Waiting on the Truth

The ground is turning red below me
soaking up my life as i know it
when it's done nothing will be left of me

Where will i go, whats to become of me
just a husk of a shell laying waiting
to become part of what i last surveyed

My eyes have grown so cold
you don't want to see what I've seen
it wasn't supposed to be that way

You know i used to have my hope
i used to believe in everything
no one could keep me down

Now the darkness has swallowed me whole
it was always lurking behind me
waiting for me to slip up and lose control

Please God save my soul
i don't want to go to the underworld

You know it wasn't me i swear
they all drove me insane

The devil didn't make do it
you know he's not to blame
so let's just leave him out of this

I'm waiting on you Lord
waiting for you to see the truth

I was never a bad man
until they forced me to do it

I always believed in love
that someone was out there for me

And when i found them
they all turned their backs away
cut me to the bone

they drained my life away
and this all that's left of me

What you see is my sum
my final achievement
waiting for the goodness
that was promised to me

So please God save my soul
i don't want to go to the underworld

You know it wasn't me i swear
they all drove me insane

And the Devil didn't make do it
you know he's not to blame
so let's just leave him out of this

I'm waiting on you Lord
waiting for you to see the truth

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/7/2015)

It's Not Too Hard to Do That

Hearing them over and over
I can't help listening to their lies

What do they really want with me
somehow they're always in control

Stirring up unclean thoughts
putting a wedge between us

You know it's not too hard to do that
these days

I can't shake what they're saying
i can't help but to listen to their lies

Somehow it all makes sense to me

You stay out way too late
when you should be here by my side

Sleeping in the other room
you never want to be too close

Making up any old excuse
just to get away

Getting mad when i try to accuse
something's gotta give

Someone's gotta tell the truth
because one of us is ready to break in two

And i know it's not going to be you

Hearing them over and over
I can't help listening to their lies

What do they really want with me
somehow they're always in control

Stirring up unclean thoughts
putting a wedge between us

You know it's not too hard to do that
these days

I can't shake what they're saying

I can't help but to listen to their lies

Somehow it all makes sense to me

You know it's not too hard to do that
these days

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 5/7/2015)

This island called life

This island called life, afloat yet always on the brink of sinking, constantly losing terrain to the ever pounding waves of light and darkness.
Each in their own way a blessing and a curse, changing and switching while laughing at me, always ever taunting salvation while threatening doom.
I am just their play thing day in and day out, i am just something they found floating whimsically at will passing before their stomping feet.
My survival dependent upon them yet striving to be released from their torture, i ride the waves they create wondering if i will see a tomorrow.

Honestly

Honestly

What is love, is it a good thing ?
could it be something for everyone
what is love, is it an evil thing ?
is it meant to be the one thing
to bring us all to our knees.

It's been so long since i held you
i can't remember what it feels like
to have you in my arms and feel your warmth
there's this feeling of loss when you're not around
too many years have come and gone
and throughout all them I've been on my own

Sometimes i try dream i can slip back in time
and try to see if i can mend all of the wrongs
but each time i try it just gets twisted and churned
and i find i wake up still all tattered and torn
what can i do , what can i say

What is love, is it a good thing ?
could it be something for everyone
what is love, is it an evil thing ?
is it meant to be the one thing
to bring us all to our knees.

You always cry when have something to say
affairs of the heart always makes you this way
you scream out loud when you think i can't hear
and when i try to be honest you just turn away

How can we be one when you don't want to try
there's must be a reason that you don't want to say
i can feel our love and it's slipping away
what happened to the promises of yesterday

What is love, is it a good thing ?
could it be something for everyone
what is love, is it an evil thing ?
is it meant to be the one thing
to bring us all to our knees.

Damned if i do, damned if i don't
played for the fool again, right from the start
stabbed in the heart again, deep in the chest
i'm tired of playing Cupid's cruel game
and always failing the test

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 4/27/2015)

I Want to See Again

What are you saying
choose your words carefully
one of us is lying
and i know it's not me
who are you fooling
with your plans of deceit
you're leaving me crying
deep inside i'm silently bleeding
my heart's been cut in two
the knife still sunk in deep
all of this madness
is just beyond belief
why do you even bother
when you've always planned to leave
i given you everything
the sky the moon the sea
and you quickly grabbed what you could
even the best part of me
sits alone in the darkness
i can't believe that i'm free
but it doesn't seem that way to me
all i ever wanted was to be loved
but you even wanted to steal that from me
now how am i to carry on
it's a heavy burden hovering over me
too many tears flowing from my eyes
it's much too hard to see
is there any future filled with some sort of hope
how long will it take to get over you
tell me...tell me
when will you release me
why am i the one
who has to pay this debt
what kind of dues have i been owing
no one ever told me
no one ever said a thing
about how you were doing me wrong
there's talk on the town
everyone's been pointing their finger at me
why didn't i see some sort of sign
i should of known better than to trust you
you always had that far away look in your eyes
you always avoided the questions
covered it up with your lies
i was a fool to believe them
all i ever wanted
all i ever needed
out of anything from this world
is to be loved
ya loved
love, love, love, love
was it too much to ask for
love, love, love, love
ya i need love
why was that so hard for you
you just had to show you cared
all i ever wanted
all i ever needed
out of everything this world has to offer
is to be loved
is to be loved
ya loved
love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love
why is it so dark in here
someone please turn on the light
i want to see
i want to see
i want to see again
i want to see again
i want to see again
ya that's all i ever wanted
i want to see
i want to see
i want to see again
i want to open my eyes
i want to see again
i want to feel someone in my arms
i want to see again
i want to kiss them goodnight
i want to see again
i want to tell them i love them
i want to see again
i want to see again
you know
i want to see again
ya that's all i ever wanted
i want to see again
i want to see again

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 4/21/2015)

You're in Way Too Deep

Think you could love me
tell me soft wonderful lies
hold me until you let go
never say the words goodbye
when you walk away
leave me when i'm not home
it's just a dark place that's cold
there's no more sun
to shine on my face
tell them that i'm the one
that i was too blind to see
laugh until i enter the room
secret messages left on the phone
play me because you think i'm numb
your eyes they give you away
you can't bear to look at me
your heart heavy full of deceit
yelling and carrying on
trying to deflect the questions
what you know i already know
but you're, you know
you're way too far in
ya you're in way too deep
leaving me a letter explaining it all
feeling you owe me something
anything but respect and love
but that's the way you planed it all
the way you want to leave
everything all up in the air
my heart left in despair
wondering why
wondering what i did
was it something that i said
or was it all in my head
the devil made you do it
that's why you're insane
you got have a screw that's loose
cuz that's how it's gotta be explained
otherwise i'm the one to blame

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 4/20/2015)

Forgotten Love

Wondering where you are
it's cold outside
and i don't want to be alone

Something's gotta give
there's just
too much pressure from the norm

And you know it's wrong
to wake up
with no one else to hold

These tears staining everything
cuz nothing's safe
not even the memories

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

The warmth of togetherness
holding hands until the morning comes
not caring that our hair is a mess

Finishing each others thoughts
those smirks we get when we're apart
thinking about the night before

But now i can barely remember anything
all that remains is how we fuss and fight
it's so hard to try and bring back the bliss

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

These tears staining everything
cuz nothing's safe
not even the memories

And you know it's wrong
to wake up
with no one else to hold

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

Of forgotten love
of forgotten love
we forgot our love
we forgot how to love

Forgotten love
forgotten love
forgotten love

We forgot how to love
Honey
we forgot how to love

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 4/17/2015)