The Fruit of Our Love

Dedicated was my one way thinking
planning and guiding my future with you
dreaming of the day we could look back
and see growth, how the fruit of our love
would be the greatest thing in life

But the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

Well time has never been my friend
always seemed to be on the losing end
scraping by trying make ends meet
sometimes never having enough to eat
meanwhile you get to go on and reap
the benefits of the fruit of our love

As they pass the days get long
twenty years wondering what went wrong
always missing a part of my heart
when it comes right down to it
you were the one that took it away
talking about the fruit of our love

But the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

During all this time it's been real hard
trying to get someone to listen to my sob story
they keep saying I'm the one who needs to let go
there's no need crying over spilled milk
even if it's the fruit of your own love

So i hope one fine day that she she'll want to say
hello Dad this is the fruit of your old love
i hope you will want to talk about missing me
now it's time you see cuz I'm all grown up

Mom can't stop us from her own hate
and even though she never approved
i want you to see your legacy
I've got my own fruit from own love

Oh the hands of fate took the best
threw me in the dirt and took the rest
then kicked me while i was down
twist and turned the knife in real good

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/29/2012

Someone Has to Come Down

Sitting alone in the darkness waiting to say our last goodbye
wondering if a kiss will be the way we seal this unsettling disarray
we used to enjoy the simple things...they always came so naturally

So why in the world did it go so far gone and how did we finally come to this
two hearts that beat as one sharing the light...the nights would never end
now I'm just a lost and lonely soul looking for a way to fall from disgrace

Traveling in my mind's eye to and fro just wondering when will it all end
I told you my love was pure for you it last my life time and beyond
but you didn't want it you made sure we had to throw it all away

You kept saying this wasn't you...this life..deep inside
then who are you because I'm still waiting to see the person i know
this can't be cured...on the fly, someone has to, someone has to
someone has to come down and take the burden and cry

Listening to the songs of those in the same heartache despair
wandering the road in life we all tread on the same side
trapped between two worlds too far one way to try and turn back

How far can we go on with the charade when we know how well you cheat
no sense in trying to back paddle out of this one you're in way too deep you see
your actions make perfect words spelling it all out to me for the whole world to see
just can't believe that I've been such a fool to let you pull your wool over me

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12\27/2012)

The Tears of Christmas

The feeling of loss was seemingly at it's apex again.
Too many tears were lost to tally for today's count alone.
One would think one's own body would be permanently dehydrated by now.
Just how many years have passed and how many more are to come is a guess.
This kind of torture is more than an Angel or God could handle for sure.
So why is it thrust on my shoulders to bear and weigh heavy upon my poor heart.
Surely it is someone's idea of a joke or sad excuse to repay me by some spirit.
There is no other answer as the days build up leaving me heart broken in despair.
The pressure always builds even more when i see what others have that I don't.
Why should I be the one passed on or dismissed by joy and happiness?
What did I do to deserve such a doom that warrants this exclusion?
And yet I can feel joy and hope for those that do get to indulge in one of life's bliss.
Small smiles of happiness that glow brightest with unconditional love and admiration.
How is my denial for the better of mankind in any way, fashion or form?
Am I chosen to bear the pain because I alone can handle it more than others ?
Is my heart and soul colder than I even know to surpass that of the universe?
Will I get a chance to be reborn in the fire of love one day for my repayment?
Could there ever measure enough to fill my tears of Christmas ?

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/25/2012)

You Get What You Get

Your making me do what I don't want to do
telling me what I need to hear I'm such a fool
you keeping me close so you won't have to know
telling me your lies... I'm believing them
you think that you're so cool

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

This thing between us as black as a cat
you strut around like a cock on his walk
it's only a matter of time until you get caught
and when you come crawling
I'll just throw you back

I'm done with the lies you can share them out there
I've already come to terms with my own little lies
believing I could live a life under your kind of love
I'm done with you now so just leave me alone

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

They don't know when they've become your prey
they're just out there pretending to be someone
they want someone to call out their name
perfect scenario it's just you're kinda game

The circle becomes round once more again
no shame or remorse when you take them in
under a black shroud until it all comes undone
then you begin your control...when will it end

Don't... think that I don't know
don't... think that you're getting away so free
believe me...when I'm saying this to you
you get what you get
when you try to play me for a fool

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/23/2012)

I Can Barely Hear You Cry

I cant help it if misery loves your company
you do all you can just to invite it in
living under your dark cloud
it breeds and multiplies
the perfect place to steal your dreams

This wasn't how it was suppose to be
we were suppose to fly above the clouds
you were suppose to take me far from here
but you fell from grace
ya you made some mistakes

Pick up the pieces and sort it all out later
look into my eyes you'll see you're still there
some where way off in the distance
you should know
I can barely hear you cry

The darkness calls...always outlasts it
this love is lost deep in your caverns
the echos sound out along the walls
makes it too hard to gain direction

So I'm left wondering how long it would take
when one of us has gone and went astray
leaving the dagger in way too deep
now my love is left spilling all over the floor

This human feeling consumes every thing
this being drawing breathes of deep despair
uncontrollable involuntary spasms
I'm choking on your deceit
how could think it wouldn't get back to me

Your world spins on a different axis
one that lets you get away
you don't ever have to come down
from your hiding place

So high above my clouds
you always try to tower over me
you snub your nose at anything
that doesn't include you

Now the new day comes
and I can feel the cold right next to me
this wasn't how it was supposed to be
the picture's fading so fast you see
soon enough it will be just me

So pick up the pieces and sort it all out later
if you look into my eyes you'll see you're still there
some where maybe way off in the distance
and you should the first to know
I can barely hear you cry...anymore

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/18/2012)

You Gotta Stay Away

This is gotta be... gotta be
one for the books
so ridiculous what you
what you do to me

You used to lift my heart above the clouds
you used to care so much, maybe too much
now for some reason we don't even talk

This love... this love
has become the tragedy that they all talk about
this love...this love
is lost...is lost... yea beyond the farthest cloud

You and me
we had something few get to see
a connection... a sync, beyond belief
so why...why did we...let it leave

You used to lift my heart above the clouds
you used to care so much, maybe too much
now for some reason we don't even talk

This is gotta be... gotta be
one for the books
so ridiculous what you
what you do to me

This love... this love
has become the tragedy that they all talk about
this love...this love
is lost...is lost... yea beyond the farthest cloud

I thought you and me
we had something few get to see
a connection... a sync, beyond belief
so why...why did we...
why did we let it leave

So why did we let it leave
So why did we let it leave
So why did we let it leave

Where did you go when I needed you most
who was that you always say is no one
I feel as if my blood is all over the floor
you keep digging the knife in deeper all of the time

Don't you know you're hurting my soul
Don't you know you're hurting my soul

You're killing me with kindness and lies
You're killing me with kindness and lies

Why don't you just stay away
yea stay away
yea stay away
please stay away

Don't you dare to come back
I don't want you anymore
oh I'm just not strong enough
to resist this feeling I have for you

Where did you go when I needed you most
who was that you always say is no one
I feel as if my blood is all over the floor
you keep digging the knife in deeper all of the time

Don't you know you're hurting my soul
Don't you know you're hurting my soul

You're killing me with kindness and lies
You're killing me with kindness and lies

Why don't you just stay away
please stay away
yea stay away
please stay away
yea you gotta stay away
please stay away

Yea you gotta..you gotta stay away
stay away from me
stay away from me
stay...stay...stay..stay
stay away from me

You gotta stay away
you gotta stay away
you gotta stay away

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/17/2012)

I Tried To Tell You It Would Go This Way

I'm falling from grace once again
trying to bend in your over bearing wind
but I'm not going to last much longer
for you see the storm is waiting to begin

You know this can't go on
living this double life on a whim
it's safe to say we can't break any promises
when we won't even talk about them

You're driving me, the insanity that lies within
in the distance, my salvation always just beyond
why does one simple little word hold so much power
it keeps us from our dream and slowly kills us from inside

Your hands are so cold when you touch me
has the heat from our love grown so old
are you just going through the motions
torn between what used to be you and I

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain
then everything would not be the same
knowing that one of us was to blame

How could it survive with all these lies

Yea I'm falling from grace once again
trying to bend in your over bearing wind
you and I are not going to last much longer
for you see this storm is waiting to begin

And you know this can't go on forever
living this double life we live on a whim
it's safe to say we can't break any promises
when we won't even talk about them

They're all one sided in your favor
so please tell me how this was fair to me
when you always knew from the beginning
just how this love affair would end

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain
then everything all at once would not be the same
one of us knowing that one of us would be to blame

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain

I tried to tell you it would go this way
that the love would come pouring like the rain

Then everything...all at once...would not be the same

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/17/2012)

I'm Tired

I'm tired, tired of living this life
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on dreams
tired of just skimming by
hoping for more to come my way

Ya I'm tired, tired of looking for love
tired of losing face when they leave
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on God
because, because he don't listen to me

One day I'm walking on sunshine
the next day I'm running for cover
just when is happiness going to settle on me
I held my hand out to you
and you took me for a fool

Well I'm tired, tired of believing what you say
I'm tired, tired of you always running away
ya I'm tired, tired of these games you want to play
tired of the things you say
ya when you want to get your way

I'm so tired, I'm too tired
well I'm tired, can't you see
tired of these childish games you play
so tired, ya so tired
well I'm tired,
Darling
can't you see it my eyes

One day I'm walking on sunshine
the next day I'm running for cover
just when is happiness going to settle on me
I held my hand out to you
and you took me for a fool

Ya I'm tired, tired of looking for love
tired of losing face when they leave
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on God
because, because he don't listen to me

You know, you know
I'm tired, tired of living this life
ya I'm tired, tired of waiting on dreams
tired of just skimming by day by day
hoping for something more to come my way

Well I'm tired, tired of believing what you say
I'm tired, tired of you always running away
ya I'm tired, tired of these games you want to play
tired of the things you say
ya when you want to get your way

I'm so tired, I'm too tired
well I'm tired, can't you see
tired of these childish games you play
so tired, ya so tired
well I'm tired,
Darling
can't you see it my eyes

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/13/12)

On The Other Side

People like to criticize me
they question why I never say good bye
if they only knew how or what I feel
if they could just see it in my eyes

Maybe then they would feel some comfort
some warmth warranted to store me in their heart
but why do they feel they need these reasons
what is it that has them so discontented

Don't they know they get automated
can't they feel what's been there all along
from the first time we began our adventure
what we've learned about each other along the way

I hoped you would know so I wouldn't have to say it
we should know it's always there forever and ever
this love I have for you in my heart will never leave
for eternity you will always be my special friend

So if I turn away it's not because I don't love you
it's just that I want to believe I will see you
hopefully in some part of our near future
but if that don't happen then I'll remember

The way you are here today still happy
and when I'm old I'll hang on to your smile
it will help me to not worry I'll be seeing you
when you'll find me on the other side

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/10/12)

What the Heart Wants

In a cold and lonely night
there are still stars that shine on bright
and in the darkness they can be used
to guide me back to you

Now there have been some times
that we were left to wonder why
the things so cruel were left to me and you
but the heart wants what makes it feel good

So you strayed too far away
and lost the one thing that held you true
but you wonder if it's too late to try and go back
somehow I don't think forgiveness will erase this in time

Because it's too late for my broken heart to mend again
I tried and tried but I can't forgive this repeating sin
maybe i thought you finally would see something
like you could look in on you from your own window

But i guess I held on way too tight
to a dream I had since i was young
maybe it's way to high even for me to reach
you see I've been searching for a love
that really wants me for who i am

I made so many promises to compromise
tried to bend to far in the pouring rain
held too much for too long in these empty arms
and like mercury these so called loves escape through my fingers
I just can't seem to hold on to them

In a cold and lonely night
there are still stars that shine on bright
and in the darkness they can be used
to guide me back to you

Now there have been some times
that we were left to wonder why
the things so cruel were left to me and you
but the heart wants what makes it feel good

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/8/2012)

You Said the Words of Forever

This love of ours is fragile
like a delicate flower in a dream
we try and try to reach out for it
it escapes our grasp with the extremes

You said the words of forever
they rolled right off your lips so easily
they were floating throughout the air
softly landing right here in my heart

They grew with loves nurturing
couldn't keep them from taking root
but it was stale and barren
so no fruit would it yield us

If time could be kept in a bottle
you would surely see us in every way
listen to me calling, listen to my cries
listen for my heart beat, listen to it die

This love has spoiled , it has rotten
way down deep, even to it's core
you know there's only one way out
you have the key to it's door

These walls that have risen
reach way up, up in the sky
there's no way around it
we just have to head straight on through
the stones it was built from are formidable
backed up from the love torn heartache

Did you you wish upon shooting stars
did you throw your coin in the wishing well
did you cut off your own lucky rabbits foot
did you search for the four leaf clover
so you won't go straight to hell

You know what you did
do you know what I'll do
do you care at all
or is this the end !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/4/2012)

The Sound of Heartbreak

Listening to the heartaches rain
their sounds will drive you insane
you would like to run away
but they will just find you the next day

Trumpets call you with their song
they do it all day long
and their notes bounce around in your head
until it makes you wish that you were dead

The Christmas bells they keep ringing
people on the sidewalks they keep singing
they don't even know how you are feeling
they just want to spread some cheer
they don't know they sing
the the sound of heartbreak

When the sounds of heartbreak calls
you can see the writing on the wall
they captured the end of you and me
my future's darkness makes it hard to see

It makes me follow a path that I don't like
it left me with no rhyme or reason of what went wrong
or what was right

All I hear is the call of heartbreak
all I see is the signs of heartbreak
all I can feel is the touch of heartbreak
all I can sense is my heart break

Oh I cant see my silver string
my destiny too dark...it must be lost
wandering in the clouds of deep despair
wondering if there will ever be another chance
listening for the sound and touch of love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/3/2012)

A Love Torn Heart

You always want to know what my deepest fear is
well it's just what you have done here tonight
every night you left me laying all alone here
wondering where you are out on the town

Who are you really making love to
it's not me who holds your heart or close to
when you're out there with a cheating heart
then you come home like there's nothing wrong

What am I left to think of when I've lost the picture
I barely see your face when I finally dream of you and I
this love lost in the darkness no one's left to dream at all
and when I see your face in the morning light
I can surely see the writing on the wall

Oh why does it hurt so much to feel it flowing
the knife you yield still in me feels so cold
the heartache you cut it's like a canyon
it's too deep to ever really heal
it's river ever running forever
knowing it will be worse during the thaw

Now I've see you again after so many years
you haven't changed because you're still stealing
all of those poor lonely hearts that want to love
maybe it's you who's really hurting deep inside
not ever knowing how it is to truly love

I used to wish for an answer
I used to cry to myself in the dark
I thought my heart was always dying
trying to figure out what went wrong
time doesn't really heal a love torn heart

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/3/2012)

The Withered Flower

I was so afraid I felt all alone
always being pushed never time to grow.
I was like a flower in the desert
slowly drying from the blistering wind.

Ya I was dying from the heat
no one cared and no one to understood
just how this flower would survive
how could it get a chance to grow.

Then came the day
you took a walk through the desert
you came across a withered and dying flower.
The leaves were all brown
and the peddles were cracked

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
survival only for the fittest

But that must have not bothered you
because you plucked me from the scorching sand
and then you re-planted me in your nurturing soil

You gave me water and time to grow
every day saying sweet nothings to me

I know now you are my sweetheart
you were the one and I'll love you forever
because you took me from the desert
and you took the time to allow this flower grow.

Rising up from the ashes
from the scorching heat
you gave me hope again

I love you...I love you

I was so afraid I felt all alone
always being pushed never time to grow.
I was like a flower in the desert
slowly drying from the blistering wind.

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
and now... you gave me new life

Ya I was dying from the heat
no one cared and no one to understood
just how this flower would survive
how could it get a chance to grow.

But that must have not bothered you
because you plucked me from the scorching sand
and then you re-planted me in your nurturing soil
survival only for the fittest

You gave me water and time to grow
every day saying sweet nothings to me

You took one look and then you kneeled down.
You touched my fragile leave and it fell off on the ground.
You tried to smell me but I had no fragrance.
and now... you gave me new life

Rising up from the ashes
from the scorching heat
you gave me hope again
I love you...I love you

I love you...I love you

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved in this format 12/2/2012)
(original by Terry Lynn Barbara's mother- The Dying Flower)

My Blood Boils Cold

This time you've really gone and done it
always your way and then over the edge
so extreme this life you want to lead
just where do I belong
how do I fit in it all

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

I don't know which way I'm going
is this up or is this down
tossed around like a rag doll
my stuffing is almost gone
I just keep telling myself
to hang on for one more day

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

Hope is all that I have left
it's what I can cling to
can't you see it in my eyes
I don't really want to lose you

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

Our house is warm
but our bed is cold
this heartache grows and grows
this love that started out so grand
somehow lost now has really gotten old

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

Do you hope that I'll just go away
fade into the shadows of your past
just like all of the others
who broke your heart and they left

I told right from the beginning
I was in this for the long haul
I could take the roller coaster
of love's hardships and it's flaws
but what you're doing to us now
will be the end of it all

This time you've really gone and done it
always your way and then over the edge
so extreme this life you want to lead
just where do I belong
how do I fit in it all

You're so hot and you're so cold
never showing any emotion
we just seem to be going through the motions
I guess I've gotten so used to it
it makes my blood boil cold

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

How deep can you stick it
you know just what you're doing
you can play this game all day long

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 12/2/2012)