echos from my past have come and gone
I'm too tired to recall them all

Oh I need some sleep, my eyes are so dry
they cannot even weep, but I hear the screams
coming close, what do they mean...haunting me
can't they see that I have already suffered so much
I gave up everything...for love

They say one has to let go to really know
if you'll get back what you put in, in return
and they say that if it doesn't, then it wasn't
meant to be love, and on you go, forward evermore

What they don't tell you, is what you have to leave behind
what they don't say, is the sacrifices you'll have to make
just a sweet innocent child and now she'll never know
brought up with lies and deceit
by the ones that's supposed to show her love 

They took all my tears away today
they said they will never give them back
who are they to think they can treat me this way
I need them to drown out my heart and soul
so sorrowful to hear their cries

They took my memories and left me all alone
they said I can't live in the past, but that's all I had
who are they to think they can just steal them away
I need them to tell me who I am, to remember them
some one has to, even...even if it's only me

Even if it's only me, even if it's only me
even if it's only me, ya...even if it's only me !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/7/2013)

For Who I Am

Walking in the rain again looking for a place to hold up until it ends
my head hanging low wondering how it all came down to this
wasting so many years on a woman that never even had a clue.
So many, many times we tried to talk it out, only to fight all night

Now it seems I'm on my own again looking for something to mend me,
but it's been so long since I've been out on my own, how can I find them?
Everyone’s looking so grim in here, what the hell has become of them?
All my old haunches have become a strange new land, filled with dangers unknown.

In their eyes I can’t see them, the darkness overwhelming, some insanity from beyond.
The things that they dare to do I just couldn't ever fathom, guess I'm just gonna go!
Gotta find someone that can accept me for who I am, no more time to play the fool.
This old world won't be stopped, the constant grows, it's gonna roll all over you!

My old heart has its depths, rivers running wild, sometimes there just no control!
But I'm always holding true, hoping there is something just right there out of reach,
it pretends not to notice the time that's fallen, I still see the young man in the mirror.
And even though my time is almost gone, I still hope, hope in my heart...to find love.

So here I am again walking in the rain, all alone, wondering just who I am.
Living a life of lies I guess, hoping it would of worked out with each and every one of them.
Let me the one to tell you, a life of false hope will wear you down, deep to your core.
When you take it to the heart or soul and then you think it will just work itself on out.

Day after day, you wake up pretending to yourself and the years pass by so fast,

you don't even recognize the man that looks you on back, no more time to waste.

You don't want to die all alone, because you're still looking for a love that will last.

 So here I am, why don't you look at me, I am the man that I am, can't you see...me?

Can’t you see me…can’t you see me…can’t you see me…for who I am…for who I am!

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/6/2013

 

Eternity Is All I See

Some days are meant to be the same
others were meant for change
but on this day I was wanting you
and tomorrow I'll probably feel like a fool

Oh...this misery will come and go
like the snow that slowly flows

oh...I dreamed a dream of you and me
as beautiful as the stars above
In you I believed

You once had some kind of control over me
you kept me cold and you kept me blind
so I couldn't even see me inside
somehow I always knew deep down
what you were doing behind my back

Eternity is all I see, it's in my eyes
my heart, my love, my soul
why does it make me cry
when deep down I already know

But my heart grew cold until it cracked
not feeling the freeze or the pain that overflowed
and now I'm not looking forward to it's thaw
because I know it will be the end of me

Oh...this misery will come and go
like the snow that slowly flows

oh...I dreamed a dream of you and me
as beautiful as the stars above
In you I believed

Well they say that in a million snowflakes
there is never a duplicate kinda like love
they will come and go and leave you alone
out in the cold, feeling so small and individual
can't help but feel like a rock or rolling stone

Eternity is all I see, it's in my eyes
my heart, my love, my soul
why does it make me cry
when deep down I already know

Oh...this misery will come and go
like the snow that slowly flows

oh...I dreamed a dream of you and me
as beautiful as the stars above
In you I believed

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/1/2013)