No Sleep Until the Dawn

Sometimes all you need
is a push that makes you bleed

So that it wakes you up
when reality makes it tough

Like the cold of winters touch
or the call of something else

When you have it deep down inside
something wrong and nothing else

Every morning become a challenge
can't get no sleep until the dawn

My mind's in a mental whirlwind
when my brain just won't shut up

Oh I can't turn it off
too many questions that start with why
too many answers in preconceived scenarios

It makes me cringe and grow so cold
deep down inside the ice still flows

Day after day you know I've tried
to forget the way you make me cry

Drowning my sorrow until I pass out
but this ain't no way to live, if it's living at all

How can those simple words
bring down my house of cards

How can they topple all of my defenses
how can they tear down my walls
how can they make me so vulnerable

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

In my dreams I call out your name
I look to my side but you're always gone
In my fear I hold your pillow tight

I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/30/2015)