The Final Silencing

Well today i finally fade away
i know in my heart no one will pray
because nothing good every hung from my name
except for two things that I'll always rave
if that was what i was only here to do
then I've done my part and it's time to go
i never had one regret when it comes to them
only that circumstance never let me close within
so today there's no turning back the hands of time
no pushing forward or hoping my next turn is passing go
never a Bishop or a King just a pawn on a checkered board
i worked and i worked always giving and rewarded with pain
i'm so tired beyond what they will allow or measure
as long as they always get what gives them pleasure
am i not a person ? am i not the father ?
to all of you that it concerns gladly always laughing
running around in your delight that i'm legally quilled into silence
but it's you who that have done all the wrongs and not the right's
covering it up with all the statutes and hiding behind blind ignorance
so no matter what i do to try and right what was wronged
i'm sunken and pushed deeper and deeper into the quickening
only the tip of my head has yet to get dappled and covered
so you see today is the day i will finally fade away
the only thing left will be the unpaid bills of strife
but i will be no more and free from this non-being of life.

It's a Rainy Day That Changes Me

The mornings come and its still dark
and i try to stumble my way about
yet it's time to start another day
but i don't want to

Everyone else is feeling fine
you can see it in their morning smile
but its harder than it use to be
living this life on this train wreck

I know they try to struggle with it too
day to day trying just to cover up the truth
the weight of it all the pressure pressing down
sometimes it even searches out the heart

But here comes yet another rainy day
falling down in drones making up misery
even in the night sending chills right up my spine
trying with all its might to drown me out

The pounding in my head wont let me sleep
the endless tinkling of the watery drops
its like it want to send me to an early grave
where it knows there will be no escape

But everyone else is just feeling fine
sickens you to see it in their morning smile
because it's even harder than it use to be
when you're living this life on this train wreck

Then one day while you lay there
someone tries to reach you through your darkness
pulling back just in time when you snap at them
but the goodness in their heart over whelms the grey

It's always a rainy day that changes me
something about the way it fades away
i can always hear it when it's coming
the pounding getting louder when it plays

It's always a rainy day that changes me
something about the way it smells when it leaves
like a heavy weight that keeps on giving
i just hold my breath until i'm blue waiting for relief

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 11/6/2014)

little drippings

there's just little drippings left
reminders of memories past
a minor window in their round bow
shows just a glimpse of sullen lit light

they slowly trail and then they fall
they wobble as they might until they conform
their tails following being pulled down
freedom complete in flight until they drown

splattered or swallowed upon the ground
soaking up the dust and spitting it out
scrambling for brothers or sisters
solemnly situated and lucky if found

pooling or not to each had no concern
lost from the first thought during original sin
premised, denial, unsanctioned or ill-intent
shadowed, caged, harbored, founded resent

no path, no road, no way, or no scent
memories, synectics, old dreams, no sleep
these are the things that creep when you peak
rem synced, nose bleeds, cold sweat, epileptical fit

hot blood, cold hands, strong will, hold on to your pillow
some time, no time, all time, the end already in sight
deep thought, no loss, temper tantrum, hot flash
evil's loose, on the run, no shelter from threatened harm

warm sun, morning dew, early bird, looking at you
sweet smells, far off bells, oceans roar, slow kiss
wrap your arms, cuddle close, slip inside, shut the door
last good bye, no more taste, out of focus, super bright light

There's That Sound

Some days there's a certain song
that grabs you by the heart and soul

It means so many special things
sometimes it catches you by surprise

It can even bring a tear to your eye
could be it reminds you of everything
your life all summed up in what it means

Could be it reminds you of your past
what you lost never to get back

And then some days you hear a song
and it reminds you of better days

It brings a special smile to your face
that only you know the secret to its pace

And it could be the one to make you laugh
making you think its been way too long
since you took a chance to let someone in

So don't you worry too much
soon enough they will play our song

Bringing back all those memories
so wonderful and so magical

They will make you light on your feet
sometimes they make you feel complete

Maybe you were having a bad day
and it was just what you need

Some days there's a certain song
that grabs you by the heart and soul

It means so many special things
sometimes it catches you by surprise

Isn't that what life is all about
oh...there's that sound

180 Degrees

Well there's gotta be a mile
of open road
between you and me baby

I thought you and I
were bringing it home
we were closing the gap

You and me baby
hot and heavy
pedal to the medal
we were revving...ya

No worries about the dangers
lust is just for strangers
this one is for the win

The checkered flag is out again
who will be the one
a draw or tie across the line

Your white smoke
shows your failure
both our black marks
are all crisscrossed

Will you concede
or will you claim the fame
how can you look at me
knowing what you took away

Now I'm running lean
totally out of calibration
the needles in my jets
wont seat themselves still

My floats are filling fuel
my spark is timed real ill
my timing is all messed up
my distributor is 180 degrees off tilt

And there's gotta be a mile
of open road
between you and me

I thought you and I
were bringing it home
i thought you and I
we were closing the gap

You and me baby
we were hot and heavy
we were pedal to the medal

We were revving it up
revving it up
revving it up...ya

Now you've gone
and blown me away
taken my title
and broken my heart

Leaving me
all alone
in the dark

All alone..all alone
all alone

Leaving me
all alone
ya..all alone
on this road

And there's gotta be a mile
of open road
between you and me

Honey if you would only
turn around...180 degrees

We Will Live On

If you would of told me
that one day
we would be right here
i would of told you
baby i don't care

Listening to all the signs
looking for the right rhyme
to reason all of this
before the doubt sets in

We used to hold hands
enjoyed the mornings
no one could separate us
they couldn't even touch us

But some where down the line
i guess we lost track of time
the new dawn got there before us

How did we get so slow
neither one of us eager to met it
i guess we just grew old
so tired to see it

If you would of told me
that one day
we would be right here
i would of told you
baby i don't care

Because when you're by my side
i don't have to run and hide
together i know we can enjoy it
this life we live together

From dusk to dawn
we know we will live on
leaving those behind that love us

Hoping for their dream
hoping they learn what it means
to love someone forever

And if you would of told me
that one day
we would be right here
honey i would of told you
baby i just don't care

We used to hold hands
enjoyed the mornings
no one could separate us
they couldn't even touch us

No..no..no
they couldn't even touch us
couldn't even touch us

No
couldn't even touch us
baby..my Honey

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 10/6/2014)

All Those Fears Come To Life

I went to bed hoping for a new day
I fell asleep and then they came

All my deepest fears in my dreams
carrying me straight to that place
I don't want to..no...want to see

And those fears come to life
every time i try..try to fight

Something inside bursts aloud
I scream and claw to get out

But for some reason
I just lay there still
once again she's in control
of my mind body and my soul

There's no chance to run away
this slumbers rage and rock n roll
so in my memory I'll just look away

Oh i can't let her win
if I'm gonna keep my sanity
gotta believe in my faith of me
close my eyes and dream her away

Can't listen to her lies
cuz if i do
I know I'm gonna die

She's everywhere I'm gonna look
she's every place I'm gonna be

She's in my mind
she's got her hooks

Dug in deep so they will bleed
i can't even shake her from my sleep

Please someone wake me up
shake my bed like an earth quake
pound on my door with ferocity
wake every one including me

Please don't leave me here
caught in a nightmare with her
she scratches at my every thought
sinks her teeth in and tears me out

And those fears come to life
every time i try..try to fight

Something inside bursts aloud
I scream and claw to get out

But for some reason
i just lay there still

Once again she's in control
of my mind body and my soul

Ya all my deepest fears
carrying me straight to that place

Please don't leave me here
she scratches at my every thought
sinks her teeth in and tears me out

She sinks her teeth in and tears me out
she sinks her teeth in and tears me out
sinks her teeth in, sinks her teeth in
and tears me out

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 9/28/2014)