the pity in me

i cant seem to find the pity in me
i look around and see all the things that bother me
but still i cannot find the pity in me
i see the stupidity in various things and people
and i see the tragedy of those i survey
still yet i cannot see the pity in me
i feel for those less fortunate
and i get angry at those that pretend they care
but for some reason i cannot feel for myself
even though i try and try to find my pity
i do things for others when i can
i speak out in protest for those that can't
but still i cannot feel the pity in me
what is it that stops me from my own care
self preservation, shouldn't i be aware
so how come my brain blocks the pity in me
i find it outrageous that people are starved
i hate it when i hear people pretend to care
i despise my politicians that look the other way
but still as of yet cannot find the pity in me
is it that i think i understand
that my brain refuses to relinquish faith in man
that i don't consider myself in as much need
that do enough for myself that its not something i feel i need
or that deep down i know there are others looking out for me
still, as much as i try, i cannot feel the pity in me