Could This Be the End

Somethings gonna get lose tonight
somethings coming out from the inside
somethings going on a rampage
something plans on doing some damage

Somethings gonna get down tonight
somethings gonna find itself a fight
somethings gonna be coming for you
somethings gonna catch up...catch up to you

It's true...it's true...it's true...it's true
oh it's a coming...it's a coming for you
it's true...it's true...it's true...it's true
honey will you know what to do
when it comes...comes for you

The danger's in the air, it's all around you
it's every where you turn..it's out of sight
it's just beyond the circle...the circle of light
waiting to pounce when the timing is right

The darkness screams wailing out a fright
somethings looming way over there
the hair on your back standing on end
you want to run but you don't know when

Those eyes...those eyes are chasing you again
you can feel them burning..burning in
don't you look back cuz you know their close
you can smell their stench with your own nose

Could this be the end
could this be your final stand
could this be the night
could this be...could this be...could this be
should i make a stand
should i put up a fight
could this be the end
could this be...could this be...could this be
could this be the end
i have so much to live for
could this be the end
i don't want to die tonight
could this be the end
could this be...could this be...could this be
could this be the end
could this be the end

It Keeps Calling Me

Somewhere there has to be a light
breaking through to show me the way
the darkness trying to...pulling me back
as if it wants me...longing for me to stay

I often thought distance was the key
to re-find the man i lost inside of me
somewhere locked away beyond the present
hiding in some future speck falling from descent

Falling free...spinning out of control
this feeling inside of me...growing...grows
this burden so heavy...but still i know
i hear the trumpets blaring...oh so loud
in their evangelistic over tones

Sinking as i rise, opening and closing my eyes
feeling this feeling, only surpassed by all of your lies
lifting me..lifting me...can't you feel it, I'm on my way
gonna follow this tale i heard of a promise land

Of a promise land..of a promise land
gonna head on to the promise land
everything's gonna be ok
when i reach the promise land

The promise land...the promise land
everything's gonna be ok
when i reach the promise land

It's my life and i want it to be more
oh so much more..more than this
more than this...there just has to be
more than this...more than this
there has to be something
something more than this

Or there's just no point in going on
no reason to break another dawn
nothing's left for me to believe in
all was lost...lost with all of your sin

So somewhere there has to be a light
breaking through to show me the way
because... because
the darkness trying to...ya it's pulling me back
as if it wants me...it's longing for me to stay

It doesn't want me to go
it wants me to stay
it wants me to stay
ya...it wants me to stay
wants me to stay
ya ..it wants me to stay

it keeps calling me
it keeps calling me
ya..ya..ya..it keeps calling me
it keeps calling me
it keeps calling me
 
Maybe this time
I'll just give in

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/17/2013)

That's What I Get

There's a new low you're bringing home
tonight there's something crawling inside of me
ya i can feel it..i can feel it... eating me

And there's a little less of me every minute
it consumes me... savoring me..
with every little bite
ya that's what i get
for jumping in and going for it

All the time i spent in this hoping for the best
didn't know our pairing would be the final test
holding on for one more day wondering what to do
blinded by beauty while acting like a fool

And what kind of a constant
does a heartbreak want to brew
when one loves unconditionally
while the other one is untrue

And how deep do they have to drive it
when they've stuck their knife thru and thru
why do they have to flaunt it
like they always do
shoving it all up in our face
like they had something all along to prove

So there's a little less of me every minute
consuming me... savoring me..
with every little bite
ya that's what i get
for jumping in and going for it

I'm drowning in a pool of my own sweat
waiting for the time that's already been set
the clock on the wall is laughing all the time
knowing i can't stay awake that long
knowing that you're never coming home

I wanted to tell you off
i wanted to give it one last shot
i wanted to bring it to and end
i wanted for us to begin again
i wanted something more than this

But all you wanted was to show your tits
not to me... but rather some other man
and i was the fool..i was the fool
ya i was the fool
for putting all my trust and love in you

So there's a little less of me every minute
that goes by
consuming me... savoring me..
with every little bite
ya that's what i get
that what i get
for jumping in and going for it

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/8/2013)

Why Can't You Be Someone Else

The storm has come again
sequestered your rein has fallen
wow its like its never ending
just when i thought i would get a break
is when i see you hovering

Over me, over me, over me
you keep hovering hover me

Why can't you give me some space
why can't you just leave it alone
why can't you listen to my words
why can't you be someone else

Oh it's all that i can...not to want to
it's all that i am..that keeps me from
it's what i believe...that keeps you from harm

Some day you're gonna get yours
then you're gonna pay with your tears
you're gonna want to lay down and die
no one around while you lay there and cry

While you lay there and cry
while you lay there and cry,
oh ya ...cry, cry, cry, cry
why don't you
die, die, die

I think i would be so better off
than to know you're just outside my door
no the pain inside won't go away
as long as you're still hanging around

Oh it's all that i can...not to want to
it's all that i am..that keeps me from
it's what i believe...that keeps you from harm

Why can't you give me some space
why can't you just leave it alone
why can't you listen to my words
why can't you be someone else

The storm has come again
sequestered your rein has fallen
it's like it's never gonna end
just when i thought i would get a break
is when i see you hovering over me

Over me, over me, over me
you keep hovering hover me
over me, over me, over me
you keep hovering hover me

Some day you're gonna get yours
you're gonna want to lay down and die
then you're gonna pay with your tears
no one around while you lay there and cry

While you lay there and cry
while you lay there and cry,
oh ya ...cry, cry, cry, cry
why don't you
die, die, die

Oh it's all that i can...not to want to
it's all that i am..that keeps me from
it's what i believe...that keeps you from harm

Why can't you give me some space
why can't you just leave it alone
why can't you listen to my words
why can't you be...someone else

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/22/2013)

what she fears

with a spurt of energy she leaves the scene
not wanting any one to know her name
not to place her face with this tragedy
not to put the blame on to her fortune or fame

she hobbles down the alley beyond the streets
looking back to see if anyone is following her
the darkness coming, the air is getting cold
yet what she fears the most is still untold

the dogs let loose, can hear them calling
soon they'll be close enough to smell her
is there somewhere close to hide away
her fear is pumping hard and harder

just what is this situation supposed to teach her
what did you need to learn from your teacher
how to survive here in the darkness believe it
shaking in fear the coldness is creeping

she can hear them scratching at the door
sirens and helicopters all up in her ears
keep her screaming and screaming
rocking back and forth yelling and yelling

"i cant go back... i had to do what i did to get out"
"can't you see what they were doing to me"
"no one to hold... no one to love"
"every day a tragedy...no one would believe"
"they were coming for me...coming for me"

so she let out a scream louder than God
hoping someone would come, but no one would
so she did what she did and ran far away
now they've caught up with her the very next day

"i cant go back... i had to do what i did to get out"
"can't you see what they were doing to me"
"no one to hold... no one to love"
"every day a tragedy...no one would believe"
"they were coming for me...coming for me"

The Valley Between Us

You moved all your things
now you're sleeping in the other room

There's a valley between us
it's depth too hard to fathom
it's spread too wide to understand

Spending your weekends
with your so-called friends

And when i call... you're never there
when did you lose your faith

I give you everything
honestly, you just took it all

And now i just shake my head
don't know what's left to believe

There's a valley between us
it's depth too hard to fathom
it's spread too wide to understand

I try to hide my feelings
I try to bear the sting

It's so simple to hold it in
protection is the what begins

So i came to be with you
in the room you're sleeping in

Tried to give it one last try
but you kept your space
and your silence too

There's a valley between us
it's depth too hard to fathom
it's spread too wide to understand

And nothings gonna be accomplished
by trying to break it's span

You're over there and I'm over here
obviously we've lost what we held dear
no way around to make it any clearer

Well it's time to let it all go

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/18/2013)

Time Heals the Soul

My heart aches, it aches , for you
I'm nothing, so it seems, without you
so you always said

I don't want you... to go
but that's all over now
cuz time has healed my soul

You said it all in a rage and fiery fit
ya this time you've had enough
ya this time this is it

And all of the times before
you finally cooled down by the time
i was heading out that door

I don't know what i do
what i do to piss off you
i try and try to be good

But the more i try
the more i ruin
seems like i just have to breathe
and you come off so unglued

It doesn't have to be this way
we didn't start out like this
you were, we were, having so much fun
now it looks like we've come undone

You said it all in a rage and fiery fit
ya this time you've had enough
ya this time this is it

I don't know what i do
what i do to piss off you
i try and try to be good

So i come home after work
everything's gone and so are you
and I'm crying in the dark
so much loss, man was i the fool

My heart aches, it aches , for you
I'm nothing, so it seems, without you

I don't want you... to go
but that's all over now
because time has healed my soul

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/18/2013)

Gotta Stop the Bleed

So many people out there in this world
no one to care for them, no one to love
you see them every day they stand next to you
they need some love, they just need someone

Standing in the dark wondering where you are
waiting for a familiar sound the one when you get home
will this finally be the last straw, the end of us, i don't know
this isn't the way or what i thought our love would grow

Feeding on lonely nights and something's feeding on my despair
can't help whats building up inside because you leave it there
no words need to be said, just one look and we know it's there
this love never had a chance, this love is lost without repair

Oh i tried to tell you, but you didn't want to listen
i tried to seal this leak we created, tried to keep it real
never could understood the way you're thinking
and the way your words were always peaking

You're never calm when you talk to me, baby
always in an argument, you tend to redirect it
so tired of you putting the blame on me, yes i am

And we get a moment, i try to solve the situation
i try to hold your hand, say something sweet to you
but you know what you do, you just pull away

So why do you stay with me
cant you see this ain't working out
this love doesn't have what it takes
what you got is full of holes
so full heart break, honey

I just can't go on, living this way you know
the days are lonely and nights are too long
waiting to hear if you are coming home
someone has to take a stand you see

Cuz i gotta mend this heart
Darling i gotta stop the bleed

I need, yes i need

Someone to hold my hand
take me to the promise land

Hold me up when i fall
when they're out, they will call

To tell, to tell me they love me
that I'm, ya that I'm their only one
that they can't wait to get home to me
and hold me through the night

I just can't go on, living this way you know
the days are lonely and nights are too long

Cuz i gotta mend this heart
ya Darling,  i gotta stop the bleed

I need, yes i need

Someone to hold my hand
take me to the promise land

Cuz i gotta mend this heart
Honey, i gotta stop the bleed

So many people out there in this world
no one to care for them, no one to love

Feeding on lonely nights
and something's feeding on my despair
can't help whats building up inside
because you leave it there

No words need to be said
just one look and we know it's there
this love never had a chance
this love is lost without repair

Just gotta mend this heart
just gotta stop this bleed

Just gotta believe that i can

Just gotta mend my heart
just gotta stop the bleed

Just gotta believe that i can
Love again, ya love again

Please someone stop this bleed
please someone stop this bleed
please someone stop this bleed

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/6/2013)

Gonna Do It All Again

Why am I always last one to see
always the last one to feel the free
the last one to hold on, to believe

I have four chambers in my heart
so much room to hold it all
but only takes one to ruin them all
and it bleeds when it runs full of hate

This time its gotta fill the holes
from all the ones that shot me down
this time its gotta fill me to the brim
yea you know i gotta them in

I don't care if the call me blind
its not them, its my time to win
gonna catch that ball
gonna make that goal
gonna make that dead line
gonna fly way way up high
and then I'm gonna do it

Then I'm gonna do it
then I'm gonna do it
again, again, again and again
ya..I'm going to do it again
again, again, again
ya...do it all again

Looking back over time
what were you really to me
what did you contribute
what governed your policy
what kept me under your spell
even when I knew it so well

I gave this a try, I was all in
gave it my leap of faith
not to just do the right thing
we would lose control
but we would regain it again
trying live this life without any sin

So I'm handing off the baton
another day another dollar
waiting for the sun to holler
living this life the best I can
living it being the best that I am

I don't care if the call me blind
its not them, it's my time to win
gonna catch that ball
gonna make that goal
gonna make that dead line
gonna fly way way up high
and then I'm gonna do it

Then I'm gonna do it
then I'm gonna do it
again, again, again and again
ya..I'm going to do it again
again, again, again
ya...do it all again

Ya...do it all again

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/3/2013)

I Can Learn to Live With It

Cornered by your wrath
i can't say anything
without oppression
without a verbal beating
you're so quick
thy tongue is your whip

I have to chose my words
or I'll feel the sting
you're always lying in waiting
finding pleasure in the stalk
looming in the darkness
until i have the need

One look from you
and it makes me shiver
all the way through my bones
makes me want to beg
give me something
something please

I got no control
got nothing up my sleeve
got nowhere i can go
to get away
to fly, to be free
so caught up
in your web of deceit

And i need you now
but i know what that brings
the innocence gone
this heart torn in two
don't know which way to go
do i give in again
if i only knew how to leave

Waiting for the sun to come
so the darkness will be all gone
maybe things will clear
get something straight up in my head
maybe i can learn to live with it
hopefully before I'm dead

Gotta have some plan
so i can breathe
need some space
that i can call my own
some where to run and hide
far away from you
and when i look up to the sky
i want to see the stars
and not your face

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/1/2013)

What Your Love Has Done (the experiment - dual duo)

  
Light headed and in a daze
    (it's what they say about this one)
feeling the chill of this lonely place
    (rumors spreading while they're shaking)
there's nothing left here to fill my void
    (they can't help what they're spilling)
not even the sound of your voice
   (it's just how they're feeling this time)

The light of the moon moves with grace
    (not knowing which is the way to go)
from one side of the room across this space
    (which way is up or down)
it's all empty from the bottom to the top
    (when they break their crowns)
but I'm held firm i can't even move
    (jawing over me and you)
    (we know the subject is mute)

Well I've been trying to remember
    (nothing needs to be said)
what it was that could of made it all go wrong
    (and when the sun raises it's head)
i tried so hard so why don't you know
    (we know this will be the last time)
my commitment from the start
    (they will get the fuel to stave their fires)
i always thought proven so strong
    (honestly I'm quite surprised its last this long)
    (i wasn't figuring it would go on and on)

But you see, these one sided love affairs
    (all the signs you been giving in)
never sprout the way one expects or believes
    (pointed to our demise before it began)
somehow they always take the path of deceit
    (but i was willing to see where it lead)
wandering where they don't belong
    (not seeing the shortness of this future)
while still lingering on and on beneath our feet
    (laying in the rapture of the moment)
    (feeling my heart make the leap instead)


I getting tired of them, I'm getting too old and lost
    (sliding down... ya sliding down)
gonna stop running from my past so it can catch up
    (no way of turning round, no way to escape)
maybe then I'll get a chance to learn all of my lessons well
    (just maybe i don't want to)
maybe then you'll see what your love has done to me
    (maybe this is what i want, what i need)
    (so I'm asking, baby...baby please.. don't leave)

by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/24/2013
(inspiration from ELO - duo verses sung side by side)

What Your Love Has Done

Light headed and in a daze
feeling the chill of this lonely place
there's nothing left here to fill my void
not even the sound of your voice

The light of the moon moves with grace
from one side of the room across this space
it's all empty from the bottom to the top
but I'm held firm i can't even move

Well I've been trying to remember
what it was that could of made it all go wrong
i tried so hard so why don't you know
my commitment from the start
i always thought proven so strong

But you see, these one sided love affairs
never sprout the way one expects or believes
somehow they always take the path of deceit
wandering where they don't belong
while still lingering on and on beneath our feet

I getting tired of them, I'm getting too old and lost
gonna stop running from my past so it can catch up
maybe then I'll get a chance to learn all of my lessons well
maybe then you'll see what your love has done to me

feeling my heart make the leap

it's what they say about this one
rumors spreading while they're shaking
they can't help what they're spilling
it's just how they're feeling this time
not knowing which is the way to go
which way is up or down
when they break their crowns
jawing over me and you
we know the subject is mute
nothing needs to be said
and when the sun raises it's head
we know this will be the last time
they will get the fuel to stave their fires
honestly I'm quite surprised its last this long
i wasn't figuring it would go on and on
all the signs you been giving in
pointed to our demise before it began
but i was willing to see where it lead
not seeing the shortness of this future
laying in the rapture of the moment
feeling my heart make the leap instead
sliding down... ya sliding down
no way of turning round, no way to escape
just maybe i don't want to
maybe this is what i want, what i need
so i'm asking, baby...baby please.. don't leave

To Look That Far

I know
there's not much of chance
for us to begin again

To try where we left off
to restart
to let the past be behind us

I never imagined
that there was this future
i always refused to look that far

This silence is seeping in
filling my heart when it gets in

Honey there's not much more
my lonely soul can take

Night after night rolling around
racking my brain
trying to figure it all out

Trying to find out
who made the mistake

For you see
ever since i was a kid
i used to dream about your kiss
i use to dream about what i missed

And even when life spun it's evil twists
i always cherished that you would be there
you'd be the one that always cared

Then you went off and ran away
leaving me here to live my days

Baby all alone and it's no fun
the stars won't shine
cuz there's no sun

And I know
there's not much of chance
for us to begin again

To try where we left off
just to restart
to let the past be behind us

Darling i never imagined
that there was this future

Because i always refused
to look that far

Nothing Left Behind

The dust will leave them
the dew will clean them

The days will come and go
and the nights will get so cold

There's no one around to let me know
where you really went last night

You say you been with another man
so now what is the plan

Can i find some forgiveness
is there enough left on the floor

It's everything in the man that i am
to hold myself together in your presence

My hand trembling with my fear
seeing you standing there
all is new and now it's so clear

This life we've been leading
full of false hopes and damaged dreams

This love I've been feeling
now full of holes and the disbelieving

It tells me to hang on , to keep on trying
but in my heart i know, it's already died

Something looms, hovering between us
the silence is so thick you could cut it

Honey why did you go and do it
what made you run to that other man

When you said all things to me
you lead me on a path of deceit
in your light i always followed
a false hope for our future's dreams

And now the fruit of our love
will never see a tomorrow
because you want to take that away

Nothing to be left behind you say
no way, no sorrow

Shining Through

For someone who wants to be free
i keep letting these walls fall on me
how will i ever get to see
beyond the shadows that they cast

This time i have to get it right
learning from the tears of my past
this time it has to be the last time
because there's just only enough room
in my heart for one more try

I look at you with all of my doubts
not knowing what to expect from you
I've tried to imagine all of the scenarios
so many waiting on the sideline to come true

And when we get to look each other in the eye
for a fleeting moment i could almost feel it rushing through
this long lost friend i use to know by my own name
too many have beaten me down to this level can't you see
my self esteem just couldn't take it anymore

But now the sun comes shining through
i can hear the beating of my own heart
deep down i always knew it was there
waiting for the chance to come alive again
and it did bursting way up in the air

So come on and take a chance with me
i promise you that i will take a while
learn what i can give and what I'll take
and i will receive what you want to give to me
hand in hand we will challenge destiny

For someone who wants to be free
i keep letting these walls fall on me

This time i have to get it right
learning from the tears of my past

I look at you with all of my doubts

Not knowing what to expect from you
I've tried to imagine all of the scenarios

So many waiting on the sideline to come true

But now the sun comes shining through

I can hear the beating of my own heart
deep down i always knew it was there

Waiting for the chance to come alive again
and it did bursting way up in the air

So come on and take a chance with me

I promise you that i will take a while

Learn what i can give and what I'll take

And i will receive what you want to give to me

Hand in hand we will ....challenge destiny

And when we get to look each other in the eye
for a fleeting moment i could almost feel it rushing through

This long lost friend i use to know by my own name

Too many have beaten me down to this level can't you see
my self esteem just couldn't take it anymore

But now the sun comes shining through
comes shining through
the sun comes shining through

And so do you... and so do you
and so do you... and so do you
you know you do
you come shining through
you..you come shining through
you...you...you..you
come shining through
you come shining...through

what went wrong

what went wrong

lying here under the darkest cloud
trying to figure it all out
ya... what went wrong

trying to keep it together
I'm trying to be strong
but in my heart I've had doubt

something inside me
ya..telling me
said you weren't all in
in this love
like I'm all in

since we've been together
I've always been the one
I've always believed in us

but something...something
was holding you back

I don't know if you'll ever win
who's gonna break through first
or who's gonna do the worst

all i know is in my soul
I'll try with all my might
i won't be the one to give up
I'm gonna try and win this fight

i could die inside
trying to fly
looking for you
are you within my sight
is there still any hope
waiting for you

lying here under the darkest cloud
trying to keep it together
I'm trying to be strong
trying to figure it all out

ya... what went wrong
what went wrong
ya... what went wrong
ya... what went wrong
(wha..wha..wha..wha)
ya... what went wrong

Ready to Pop

I don't know what this world expects of me
i try and try all that i can
every day, every day
but it doesn't seem to be enough
to get them off my back

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya

I'm like an over-inflated balloon
don't know when but I'm ready to pop
there's just too much to take in
they're always trying to force me
but it's way too much

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya
ya ya

Don't get too close
don't rub me rough
I'm telling you now
I'm ready, ya ready to pop

I can sense my pain, it feels so hot
don't know how long i can stand it
but i gotta refrain, gotta hold it in
or it will drive me insane

Gotta see what happens
just one more day, ya
i want to feel your love
like it's the falling rain

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya
ya ya, ya ya ya

Flowing across me like the mist in the air
covering everything with it's blanketed care
what's this I'm feeling in your stare
could it be love that's holding me here

Ya ya, ya, ya ya, ya

Don't let me go, hold on to my string
tie me around your heart, let me sing
the longer i stay the more I'll believe
in love, I'll believe in love

Then i can hold them back
I'll try and try all that i can
with you by my side
ya ya, ya, ya ya, ya !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 7/3/2013)

Bi-Polar Love

It's sticky around here lately
don't know when you'll appear
or when I'll trigger the hate
that's buried way down in you

Don't know why you prey on me
maybe because nobody else will play the fool
caught in your web just waiting on you
to finally come and do me in

It's no surprise any more
the way you act darling
when you think you got me cornered again
the gloves are off lets stop pretending

You always go a little way too far
I don't know when you're playing
or when it's time for me to run
you say your bi-polar love is so much fun

Well it's getting sticky around here
I don't know when next you'll appear
or when i'll trigger all the hate
that's buried way down in you

Still don't know why you prey on me
maybe because nobody else will play the fool
I'm caught in your web just waiting on you
to finally come sink your fangs and do me in

This relationship is full of fire
sometimes it's way too hot to bear
can't stand the heat that comes from you
But I can't run away

Sometimes I'm frozen from the fear
don't know what's coming next
the love I want
but the monster's near

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/21/2013

The End

This existence, this manipulation of time, space and continuum. The stretch of reality both outwards and inwards. The realization, the confusion. The blindness, the light. All combined and yet individualized. Separated by opinion or ridicule and greed or spite. The self-awareness and yet all complete denial towards brother, sister, mother, father, child, relative, neighbor, community, nation or Earth, environment, animals and our fellow mankind. The darkness, the cold, the outcast, the loneliness, the bewilderment, the starvation, the death upcoming, all on the lips of everyone untold. The fear, the hate, the progression and being left behind. The interest, the dis-concern, the contempt to undermine, the wastefulness, the squandering, the refugees, the genocide. The race for space, all around us and in the sky, the need for speed, the acceptance of the ones that didn't need to die. The fabric of time, the fabric of life, the washing of hands, the corruptions of governments, the death of child. The end is always near, the time is never right, the politicians rarely care. The spilling of blood, the waste it creates, the downside of love, the breaking of news, the wait of despair, the cry for life, the deaf ears that won't hear. The sound of silence, the noise of pollution, the drowning of whales, the air that's impaired, the slow death of persuasion, lobbied by damnation. The gift of hope, the ideal of salvation, the promise of Senate, the promise from Pope. The end of all life, no need to explore, the time will be forwarded, everyone's death all proper and joyed.
 
(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/15/2013

That's What I Gotta Believe

I know my time has come
this i know is true
spent too many days
trying to make it come true
this life i lead
makes it tough to believe
anything else is merely mute

And i roll on down the road
some loose change is all i own
living my life day by day
taking what i can as it lays
the danger's ever close
no time for me to stay

And so i roll on down the road
the clothes on my back is all i own
the smell and the stench
is the love that I've ever known
don't know how much more i can take
but i can't afford to make mistakes

And so i roll on down this road
I'm looking for love in the wrong place
i can't shake her face in my dreams
it's gonna haunt me forever it seems
dragging the truth out always hurts
the heartache will always burn

And so here i am out on the road again
chasing the the sun just for fun
trying to get as far away as i can
maybe it's better this a way
you don't need anyone like me
at least that's what i gotta believe

She had the hair so silky and streamed
she had this thing she could make you believe
she had a way to work herself in
she had an undying and understanding love
she died when she was way too young
she's always there in the middle of my dreams
and then she's gone when i finally wake up

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/8/2013

Back to the Earth

Dreams for some
well they might become true
but not for me no not this time
i hide in the shadows in the darkness
hoping for mine hoping for some one

What if there were no sin
would it be a perfect place to live
sometimes life just ends
but it doesn't mean
there's never gonna be more to begin

Raising our hands to the sky
shaking our fists
what does it all really mean
why do we even exist
just to become some part of the dust
back to the earth part of the crust

We always seem to go back and forth
living a lie losing our trust
trying to make sense of it all
but i have concluded its time to end this

Searching in my heart for the love
searching my soul for what i already know
living this life full of desire full of deceit
when does it stop will it be when i bleed
left in the cold with no one to morn me

Raising our hands to the sky
shaking our fists
what does it all really mean
why do we even exist
just to become some part of the dust
back to the earth part of the crust

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/5/2013)

Darrelia's Slumber

Darrelia Manjamneeia slowly rose from her bedly slumber, this time she knew for sure something or someone had intruded the place she had rented for the summer. the well placed traps she laid out previously this time had done their job. she grasp the large spatula she confiscated from the kitchen tightly, stealthy she proceeded to get out of her bed without a sound. she had been sweating profusely in her sleep as she was dreaming of what the horrible thing was that invaded her sanctuary. her mind was racing as she tried to quietly cross the floor to the bedroom door, it was made up entirely of local sea shells beaded on strings that hung to the floor. as she approached she could start to see into the kitchen thru the sea shells entry, the moonlight shined brightly through the open bamboo windows. half way across the bedroom floor the planks give way to her slendered weight and give out a howling "Creeeeeek", she pauses with fear thinking the thing heard her for sure. and it did as it broke out a wailing noise as if to impose some sort of territory within the kitchen. it moved fast as she only caught a darkened shadow flying past the entry way. she stood in fear, she couldn't move and she dared not to as the thing was tearing up the kitchen. she heard it huffing and puffing , screaming and wailing in panical dismemberment of the premises. all she could think of was not to move, would it finally come in to the bedroom to attack her now. this game had been going on for weeks and now has it come to it's climax? the thing burst through the door and she screamed running towards the kitchen, she swung the spatula like a ninja this way and that, the sea shells spread across the floors and Darrelia slipped on them causing her to fall and hit her head on the counter.the thing screamed a blood curdling yell and Darrelia lie there thinking this was the end as she drifted off to her unwanted sleep. her last vision was something dark and shadowy coming towards her slowly.

It's Long, It's Hard

sitting here in the silence
trying to figure out what went wrong
i tried my best
but i guess my best wasn't good enough
for her... you know

not enough money in my pockets
for all the fancy things she wants
been working my fingers to the bone
she never has time to notice

she's always trying to live a life
that's way too far beyond us
and now she doesn't have the patience
to wait for me to give it to her anymore

gonna go out on the town and leave me
gonna punish me no there's no forgiveness
in her mind it's been my fault all along
it's me you know I've been the one
who's been keeping her down

she turns her head and doesn't listen
when i tell her you'll never find love
not the way you want to get it
the path your planning on taking
it's long, it's hard
and it's way too deceiving

Too Far From Grace

oh i was willing to accept you for who you are
but you always thought you were a shooting star
lost on this earth because you went too far
so you feel trapped here in my galaxy

and some where out there is still a place
you keep telling me that you have to find
but i know you're just trying to soften the blow
for when you think you have to leave

now I can take it all in just like any man
but I cant take this thing that you call love
I can feel my heart growing smaller day by day
my poor soul is falling too far from grace

and when i try to look into your eyes
you always find the time to look the other way
a million words couldn't even describe it
this feeling we shared has finally gone away

stuck in time we try to play the game
but we both know what you're planning
you lay it out there before go out on the town
you're gonna find the right moment and fly away

yea way up in the the sky where you always look
you're gonna try and see if you can find your home
too bad you never found peace in your heart
because if you would of really looked
you could of truly seen you've been there all along

I'm not the cheating kind

day or night they all come to me
holding their hearts in their hands
always crying on my shoulder
telling me about how they hurt them
because they feel I'm their only friend

one by one they come knowing
that they are safe here with me
that they can tell me all they want
and I'll be here listening to what they say
because i really want to help them

hoping one day that they will finally see me
not just as something or someone to run to
to get away and flee from their demons
the ones that chase them from him and into my arms
you know they know where they run to

but they don't want to talk about it
they even turn their heads when i see them
they know I'm not the cheating kind
some kind of friend when they shun me
must be hard to come terms with shame inside

but it's hard for me to find someone
that would understand how they need me
somehow i feed them with what they need
to survive for just a little bit longer
to stretch my insanity to it's limits

never knowing any love for myself
and when i get a chance to explain it
they'll never understand
the jealousy over runs them
a woman can't be friends with a man
and keep it strictly platonic, it's not in them

but I'm here to say
it's been happening to me, all of my life
sharing thoughts beyond a simple hello
giving comfort whenever i can
being there for when they need me
lending a friendly helping hand

not wanting anything in underlying returns
just wanting to see them smile
turning that frown upside down
hearing them just let go
of the things that make them cry

This Thing That You Call Love

You know, you know
Baby you know, Baby you know
its too late, we're too far gone
this time its for real, my heart you did steal
its all over the floor, my blood you did spill
this is it, ya this is it, it's finally come
my soul is undone, you've finally won
in the game of love, ya in the game of love
no one wins when one of you sin
leading the other one on
like there's still hope to save what began
so, so long ago, when we first met
when i fell in love with you
ya when i looked into your eyes
and what a surprise
i could see my future within them
so i did thought with the signs you gave me
that something stirred inside to greet me
instead time would only deceive me
leave me cold and yearning for love
when it wasn't you that would give it
and now there's this other guy
always calling on the phone
even daring to knock on our home
coming by when I'm not there
when i have to leave and trust you
and hurts me so when i know
it's not me you're giving your love to
Darling what did he promise you
that I'm not providing too
or is your heart so cold
it doesn't matter where it comes from
as long as you get yours
this time its all on you
the consequences you'll answer to
knowing you cant look me in the eye
honey you know the truth hurts
more than any old lie that you adhere too
it's time to pay the piper
cuz this thing that you call love has died

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/15/2013

The Aftermath

Well it's happening again
my life seems to be set on repeat
it doesn't matter what i believe
there doesn't seem to be relief
from all these lies and deceit

Why do they have to hurt me so
when all i give is what i know
they just take all that they can
and then they want to leave
with my heart laid out in their hands

My soul exposed to this hell
tormented pleasure with extremes
they all start out oh so well
then they fall in to the doom
it's all become a swirling mixed up world

And I'm caught up in the aftermath
trying to decide if it was even worth my time
to let someone in that will eventually
use what they learn and turn it back on me
just to claim they had the right along

It makes it tough to evaluate
because you thought you knew them
then it's only in the end of your long run
when you've finally come to your wits end
that's the time when they'll show their true face

So you're left in the dark in the cold place
all alone waiting for the new day
contemplating everything and what life is for
wondering if you'll ever love again
or if you have ever, ever loved at all

The Valley's Singing

Waiting for the morning
for the sun to tell the time
it will be yelling conformation
of what i already know
you've been out there cheating
all over town

I toss and turn
throwing up such a sweat
this bed is on fire
burning passions
begging for their pleasures
just memories long forgotten
no chance to repeat

The river deepens
each and every night
these tears keep falling
when i think i hear your voice
the valley's singing
the storm is brewing
my heart is crying
brought on by fire and ice

Nothing's sacred
your whispers still linger in the air
making empty promises
then you try and break them
no remorse when you can
no faith for the ones that love you
they're all fools if they even dare

It's getting harder
i see you in my sleep
you're everywhere around me
a ghost with nowhere to go
relief and torture
too complex to overthrow
there's nowhere to hide
God forbid
I'm still...loving you

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/12/13)

Love in Little Bits to Feed Them

I lost my heart
oh not because i had to
and not because it was old and feeble
i lost a little piece here, a little piece there
even though i struggled to save them
they were slowly torn away
sometimes they just finally fell off
other times they were yanked off intentionally
in either case they hurt so profoundly
others were just so numb i didn't notice the notch it left
i felt the pain at first in most cases
some i endured throughout it's processes
i could feel my inner happiness slowly fade away
it was something that came at me in many levels
it's still something that leaves me even today
i don't feel them re-filling their spaces
but i live my life hoping they rest in peace
my dreams are riddled with their despair
leaving me feel helpless as they disappear
awaking my sleep with sweat and tears
and i go on trying to fill my day
trying to forget what's brought me here
but it's hard and harder to lie to myself
because my soul is scratching to get out
it can't stand or handle the constrictions
knowing what i do is killing it too
maybe it's time to cast in my dime
and pretend it all going to be alright
pray for it to end and hope for a restart
then maybe it will finally have a chance to heal
leaving this earth for those who will steal
love in little bits to feed them !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/9/2013)

Feeling the Urge To Resist

it's a sad thing
to see me this a way
it's a cruel dream
that keeps repeating in my sleep
it's crazy how it stings
too much heartbreak to save my world
how could i be so blind not to see
what you would eventually do to me

so the clouds have come to share my despair
the sun won't shine and the rain won't stop
it's all come together in one big blob
girl how am i going to get over you

i try not to think
about all the good times i had with you
all the laughter that has been removed
the comfort of your arms when i awake
the devil in your eyes when you began to cheat

so why do i feel like i was wrong
when it was you that broke our trust
honey i tried and tried for so long
even forgave you for being with that other man

is this what i deserve for being above it
is this what destiny does when it turns it head
i was at the end of my wits raising my hands
is this all that there is when a heartbreak wins

it's a sad thing
to see me this a way
it's a cruel dream
that keeps repeating in my sleep
it's crazy how it stings
too much heartbreak to save my world
how could i be so blind not to see
what you would eventually do to me

so the clouds have come to share my despair
the sun won't shine and the rain won't stop
it's all come together in one big blob
girl how am i going to get over you

they say that love is blind
but they don't say anything about when it's unkind
all of your friends turn you away
choosing to believe all of her lies
she's covered her tracks with my blood

it's all i can do
to keep my above the clouds
not get carried away into the lies
but i have to some how come out of this love affair
feeling the urge to resist while protecting my pride

it's a sad thing
to see me this a way
it's a cruel dream
that keeps repeating in my sleep
it's crazy how it stings
too much heartbreak to save my world
how could i be so blind not to see
what you would eventually do to me

so the clouds have come to share my despair
the sun won't shine and the rain won't stop
it's all come together in one big blob
girl how am i going to get over you
feeling the urge to resist

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/5/2013)

talking the language of love

i don't understand where you're coming from
too many words that beat around the bush
why cant we say the words that we comprehend
you know we know how to talk the language of love

yea that's it...just keep expressing how you feel
use it like you can...spell it... ohhh... like a man
so so strong...hands that span...every where

I'm listening to your sounds...to your song
you know... i gotta have more
sweet sweat...pouring from every pore
this is how to tell me how you adore..me

stop look and listen...to what i have to say
it's all important... in its own way
cherish what we have and what we save

you're my moon and I'm your sun
together we are one..we are in-twined
together..together we feel in love

yea that's it...just keep expressing how you feel
use it like you can...spell it... ohhh... like a woman
so so soft...hair that spills...every where

I'm listening to your sounds...to your song
you know... i gotta have more
sweet sweat...pouring from every pore
this is how to tell me how you adore..me

i see you looking back at me
through the windows of your eyes
your love...our love shining so bright
it's hard to believe you're lying here with me

we had such a hard road to wander free
each of us trying to find the light to shine
hoping to find that special someone to trust
looking frantically in the sea of lust and love

so we washed up here together in each others arms
so much peace found there and so much warmth
we can hear each others heart beat
they're talking together...I'm sure it's about love

i understand where you're coming from
too many words that beat around the bush
why cant we say the words that we comprehend
you know we know how to talk the language of love

how to talk the language of love
how to talk the language of love
we can hear each others heart beat
they're talking together...I'm sure it's about love

yea it's all about love..it's all about love
love conquers all...if you'll only allow it
it will swarm you.. swallow you whole
yea it's all about love..it's all about love

talking the language of love
talking the language of love
talking the language of love
talking the language of love
talking the language of love
talking the language of love

the pity in me

i cant seem to find the pity in me
i look around and see all the things that bother me
but still i cannot find the pity in me
i see the stupidity in various things and people
and i see the tragedy of those i survey
still yet i cannot see the pity in me
i feel for those less fortunate
and i get angry at those that pretend they care
but for some reason i cannot feel for myself
even though i try and try to find my pity
i do things for others when i can
i speak out in protest for those that can't
but still i cannot feel the pity in me
what is it that stops me from my own care
self preservation, shouldn't i be aware
so how come my brain blocks the pity in me
i find it outrageous that people are starved
i hate it when i hear people pretend to care
i despise my politicians that look the other way
but still as of yet cannot find the pity in me
is it that i think i understand
that my brain refuses to relinquish faith in man
that i don't consider myself in as much need
that do enough for myself that its not something i feel i need
or that deep down i know there are others looking out for me
still, as much as i try, i cannot feel the pity in me

Gonna Let It Slip Away

i see this love
it's breaking
gonna snap in two
if we're not careful
if we don't know what to do

are we just gonna
let it all slip away

you once said to me
gonna be here for eternity
not gonna let the others
turn your head from me
not gonna ever stray

now i can hear the awful sound
the walls of my heart breaking down
can it be this will be the end of me
is there even room for one last time
to let love fill in the void

i see this love
it's breaking
it's gonna snap in two

if we're not careful
if we don't know what to do
we're just gonna
let it all slip away

it's not what i dreamed
it's not what i thought the cards held for me
i always thought i would meet someone
that would want all the things the same as me

but it's been a really rough road
to travel upon
so lonely as it goes on and on
no one to call my own

no one wants to hear me
no one wants to see the tears
fall from me

my eyes swollen from the heartache
I've lost my way
the path covered in my sorrow
and in my pain

oh i see this love
it's breaking apart
you know it's gonna snap in two

if we're not careful
if we don't shed a light
if we don't know what to do

then Baby
lets get some help
and try, really try
try to save this love

I don't know where you've gone
Baby please
please come back
and save this love

try and save this love
Baby i don't have anyone to hold
this heartache is in control
I'm so cold and all alone

if we're not careful
if we don't shed a light
if we don't know what to do

oh don't you see
this love
it's gonna break apart

you know it's gonna snap in two
you know it's not me
no Baby, it's you

you know, you know, you know
Baby, Baby, baby

you treat me so cruel
I'm beginning to think
you never really loved me
Darling
i was just a fool

gonna let it all slip away
gonna let it all slip away
Baby
gonna let it slip away
gonna let it slip away

gonna let it....slip away

She Lets Me Know

I finally figured out
where my love has flown
it sure doesn't seem like it wants to stay
I guess it was never mine
even from the start
     (from the start...from the start)

I gave them all I could
in my mind I thought all was good
but eventually they showed their other side
they always seemed to have other plans
not caring for the cut the leave
      (the cut they leave...the cut they leave)

But I wont give up hope
I want to believe there's still a chance
that there's someone special out there for me
who wants to fill their heart
someone who wants to fall in love
      (who wants to fall...who wants to fall)
      (in love...in love..you know)

Well it's been five years now
and I'm still looking for that kindred soul
I don't want to give up looking
my heart just wont let me stop
it wants to be filled, it wants to grow
      (it wants to grow...it wants to grow)

Then one day there she was
and my soul just dropped to the floor
when our eyes met for the first time
something inside me changed again
somehow I knew she was the one
     (she's the one...she's the one)

And now our life we live as one
two children to show our love
no need to worry about if it's good
she says she doesn't need anyone else

That I'm the one she was waiting for
all this time
     (all this time...all this time)

My heart is so happy now, I can soar
finally living my dream to the fullest
but I know we can grow
       (we can grow...we can grow)

No need looking back
at all the love that I've lost before
now I'm filled up to the brim
she lets me know
each and every day
      (she lets me know...she lets me know)
       (ever day..every day)

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 4/2/2013)

Don't Want To Know

You bring on the light
that warms my soul
lets me know
just what I need
to live this life again

Holding hands brings me delight
shows me that I'm still alive
that this is not just a dream
or something that ends in the night
when the morning comes

One kiss from your lips
sends me in a whirl
and when I come down
from the clouds
it's you girl that's in my world

Oh and when we make love
well there's nothing else like it
we just fall in the groove

Ya we sync right in to it
like we knew each other
from a long, long time ago

So you better hold on to me
spinning round and round
don't know just where I'll stop
hope it's you
that puts on the brakes

(Don't want to go
don't want to hesitate
don't want this love to dissipate
don't want to know
if you're the type of girl that gravitates)

How Can I Be A Man

How many times are you gonna listen to him
when all he spells out for you is your doom
ya it's me I'm the one that listens to all your pain
and it hurts me so knowing there's nothing I can do

Maybe one day... ya I hope and pray
you'll open up those beautiful eyes
and see what's been right here all along

But it's all just been a dream on my part
hoping to share my heart and love
with someone who won't break apart
from the very thing that's killing them

How do I carry this burden you've given me
would it be right to right your wrongs
and if i did how could you look at me

Knowing I was the one
who set you free from harm

Oh I stand to lose everything
what I believe and what I've learned
in my heart and my soul

I know I'll be the one
cast aside for what I know

So where do I go from here
wanting to be your friend
wanting something more

And how can I be a man
knowing what it is that you endure
how is it that he can be so much less
and still somehow keep you to himself

Tears flow whenever you come by
filling the sorrow in my heart
I'm compelled to try and save you
even though the signs tell me not to do so

Am I the knight in shining armor
will you see me mount my mighty steed

Will I dare to save your honor
will I force my style of steel
will I do it for myself
or will I do it...just for you

Just for you Darling
Just for you my Baby
just for you my Honey Child
just for the sake of it
no just for the one I love

Just for the one I love
just for the one I love
Just for the one I love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/37/2013)

The Promise

You..you looking at me
with grounds in your coffee
looking like disgust in everything
saying why...why did the sun have to rise

It's a drag, look what a scene
non-recognition, you know what I mean
pretending you don't know who you are
wiping the misty film from your mirror

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

The earth so sound
it's deafening to your ears
the ground you walk on
wanting, calling you to come

Just five more minutes please
then I'll be sure to come
running just as fast as I can
today was supposed to be the last time

I promise, this I make to you
a better person, you know I'll try

But not until it's time
maybe tomorrow
will show me the way

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

Too many years have come and gone
always breaking the promises
the ones to yourself that you can't keep

And is it no surprise
they all have come and gone
why do you hurt the very ones
that you've loved so very deep

Tired of all your lies
they decided to give up
who is that person looking back at
is this who I've really become

Just five more minutes please
then I'll be sure to come
running just as fast as I can
today was supposed to be the last time

I promise, this I make to you
a better person, you know I'll try

But not until it's time
maybe tomorrow
will show me the way

Ya Time...
time can't stand still for everyone
soon you'll have to pay the piper
for all those pills and thrills

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/27/2013)

Here I Am Again

well here we go again
it's time for you to say goodbye
you say you've gone done something
that weighs too heavy on your soul

I've tried too many times you know
over and over until
my heart can't bleed anymore
honey why do feel you have to hurt me so

i gave until i couldn't give no more
so now that you've taken everything
you're heading out the door

if this is what you call love
well you've finally cut me to the bone
don't know why i tried forgiveness
when it became such a burden on my soul

so here i am again
looking for love that will mend
this broken hearted man
who just wants someone to love

someone to call my own
someone that wants a lifetime filled with love
someone who knows what it's like
to hold on to a dream and what it truly means

so now I'm back the silence
that comes with the known
hoping this valley cut deep within my heart
will someday fill on it's own

until then I'll just have to pretend
that i haven't come to my end

trying to keep this facade on my face
so everyone won't see or find out
just how broken i really feel i am

well here we go again
it's time for you to say goodbye
you say you've gone done something
that weighs too heavy on your soul

I've tried too many times you know
over and over until
my heart can't bleed anymore
honey why do feel you have to hurt me so

so here i am again
looking for love that will mend
this broken hearted man
who just wants someone to love

someone to call my own
someone that wants a lifetime filled with love
someone who knows what it's like
to hold on to a dream and what it truly means

Can't Keep a Good Cheater Down

came home last to the shades drawn low
the music blaring and the lights still on
i tried the front door but i couldn't get in

I looked through all the windows
but i couldn't see you anywhere
you were nowhere around

then i heard your voice talking
as i was headed for the back door

talking in whispers
you were saying to someone
that you had to go

sometimes i wish
that i never brought you along
the first time should been enough
for me to know

you can't keep a cheater down
they'll promise you anything
before they'll sneak out on the town

i didn't want to admit it
i didn't want to be the one
who let you down

but the tide turned on me
i was the fool for believing in you
and now i nearly drowned

i see you huddling in the corner
when you make your plans
somehow there's never enough
even when you hold it in your hands

you know i heard your voice talking
as i was headed for the back door

you were talking in whispers
you were saying something to someone
that you had to go

sometimes i wish in my heart
that i never brought you along
the first time should been enough
for me to know cheating's in your soul

and i should of known
you can't keep a good cheater down
they'll always promise you anything
before they'll sneak out on the town

I came home tonight to the shades drawn low
the music wasn't blaring and the lights were off
i tried the my key in the front door
turned on the lights and everything's gone

not even a note...saying good bye
nothing about you're slightly sorry
for killing our only child
now i don't even think
that it was mine

you just ran away baby
now you're staying with him

i should of guessed when i first met you
honey
your beauty surpasses the evil in you

you know how to cut them deep
you know how to take them for a fool

Living Life

i was just a lonely boy
not looking to hurt no one
ya...just living life

then one fine day i was caught off guard
i didn't know what i would find
looking at me from behind the scene

you knew right there that you would
make me your man
make you my wife
ya..just living life

and there we were making love
not a care in this great big world
as long as we had each other

everything was alright
ya...just living life

then came the day you gave me the news
said it was time we shared something more
ya...a new life
and our baby was born

after that the sun never shined so bright
and the moon always seemed to bless us with it's light
like they were looking out for our love
wanting to help us to make it work out alright

and over the years everything was alright
ya...just living life

i was working to the bone for our future
never thinking there was anything wrong
then i found those letters of love
you were hiding from another man

how could i of missed the signs
i kept my nose to the grind
in my heart i was always faithful

never gave you any reason
to doubt me
just living life

i thought we were just living life, baby
that it was all part of the master plan

you could of heard the world crack
ya my life, it came crashing down
all the time i thought we were moving forward
honey you had other plans

what happened to our love
that was supposed to be forever
what caused your heart to become so cold
when you knew mine was yours until the end of time

you say you lost the big picture
that you couldn't keep holding on

you didn't expect to start a family
you just wanted to live a life
free from the chains that bind you

how could i of missed the signs
i kept my nose to the grind
in my heart i was always faithful

i never gave you any reason
to doubt me, baby
i thought we were just living life

so I'm gonna be on my own again
I'm not even gonna have my children
you wanted me to die a lonely person
and you made certain of that

I'm wandering on this road of life
wondering what if i took a different path
one that didn't have you

living it day by day
almost buried in the ground
i guess I'm just living life
still thinking I'm living it for you

The Sorrow and the Strong

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

I can't help but listen to your heart cry out
it's wondering when will it ever find a love
like the one's that they all share

You see it every day
it even comes to you in the dark
the heartache that just won't go away
the pain that comes after the love

The tears fall so unwillingly
they can be most inappropriate
you don't want everyone to see
how it cuts you oh so deep

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

You call to God to end it all
saying you can't take it anymore
when will it finally be your turn
haven't you paid your dues

No answer nor any sign
he just leaves you to your own
all you get is the time it takes
to finally heal yourself

I am the sorrow and the strong
just know that I'll be the one
to carry on
this life that I call my own

I can wait until it's done
until you finally call me home
this life that you call your own

It's me that will be there
for you when you return

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/17/2013)

It's Always Been You

Who's comforting you and how
now that you've said what you've said
the questions run through my head
how did I miss the signs, when I was mislead

This time I'm gonna take a while
gonna think about it before I jump in
so many times before I've been the one
looking for something they all can't give in

Crushed just when I thought just we began
you know love and trust have to go hand in hand
and jealousy is an ugly face you have on

Why don't you calm on down, take another view
look at this from my side, before you say something
that we'll both regret, before there's no way, no turning back

And now you say you'll never trust me again
when it's always been you holding us back
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
Ya...it's always been you holding us back

This illusion of love, all on my behalf
wondering when you'll come on board
finally let go of your worn, torn past
learn to love, learn to love, ya trust someone
when are you going to learn to love, again

They won't know what hit them
they're just looking for love when they meet you
I know they'll put in their heart and soul
trying to make good for all your past

But it's not fair because you don't care
you just go on being scared
you don't want to lose love
I know you don't want to lose love

But you drive them away, can't you see
what you've been doing to them and me
we tried to hold on, we tried to hold on
believing in you with all that we are

But it was never enough, cuz you're so tough
you won't let anyone in, pretending it's done
it's all our fault, you won't let down your walls
not wanting your heart to be hurt again

Crushed just when I thought just we began
you know love and trust have to go hand in hand
and jealousy is an ugly face you have on

Why don't you calm on down, take another view
look at this from my side, before you say something
that we'll both regret, before there's no way, no turning back

And now you say you'll never trust me again
when it's always been you holding us back
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
(it's always been you holding us back)
ya...it's always been you holding us back

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/8/2013)

Even If It's Only Me

They took all my tears away today
they said they will never give them back
who are they to think they can treat me this way
I need them to drown out my heart and soul
so sorrowful to hear their cries

They took my memories and left me all alone
they said I can't live in the past, but that's all I had
who are they to think they can just steal them away
I need them to tell me who I am, to remember them
some one has to, even if it's only me

Distant times seem just like yesterday
I can see them there just in front of me
it's as if I can reach out and touch them
but I know they're gone...I know they're gone

A flash of light blinds me in my dreams
so I call out loud hoping to hear some one
echos from my past have come and gone
I'm too tired to recall them all

Oh I need some sleep, my eyes are so dry
they cannot even weep, but I hear the screams
coming close, what do they mean...haunting me
can't they see that I have already suffered so much
I gave up everything...for love

They say one has to let go to really know
if you'll get back what you put in, in return
and they say that if it doesn't, then it wasn't
meant to be love, and on you go, forward evermore

What they don't tell you, is what you have to leave behind
what they don't say, is the sacrifices you'll have to make
just a sweet innocent child and now she'll never know
brought up with lies and deceit
by the ones that's supposed to show her love 

They took all my tears away today
they said they will never give them back
who are they to think they can treat me this way
I need them to drown out my heart and soul
so sorrowful to hear their cries

They took my memories and left me all alone
they said I can't live in the past, but that's all I had
who are they to think they can just steal them away
I need them to tell me who I am, to remember them
some one has to, even...even if it's only me

Even if it's only me, even if it's only me
even if it's only me, ya...even if it's only me !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/7/2013)

For Who I Am

Walking in the rain again looking for a place to hold up until it ends
my head hanging low wondering how it all came down to this
wasting so many years on a woman that never even had a clue.
So many, many times we tried to talk it out, only to fight all night

Now it seems I'm on my own again looking for something to mend me,
but it's been so long since I've been out on my own, how can I find them?
Everyone’s looking so grim in here, what the hell has become of them?
All my old haunches have become a strange new land, filled with dangers unknown.

In their eyes I can’t see them, the darkness overwhelming, some insanity from beyond.
The things that they dare to do I just couldn't ever fathom, guess I'm just gonna go!
Gotta find someone that can accept me for who I am, no more time to play the fool.
This old world won't be stopped, the constant grows, it's gonna roll all over you!

My old heart has its depths, rivers running wild, sometimes there just no control!
But I'm always holding true, hoping there is something just right there out of reach,
it pretends not to notice the time that's fallen, I still see the young man in the mirror.
And even though my time is almost gone, I still hope, hope in my heart...to find love.

So here I am again walking in the rain, all alone, wondering just who I am.
Living a life of lies I guess, hoping it would of worked out with each and every one of them.
Let me the one to tell you, a life of false hope will wear you down, deep to your core.
When you take it to the heart or soul and then you think it will just work itself on out.

Day after day, you wake up pretending to yourself and the years pass by so fast,

you don't even recognize the man that looks you on back, no more time to waste.

You don't want to die all alone, because you're still looking for a love that will last.

 So here I am, why don't you look at me, I am the man that I am, can't you see...me?

Can’t you see me…can’t you see me…can’t you see me…for who I am…for who I am!

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/6/2013