Loving Me Didn't Come Easy

I know loving me didn't come easy

Too many times we just didn't see eye to eye

But then there were the good times

If we really search they aren't so hard to find

I'm all alone here trying to deal with this emptiness

I know in God's big plan it's just another day in this craziness

I'm listening to your words over time

They haunt me sweetly...is it a crime

To hold you in my heart...alone in the dark

This love I got can’t hold a candle to what we had

I'm all alone here trying to deal with this emptiness

I know in God's big plan it's just another day in this craziness

Now I fight every day while I’m missing you

Remembering all the fun we used to do

Wondering if you’re okay and how he's treating you

I can’t help the way I feel, I want to steal you away

Now I’m all alone here trying to deal with this emptiness

I know in God's big plan it's just another day in this craziness

You and me...we had...something...truly real

I can’t help the way I feel...I want...to...steal...you...away

One day...I’m coming...I’m coming...back to you

You know...you know...it's true...it's true...it's true

You and me...we had...something...truly real

Can’t help the way I feel...I want...to...steal...you...away

Now my mind shuts down when I think of him kissing you

I can’t control the heartache...I just can’t keep doing this

I'm all alone here trying to deal with this emptiness

I know in God's big plan it's just another day in this craziness

But...you and me...we had...something...truly real

I can’t help the way I feel...I want...to...steal...you...away

You know...you know...it's true...it's true...it's true

One day...I’m coming...I’m coming...back...to...you

(By Roelin Davis 8/31/2011 all rights reserved)

Thru Your Woods

I travel thru your woods now expecting to meet the other  you.
 A monster of great proportions waiting to pounce upon
the poor souls that dare to walk within your path.
Your stench is everywhere so how am I to not notice you
 surely lurking somewhere in the darkness just before me.
 I cringe and jump at every noise like you have trained me
 still stealthy over the time I have grown to know you.
 So now the time has come for you to end the madness
You’ve called me to feed your heartless hunger and prey
upon the only hand that believed in you.
 This curse that I chose to accept thinking that your true intent
was truly good hidden within your darkened worn-torn soul.
 That something spiritual was begging to be released from its
cold Dungeness hell and I hoped that it would be so grateful to be rescued.
 Ha! Ha!  I was the fool after all always wishing for things that couldn’t be
 Thus making me ripe for the conquest of your captivating wanting ways.
 Yes I didn’t believe it at first but as time went by I began to put two and two together.
 Which of course is the last thing you want any of your prey to do.
 You prefer the easy targets always to manipulate and string out your game of deceit.
 It is what feeds your true desires of wicked debauchery conjured and
 nurtured by the victims unwary willingness to free your soul from damnation.
 Your true goal to try and break all that is good in each every attempt.
 Barely breaking the skin so as to slowly leak out the
 very thing you despise that fills the ones you hate.
 your contempt for others gives you away eventually thru your actions.
 And they become aware of your plans so you know from the
 previous battles that it is useless to contain them any further.
 The one that they thought they saw in you, the one that they thought would free them.
So then you guide them to travel thru your woods expecting to meet the other you.

(By Roelin Davis  8/28/2011 all rights reserved)

One Time When I Was a Boy Scout

(Ok how about a true story)
Not too many people in my high school know this, but I was a boy scout for a few years and earned the rank of " Life" (which is 1 rank below "Eagle") scout. One year the troop was to go on an outing for 5 day- 50 mile hike around the outer mountain roads and by-ways of Paso Robles. It was a dark starry summer’s night on our 4th day and on the way to the camp ground we met some farmers working close to the road who said there had been a cougar sighted eating the livestock just before they saw us. We reached the camp site and put up our tents all the while worrying about the cougar as was expected. we all ate dinner and told campfire stories, then just before it was time to bed down we were instructed by the Scout Master to go up a small trail to a cave where a spring pooled to fill our water supplies in preparation for the next day’s hike.

Unknown to all of us at the campfire, two of the older scouts had slipped away earlier and ran up the trail and were hidden in the cave waiting for us to get close enough to scare us. I’m sure they could barely contain their laughter as they heard us coming up the path loudly. They waited while we all unopened our water jugs and proceeded to fill them. Then they roared and made noises
Scaring the whole bunch of us wickedly silly and all the other scouts ran for their lives down the path except me. What you need to know about me is that I had been raised on farms or ranches all my life and heard many tales of cougars, bears and wild boar hunts or even seen the ones brought in from the hunt. So I knew better than to run if it WAS a cougar as they would almost certainly give chase. So instinctively I instead hid behind a small tree barely sticking out of the embankment as best as I could trying to blend in being as still as a mouse. My heart and mind was racing with all the stories and my imagination on what to do or what may happen with this cougar when it found me as I really hoped it would miss me when it ran after the others. But something inside said I had to protect them, earlier I had strapped on my 9" buck knife after the farmers warnings from that morning and had it drawn poised ready to pounce on the cougar if it attacked me. My plan was to jump out and scare it away, don't ask me why it all happened in a flash.

It was then I heard the older scouts start talking "are they all gone?" the other said “yes they all went screaming like babies" and they pulled themselves from within the cave opening laughing so hard they could hardly stand. The older scouts came closer flashing their lights on the path not expecting anyone to be left around. I'm sure in their minds they thought we all ran away like silly rabbits. But hey aren't we supposed to be “Boy Scouts", brave, thrifty, reverent, trust worthy, etc blah blah, right? well  when I heard their voices my heart was relieved and my body relaxed, but I felt a payback was in order, besides in my family something like this was pretty normal to play practical jokes, so I jumped out from behind the tree yelling "ahhhhhhh  COUGAR" with knife flashing downward and around randomly like a crazed madman. The older scouts reeled back in surprise screaming "no ...no  ...it's us! IT'S US! Don’t stab us!" and fell to the ground on the path into the pool losing their flash lights.

I now in turn was laughing so hard I was barely able to speak myself, I then said " boy you two were real lucky you weren't a cougar and I didn't stab you with my knife" and they replied very angry " what are you doing here you ran away with others scared". I told them that was the worst thing to do is run from a cat and we walked back on the path to camp with them telling me NOT to tell anyone about any of the episode that just happened. When we finally got back to camp I didn't tell about the older scouts and what they did or what I had done. no one knew I stood there ready to protect them scared out of my wits, only that I hid behind a tree with knife poised at the ready and came back to camp when it was safe. I slept well that night, but the two older scouts and the others were pretty restless throughout the night.

There's No One That's Loving You

In your world there's no rhyme or reason

For the way that life's been treating you

Always left with nothing to believe in

Because there's no one that's loving you

You always bring out the hurt in me

Seeing your heartache all these years

Feeling your sorrows from the shadows

Listening to you cry out all your fears

I believe in you even though you don't see me

I feel for you every time they break your heart

Everything they don't see in you I can see

You never knew it but I did right from the start

If only you would give me a chance this evening

To see if my heart will bring you happiness

You might find the love that you've been missing

You might find there's something good to believe in

I don't want to see you cry anymore my love

I can't stand to see you slowly die of loneliness

When I’ve always been right here by your side

Believe in me you will see we will make the most of it

I believe in you even though you don't see me

I feel for you every time they break your heart

Everything they don't see in you I can see

You never knew it but I did right from the start

I will take you far away from all this madness

Hold my hand and you will finally understand

A heart willing to show you its love and kindness

Been waiting here to bring you from the darkness

Listening to you cry out all your fears

Because there's no one that's loving you

In your world there's no rhyme or reason

For the way that life's been treating you

(By Roelin Davis 08/26/2011 all rights reserved)

Twisted Turns of Our Desire

Hovering over me with that smirky smile on your face

I know the little devil in you is about start this race

Burning down the road of dreams 

You lift my heart with your soft screams

Caught up in a whirlwind of your fire

We take the twisted turns of our desire 

Only slowing down to shift our gears in rhyme

Flying as fast as we can to make it to the finish line

Then the checkered flag flown ending in a tie

Together we crash in the flames of our heat 

Our hearts still listening to our passion’s cries

The Darkness So Cold

Well there’s a deep dark hole…that's chasing my soul,

Following me I know till the day I die… I’ll tell you why.

There’s a girl I know…way back from my younger days,

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like she was on air.

Oh...oh...the darkness is so cold, oh....oh...straight to the bone,

Oh...oh...dreams turn into nightmares, oh...oh...it chills my soul.

Holding hands…laughing as we were…our innocence so pure.

Together we walked on down by the little bitty brook,

With a smile on her face…she fell right in…I lost her there,

We buried her the next morn…with the help of God's good book.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like she was on air.

Oh...oh...the darkness is so cold, oh....oh...straight to the bone,

Oh...oh...dreams turn into nightmares, oh...oh...it chills my soul.

Now there's not a night that I don’t think of that girl,

And the deep dark hole…that’s chasing my soul.

It won’t leave me alone…it chills me to the bone,

That pretty little girl…the brook that stole her youth.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like she was on air.

Oh...oh...the darkness is so cold, oh....oh...straight to the bone,

Oh...oh...dreams turn into nightmares, oh...oh...it chills my soul.

Little lass why don’t you go away...you know you can’t stay,

It’s not time for me…to come out and play with you,

You're gonna have to wait...wait for me back in your lonely grave.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like she was on air.

Oh...oh...the darkness is so cold, oh....oh...straight to the bone,

Oh...oh...dreams turn into nightmares, oh...oh...it chills my soul.

Now you stand in the doorway there…looking pretty as you please,

We'll laugh the night away…then make love all day...you're such a little tease.

You take my hand…lead me around… don’t even care if people stare,

Flowers in your hair ...you seem to be dancing…like you’re on air.

We danced in the moonlight...we made love on the beach,

Why...oh...why does ...this girl...remind me so much of you.

Holding hands...laughing as we were...our innocence so pure.

You're gonna have to wait...wait for me back in your lonely grave.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like she was on air.

Oh...oh...the darkness is so cold, oh....oh...straight to the bone,

Oh...oh...dreams turn into nightmares, oh...oh...it chills my soul.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like…she was on air.

Flowers in her hair…she danced around...like…she was on air.

(By Roelin Davis 8/22/2011 all rights reserved)

Whiskey Drinks Won’t Sober Me

Whiskey Drinks Won’t Sober Me

What’s that you said to me?
I heard something else you see.
I got a knack to read between the lines,
And tonight I don’t think we will be feeling fine.

(Chorus)

Your lips were moving but I didn’t understand the words.
I’m sure you were saying something I didn't want to know.
Honey you know you can’t lie to me anymore,
Every time you make some excuse leave out that door.

(Chorus)

These little umbrellas keep piling up in front of me,
And the old bar keeps spinning around like a dream.
You haven’t a care while you screwing around out there,
The pain in my heart will heal eventually and I won’t care.


(Chorus)

 I spent too many days chasing you until I was thinking blue,
Finding you became a chore that I wouldn’t wish on you.
 If you really want to be free…cuz you don’t wanna see me,
Then baby I’m gonna show you the way and give you the key.

(Chorus)
Well these whiskey drinks won’t sober me,
I’m sick and tired of all your apologies.
You seem to have it all on your sleeve.
Don’t let the door hit in you the ass when you leave.

(By Roelin Davis 8/16/2011 all rights reserved)

What Kinda Of Love

What Kinda Of Love

What's this you're giving me?

Your whole love life history?

I don't need to see your resume,

Your past doesn't scare me.

Just what kinda of love are you promising me?

I know what you're up to now you see.

Love isn't so complicated if you set it free.

Set it free...set it free...set it free!

Oh set it free...set it free...set...it...free!

You think bells and whistles will fool me

Fancy cars don't make a person or their bling

Why can’t you be yourself is what I mean

Our time on this earth is so short you see

Just what kinda of love are you promising me?

I know what you're up to now you see.

Love isn't so complicated if you set it free.

Set it free...set it free...set it free!

Oh set it free...set it free...set...it...free!

Turn around and walk out that door

If I’m not the one you're looking for

I don't have any more time to waste on you

If you're just gonna hesitate

With that sad look upon your face

Just what kinda of love are you promising me?

I know what you're up to now you see.

Love isn't so complicated if you set it free.

Oh set it free...set it free...set it free!

Oh set it free...set it free...set...it...freeeee!

Oh set it freeeeee...set it freeeee!

I'm talking about love you seeeee!

Love...love...love........love...love...love,

Love...love ...love...oh love...love ...love

Love for you and me....eeeeee....oh set it free!

(By Roelin Davis 8/15/2011 all right reserved)