What Good Are Walls

What good are walls
when people can just run through them
how are they supposed to protect you
from the cold and the rain
what good are walls
when they're so paper thin
everyone can hear you
everyone can listen in
what good are walls
you know they can be tall
you know they can be small
you know they can be wide
or they can be small and still trip you
they'll make you fall to the ground
then you're lying there wishing
look to the sky what do you see
no more walls
it could be dark
then you'll see the stars
maybe the moon will bless you
starry nights the warm wind blows
brings you back to your life
feel the breeze on your face
feel yourself fly in the wind
why don't you let Mother Nature in
she won't cost you anything
Father Time now he's a man
that stops on a dime
he has a hand that can twist my fate
but he's not one to intervene
so i'm on my own
trying to make heads or tails
from guessing on a two headed coin
something tells me it's all stack against me
even fifty fifty doesn't let me prevail
what good are walls
when people can run right through them
what good are walls
just how are they supposed to protect you
from the cold and the rain
what good are walls
when they're so paper thin
what good are walls
when everyone can hear you
what good are walls
when everyone can listen in
what good are walls
ya they can be tall
what good are walls
ya they can be small
what good are walls
you know they can be wide
what good are walls
they can be short and still trip you
make you fall to the ground
what good are walls
what good are walls
hey what good are walls
what good are walls
what good are walls
when they can fall on you

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/12/2015)

This Ain't No Life

I don't know my future
so i don't have no hope
waiting for my life to begin again
leaves me standing on a slippery slope
if i try to go back i can't make the grade
its too steep from all my tears they're like the rain
i fell in a hole and i feel like there's no way out
and the more i fight the deeper i get
no more dreams i'm better off dead
my soul stained by my deeds it wants to leave
i reached out to you but you turned away
telling me you're using all your tough love
but what did i do to earn it in the first place
the sun is so bright it burns my face
too many days seeking out only the darkness
my shame apparently lingering all over me
what do you want with me
why can't you leave me alone
can't you see I've thrown myself away
cast aside my name it's just a word defamed
my teeth all worn down from the shame
from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
ya from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
there's no use waiting for one that won't listen
they turned away so long ago so i won't miss them
the don't even recognize me when they pass me
but it was so different back when they needed me
guess i was fooled good because i believed them
it just felt good that someone needed me
keep them from sinking, keep them from drowning
give them a hand when they had their doubts
show them compassion show them some love
show them compassion show them some love
show them compassion show them some love
oh help me please, pick me up
oh help me please, pick me up
no one here will show me love
i got to get up, i got to move on
got to get out and get in the sun
got to move on, i'm on the run
can't let them use their tough love
got to get away, got to find a way
to reclaim my name so i can be me
got to stand up, got to stand tall
got to be brave, before my last fall
time has been fleet time has flown by
is it too late for me to find my wings
will he still take me in, forgive my sin
maybe he won't listen, maybe he's mad
maybe he's tired, maybe he's sad
it's so hard to tell
when he's sending me his tough love
so what will i do, i feel the darkness calling
there's not too many options
i can lean to to the left or i can lean to the right
in either case my path ends up in a fight
from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
ya from me yelling at God
"Why me, hey man this ain't no life"
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
you know, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life, this ain't no life
this ain't no life

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 3/10/2015)

The Darkness Won't Let in the Light

The saddest feeling that I've ever had
it's the deepest thing that's stuck in my crawl
it's the darkest secret within me and there it dwells
it's what bubbles up from way below
just...just when i'm feeling good

You see...all of my life
happiness has just been a myth
sure there's been those fleeting minutes
a glimmer of hope shinning between the clouds

But i think it's always been my destiny
somehow i'm the one picked out to suffer indignity
the one to take in every one and all their sin
but i didn't chose this side of this

The darkness won't let in the light
keeps smothering me with it kindness
somehow i can take on the comfort

Best to not know anything different
best not to know what love is
best to to keep my head down low
best to try and forget it all

I had a dream of magic butterflies
they would cover me and lift me to the sky
they would take to a land so far away
where people laughed and never cried

She said she would never leave
she said we would be together forever
but then one day i caught her in a lie
she just stood there laughing
while deep down inside i died

You see...all of my life
happiness has just been a myth
sure there's been those fleeting minutes
a glimmer of hope shinning between the clouds

Best to not know anything different
best not to know what love is
best to to keep my head down low
best to try and forget it all

I think it's always been my destiny
somehow i'm always the one
to be picked out to suffer indignity

The darkness won't let in the light
keeps smothering me with it kindness
somehow i can take on the comfort

Why am i the one
to take in every one and all their sin
you know i didn't chose this side of this

No..no..baby
you know i didn't chose this side of this
this side of this...this side of this

The darkness won't let in the light
the darkness won't let in the light

Best not to know what love is
best not to know what love is

She just stood there laughing
while deep down inside i died

Best not to know what love is
best not to know what love is

The darkness won't let in the light
the darkness won't let in the light
the darkness won't let in the light
the darkness won't let in the light !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 2/28/2015)

You've Tuned Me Out

Where's your mind
where's your mind

Because you're not here
because you're not here

Even though you're right here by my side

You're eyes to the sky
you're eyes to the sky

You've must of tuned me out
I tug and tug and pull with no response

Because you're not hearing my words

I thought I was strong enough for the both of us
holding my ground trying to carry the weight

But I was wrong knowing what I know now
it was just me trying to keep what we had

Because you've already let me go

So where's your mind
where's your mind

Because you're not here
even though you're right here by my side

You're eyes to the sky
you're eyes to the sky

Guess You've must of tuned me out
I tug and tug and pull with no response

Because you're not hearing my words

Now we just go through all the motions
as we just carrying on day by day

I'm not sure which one hurts the most
is it my heart or my soul
that's constantly crying my nights away

But I don't want to think of my emotions
so I'll just have to wait and see
until after the day when you walk away

And it's everything for me to keep my composure
just so that I can show you that i'll be okay

But you've already let me go

So where's your mind
where's your mind

Because you're not here
even though you're right here by my side

You're eyes to the sky
you're eyes to the sky

You've must of already tuned me out
I tug and tug and pull with no response

Because... you're not hearing my words

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 2/3/2015

No Sleep Until the Dawn

Sometimes all you need
is a push that makes you bleed

So that it wakes you up
when reality makes it tough

Like the cold of winters touch
or the call of something else

When you have it deep down inside
something wrong and nothing else

Every morning become a challenge
can't get no sleep until the dawn

My mind's in a mental whirlwind
when my brain just won't shut up

Oh I can't turn it off
too many questions that start with why
too many answers in preconceived scenarios

It makes me cringe and grow so cold
deep down inside the ice still flows

Day after day you know I've tried
to forget the way you make me cry

Drowning my sorrow until I pass out
but this ain't no way to live, if it's living at all

How can those simple words
bring down my house of cards

How can they topple all of my defenses
how can they tear down my walls
how can they make me so vulnerable

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die
I want to die...I want to die...I want to die

Please let me die
Just let me die

In my dreams I call out your name
I look to my side but you're always gone
In my fear I hold your pillow tight

I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn
I can't get no sleep until the dawn

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/30/2015)

Pushing and Pulling

We're gonna break
cuz something gotta give
this constant stress
it just won't let us live

Oh this life,
as the way we want it
you want to pull
and i want to push

Nothing can help the magneticity
there's always this static electricity
and it's driving us apart
while it's pulling us in

We're looking down both barrels
lining it up, looking for our target
trying our best to resist an itchy finger
hesitant to be the first to pull the trigger

Not wanting to be the first one
to give up on forever, like we promised
not wanting to be the lonely one
when it's all done and we know it's over

We gotta return to reality, when we're ready
can't force a broken heart to start too early
cuz it won't and you know you know it

The hurt and the pain
it just keeps going, you feel it
and the crying seems like it's the rain
it keeps coming and coming, down on you

You rack your brain to make sense of it all
thinking how in the hell did i end up here
this isn't what i wanted, this isn't what i dreamed

Oh this life,
as the way we want it
we're gonna break
cuz something gotta give

You want to pull
and i want to push
this constant stress
it just won't let us live

Ya we're looking down both barrels
lining it up, looking for our target
and it's driving us apart
while it's pulling us in

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/29/2015)

Oh I Lost my Soul !

Did your lips
all painted up and poisonous,
just attack me
You know i can't resist
ya... i'm doomed

Now did those hips
all pressed up against me
oh how accidentally, oops !
Then you shove me
and we fall

There's no time for mistakes
i gotta run, gotta get outta of here
You know when the devil wears a red dress
someone's gonna lose their soul

The lights are all off
but i can feel you getting close
There's a freezing cold
connected with your every touch

For far too long
sitting all alone day by day
with you keeping me in the dark
while you go out and play

My heart grows cold
this weather so unfavorable
the way you make it rain
what am i supposed to do

You're in my mind
making me insane
All of these scenarios
but which one is to blame

We both know
I've given you everything
and you've given nothing in return

But I've been a fool
for lesser things

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 1/15/2015)