This Ain't No Life

I don't know my future
so i don't have no hope
waiting for my life to begin again
leaves me standing on a slippery slope
if i try to go back i can't make the grade
its too steep from all my tears they're like the rain
i fell in a hole and i feel like there's no way out
and the more i fight the deeper i get
no more dreams i'm better off dead
my soul stained by my deeds it wants to leave
i reached out to you but you turned away
telling me you're using all your tough love
but what did i do to earn it in the first place
the sun is so bright it burns my face
too many days seeking out only the darkness
my shame apparently lingering all over me
what do you want with me
why can't you leave me alone
can't you see I've thrown myself away
cast aside my name it's just a word defamed
my teeth all worn down from the shame
from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
ya from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
there's no use waiting for one that won't listen
they turned away so long ago so i won't miss them
the don't even recognize me when they pass me
but it was so different back when they needed me
guess i was fooled good because i believed them
it just felt good that someone needed me
keep them from sinking, keep them from drowning
give them a hand when they had their doubts
show them compassion show them some love
show them compassion show them some love
show them compassion show them some love
oh help me please, pick me up
oh help me please, pick me up
no one here will show me love
i got to get up, i got to move on
got to get out and get in the sun
got to move on, i'm on the run
can't let them use their tough love
got to get away, got to find a way
to reclaim my name so i can be me
got to stand up, got to stand tall
got to be brave, before my last fall
time has been fleet time has flown by
is it too late for me to find my wings
will he still take me in, forgive my sin
maybe he won't listen, maybe he's mad
maybe he's tired, maybe he's sad
it's so hard to tell
when he's sending me his tough love
so what will i do, i feel the darkness calling
there's not too many options
i can lean to to the left or i can lean to the right
in either case my path ends up in a fight
from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
ya from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
you know, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/10/2015)