Shining Through

For someone who wants to be free
i keep letting these walls fall on me
how will i ever get to see
beyond the shadows that they cast

This time i have to get it right
learning from the tears of my past
this time it has to be the last time
because there's just only enough room
in my heart for one more try

I look at you with all of my doubts
not knowing what to expect from you
I've tried to imagine all of the scenarios
so many waiting on the sideline to come true

And when we get to look each other in the eye
for a fleeting moment i could almost feel it rushing through
this long lost friend i use to know by my own name
too many have beaten me down to this level can't you see
my self esteem just couldn't take it anymore

But now the sun comes shining through
i can hear the beating of my own heart
deep down i always knew it was there
waiting for the chance to come alive again
and it did bursting way up in the air

So come on and take a chance with me
i promise you that i will take a while
learn what i can give and what I'll take
and i will receive what you want to give to me
hand in hand we will challenge destiny

For someone who wants to be free
i keep letting these walls fall on me

This time i have to get it right
learning from the tears of my past

I look at you with all of my doubts

Not knowing what to expect from you
I've tried to imagine all of the scenarios

So many waiting on the sideline to come true

But now the sun comes shining through

I can hear the beating of my own heart
deep down i always knew it was there

Waiting for the chance to come alive again
and it did bursting way up in the air

So come on and take a chance with me

I promise you that i will take a while

Learn what i can give and what I'll take

And i will receive what you want to give to me

Hand in hand we will ....challenge destiny

And when we get to look each other in the eye
for a fleeting moment i could almost feel it rushing through

This long lost friend i use to know by my own name

Too many have beaten me down to this level can't you see
my self esteem just couldn't take it anymore

But now the sun comes shining through
comes shining through
the sun comes shining through

And so do you... and so do you
and so do you... and so do you
you know you do
you come shining through
you..you come shining through
you...you...you..you
come shining through
you come shining...through

what went wrong

what went wrong

lying here under the darkest cloud
trying to figure it all out
ya... what went wrong

trying to keep it together
I'm trying to be strong
but in my heart I've had doubt

something inside me
ya..telling me
said you weren't all in
in this love
like I'm all in

since we've been together
I've always been the one
I've always believed in us

but something...something
was holding you back

I don't know if you'll ever win
who's gonna break through first
or who's gonna do the worst

all i know is in my soul
I'll try with all my might
i won't be the one to give up
I'm gonna try and win this fight

i could die inside
trying to fly
looking for you
are you within my sight
is there still any hope
waiting for you

lying here under the darkest cloud
trying to keep it together
I'm trying to be strong
trying to figure it all out

ya... what went wrong
what went wrong
ya... what went wrong
ya... what went wrong
(wha..wha..wha..wha)
ya... what went wrong

Ready to Pop

I don't know what this world expects of me
i try and try all that i can
every day, every day
but it doesn't seem to be enough
to get them off my back

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya

I'm like an over-inflated balloon
don't know when but I'm ready to pop
there's just too much to take in
they're always trying to force me
but it's way too much

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya
ya ya

Don't get too close
don't rub me rough
I'm telling you now
I'm ready, ya ready to pop

I can sense my pain, it feels so hot
don't know how long i can stand it
but i gotta refrain, gotta hold it in
or it will drive me insane

Gotta see what happens
just one more day, ya
i want to feel your love
like it's the falling rain

Ya ya ya, ya ya, ya ya ya
ya ya, ya ya ya

Flowing across me like the mist in the air
covering everything with it's blanketed care
what's this I'm feeling in your stare
could it be love that's holding me here

Ya ya, ya, ya ya, ya

Don't let me go, hold on to my string
tie me around your heart, let me sing
the longer i stay the more I'll believe
in love, I'll believe in love

Then i can hold them back
I'll try and try all that i can
with you by my side
ya ya, ya, ya ya, ya !

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 7/3/2013)

Bi-Polar Love

It's sticky around here lately
don't know when you'll appear
or when I'll trigger the hate
that's buried way down in you

Don't know why you prey on me
maybe because nobody else will play the fool
caught in your web just waiting on you
to finally come and do me in

It's no surprise any more
the way you act darling
when you think you got me cornered again
the gloves are off lets stop pretending

You always go a little way too far
I don't know when you're playing
or when it's time for me to run
you say your bi-polar love is so much fun

Well it's getting sticky around here
I don't know when next you'll appear
or when i'll trigger all the hate
that's buried way down in you

Still don't know why you prey on me
maybe because nobody else will play the fool
I'm caught in your web just waiting on you
to finally come sink your fangs and do me in

This relationship is full of fire
sometimes it's way too hot to bear
can't stand the heat that comes from you
But I can't run away

Sometimes I'm frozen from the fear
don't know what's coming next
the love I want
but the monster's near

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/21/2013

The End

This existence, this manipulation of time, space and continuum. The stretch of reality both outwards and inwards. The realization, the confusion. The blindness, the light. All combined and yet individualized. Separated by opinion or ridicule and greed or spite. The self-awareness and yet all complete denial towards brother, sister, mother, father, child, relative, neighbor, community, nation or Earth, environment, animals and our fellow mankind. The darkness, the cold, the outcast, the loneliness, the bewilderment, the starvation, the death upcoming, all on the lips of everyone untold. The fear, the hate, the progression and being left behind. The interest, the dis-concern, the contempt to undermine, the wastefulness, the squandering, the refugees, the genocide. The race for space, all around us and in the sky, the need for speed, the acceptance of the ones that didn't need to die. The fabric of time, the fabric of life, the washing of hands, the corruptions of governments, the death of child. The end is always near, the time is never right, the politicians rarely care. The spilling of blood, the waste it creates, the downside of love, the breaking of news, the wait of despair, the cry for life, the deaf ears that won't hear. The sound of silence, the noise of pollution, the drowning of whales, the air that's impaired, the slow death of persuasion, lobbied by damnation. The gift of hope, the ideal of salvation, the promise of Senate, the promise from Pope. The end of all life, no need to explore, the time will be forwarded, everyone's death all proper and joyed.
 
(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/15/2013

That's What I Gotta Believe

I know my time has come
this i know is true
spent too many days
trying to make it come true
this life i lead
makes it tough to believe
anything else is merely mute

And i roll on down the road
some loose change is all i own
living my life day by day
taking what i can as it lays
the danger's ever close
no time for me to stay

And so i roll on down the road
the clothes on my back is all i own
the smell and the stench
is the love that I've ever known
don't know how much more i can take
but i can't afford to make mistakes

And so i roll on down this road
I'm looking for love in the wrong place
i can't shake her face in my dreams
it's gonna haunt me forever it seems
dragging the truth out always hurts
the heartache will always burn

And so here i am out on the road again
chasing the the sun just for fun
trying to get as far away as i can
maybe it's better this a way
you don't need anyone like me
at least that's what i gotta believe

She had the hair so silky and streamed
she had this thing she could make you believe
she had a way to work herself in
she had an undying and understanding love
she died when she was way too young
she's always there in the middle of my dreams
and then she's gone when i finally wake up

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/8/2013

Back to the Earth

Dreams for some
well they might become true
but not for me no not this time
i hide in the shadows in the darkness
hoping for mine hoping for some one

What if there were no sin
would it be a perfect place to live
sometimes life just ends
but it doesn't mean
there's never gonna be more to begin

Raising our hands to the sky
shaking our fists
what does it all really mean
why do we even exist
just to become some part of the dust
back to the earth part of the crust

We always seem to go back and forth
living a lie losing our trust
trying to make sense of it all
but i have concluded its time to end this

Searching in my heart for the love
searching my soul for what i already know
living this life full of desire full of deceit
when does it stop will it be when i bleed
left in the cold with no one to morn me

Raising our hands to the sky
shaking our fists
what does it all really mean
why do we even exist
just to become some part of the dust
back to the earth part of the crust

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 6/5/2013)