When She Use To Tell Me

She used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name
she would often say
she wants me to be her man

But she was young
maybe way too young
even though she was wonderful
I guess I had other plans
for you see, I was just being me
and as time went on
our paths never crossed, again

This life that I've been on
this up and down
this roller coaster ride

I wonder how she is
how life turned out for her
did she finally marry
did she have some kids
does she still think of me
when the nights are long
back when we used to be friends
when she wanted me to be her man

This life that I've been on
this up and down
this roller coaster ride

I think about her from time to time
her beautiful smile
and that twinkle in her eye
as she looked at me, so endearingly
would I be her man

She used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name
she would often say
she wants me to be her man

But she was young
maybe way too young
I guess I had other plans
for you see, I was just being me

And I wonder how she is
how life turned out for her
did she marry, have some kids
does she think of me
when the nights are long

This life, this up and down
this roller coaster ride

And does she still think of me
when those nights are long
back when we used to be good friends
when she use to tell me
she wanted me to be her man

This life, this up and down
this roller coaster ride

Oh she used to come around a lot
she used to call out my name

This life, this up and down
oh this roller coaster ride

This roller coaster ride
This roller coaster ride
Oh this roller coaster,
Roller coaster,
This roller coaster ride

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/30/2012)

No Last Goodbyes

you called me on the telephone
telling me that you won't be there when i get home
its the middle of the day, working away
no way for me to be there, no last goodbyes

don't know what you are feeling
you been distant for so many days
seemed like nothing was wrong
when i left this morning, working to the bone

then you say you been sleeping with another man
this the second time, you don't who's child
you want to end this life, you want to end your shame
i don't want to be a part of some other guys game

the drive so silent, except the tears falling from my eyes
how could you say you love me and do this a second time
i should of left the first time, but i forgave you
thought it was true love residing in my heart

but now here we are on our last adventure
silent intentions, whispered words
half in the emotions, the other in disbelief
how could you be so cold hearted, even to me

i thought we shared a special kind of love
but i found out you share it with everyone
no boundaries will you follow, not with anyone
sometimes i wish i didn't even know you
but its too late

now i get home to an empty house
seems there is no line you won't cross
left me with nothing but my clothes on our bed
what was it that makes you act that way
what is it that lets you remain in my head

all i ever wanted was some one to share my love
some one to hold my hand walking in the park
some one to share my dream
some one to hold me in the dark
some one to believe in, some one to believe in me
was it too much love for you, too much way too soon

you called me on the telephone
telling me that you won't be there when i get home
its the middle of the day, working away
no way for me to be there, no last goodbyes

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/27/2012)

Losing You This Way Just Doesn't Count

what this is, doesn't work anymore
now I'm stretched from end to end
wondering where it started, where it all began
throwing all my chips in, I'm flowing out

dreams of sin, rearing it's ugly head
holding out for my final demand
losing you this way just doesn't count
you know I'm not one to just give up

i try to understand what you said
the way you think, whats in your head
but i guess I'm just to dense to figure it all out
something's just not right, no not yet

who's smell is on you today when you say hello
you must think I'm a fool
carrying on like I'm not supposed to know
the way you act and how stare at me
what am left, what am I supposed to believe

i don't want to give up
tried to give it one more try
thought i could change and you will see
but it wasn't the way
you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way

turn on the flood, i don't care
drown my sorrow, drown my heartache
take it all away, take it away today
don't want to hear anything you got to say
you didn't you turn my way

you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way
no you didn't you turn my way

even the sun won't shine
the grey blocking it's path to me
not even the hands of time
will release this heart of mine

your steel still buried deep
dripping wet with my disbelief
only one way to heal your deceit
make believe it's all a joke
move on and look for hope

turn on the flood, i don't care
drown my sorrow, drown my heartache
take it all away, take it away today
don't want to hear anything you got to say
you didn't you turn my way

you didn't you turn my way
you didn't you turn my way
no you didn't you turn my way
losing you this way just doesn't count

Just Got To Ride It Out

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
something you saw on tv that made you crazy
you take it out on me what you're feeling
but you won't say what it is

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

When are you gonna come to terms
with your own mental frustrations
when are you gonna let go
of all your demons
the ones that control your sexual intentions

Now I ain't the one
keeping all you locked up inside
bottled and presented with a fancy label
it's building and building up inside you
going to blow and what an explosion

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
why does your subconscious tell you to hurt me
telling me that it would be something I liked
as if I was the one who told you to watch it

You need to get control of your senses
understand what you really want
because I can't go on this way
sleeping with one eye open
waiting for you to blame me
for something that's all in you
right from the very start

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

It's building and building up inside you
going to blow and what an explosion
so confusing
what is your subconscious trying to say
what are these feeling rising up from your darkness
your losing control another side of you
wanting to become one with your soul

Why do I have to fear in my sleep
that you're gonna jump on me and beat me
something you saw on tv that made you crazy
you take it out on me what you're feeling
but you can't tell me what it is

No where for me to run and hide
no where for me to go
just gotta hold on and ride it out

Listen to me when I say
I won't know what to think until you know

What these feeling you have and where they'll go
will you be able to remain or go insane
leaving me to blame
for your improper christian thoughts
wasn't what you were raised up on
your inner feelings casting doubt
their creating wrought

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/24/212)

All Around Me Like Ghosts

I woke up yesterday
not knowing what today would bring
yes we've had better times
but this time I think its all come undone
just waiting for it to spring up in my face
just because I couldn't agree to let you go
you wanted to fool around and eat your cake too

This old house creaks way too much
you should know by now you can't sneak in
past the hour most people go to sleep
fumbling with your keys
the neighbors are starting to talk

Why couldn't we just end it like adults
now we have to go through the ropes
I find myself struggling to get through all these emotions
never mind the good times that we shared
I couldn't even remember if I tried
just want to get it over so I can cry
these tears they keep falling and i know why

This valley in my heart
it's river running red, it's running wide
my soul seeping all the trust I gave unto you
how can I even pretend it's alright anymore
your blade still hanging from my back
beyond my reach to pull it out

Slipping away, I can feel you slipping away
running through my fingers like the sands of time
no matter how much I try I can't stop them
falling to the ground, scattering in the wind
we're turning to dust, our love turning to dust
the color of rust stains our relationship
there's no turning back now that we've lost the trust

Sitting here in the dark
I can see everything with out any light
the memory of you all around me like ghosts
looming in every room so plain to see
I can't stay here, I guess I'll have to leave

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/22/2012

Your Darkened Charms

Such a darkened heart that dwells in you
even the cold from winter draws from you
I can't believe one word from your forked tongue
one touch from your lips feels like freeze

I wake up from my nightmares and you're right there
a curled up smile upon your face while you pretend to sleep
somehow I know you're projecting influence into my dreams
this insanity I'm going through I can't believe it's just me

Why can't I dream of a better life than the one you hold on me
when I try to go into the light you drag me back to the darkest deeps
why can't I seem to break these silver chains you got hooked in me

Destiny calls
but I'm stuck here with her
someone help...help me please

She's got her fingers dug in deep
beauty can only reign supreme for so long
no one can hear my tears when they fall

You run around like nothing's wrong
that evil look within the corner of your eyes
trapped like a spider to a fly I'm stuck here no where to run
I have to wait until you're ready to draw blood

No one can hear me when I scream
what's your obsession within me 
what keeps you coming around
I ain't got nothing left
you've stolen everything that I am

The burn of your skin from the sweat the you sieve
you keep thrusting your utter hell upon my breast
why can't I resist your darkened charms
go away...I don't want you here ....just leave

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/21/2012)

Maybe I'll Be Broken Hearted

This life that surrounds me
it's full of mystery you see
making me blind to your darkness
something about the magic
that you possess
it wont let me let go

Some kind a hold me
let me go..let me go

I was the one shedding my tears
for so...so many years
I was calling...calling to you
help me...help me dear

I needed you
but you didn't listen
you didn't hear
hear my fear

Run away...Run away

I tremble and shake
when I think about all the years
I've wasted with you
sitting all alone in my desperation
I prayed for my salvation
please take me away

But there was no answer
Run away...Run away

Left on my own
so cold in the shadows

Run away...Run away

It must of pleased you
to leave me in the darkness
while you watched from the window
your eyes so full of hate
anyone could see they were shaded

Where do I go
where do I hide
where will I run
because I cant confide in you

You twist my words
to fit you
make no mistake
as long as it suits you

Run away...Run away
never no more
Run away...Run away

I can't feel you
the weight of your stare
won't steel me
never again

Run away...Run away
never no more
Run away...Run away
I win

Never no more
I win...I win

Maybe I'll be broken hearted

No..never no more
I win...I win

I win...I win..I win...I win

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/15/2012)

How Our Love Would Fall

Misconceptions
are wandering...in you
false confusions are building up
they'll cut you in two

I've been searching for so long
trying to be strong for you
cast away and forgotten
they all said and made you believe
that I was the one who was wrong

Now the truth they all knew
wasn't what they were portraying
they didn't what you to know
all the things they were sinning

I thought it would just be a matter of time
when it would all come crashing down
somehow they built up their defenses
with more and more lies
it's so hard now to get through

All my hopes and dreams all shot to hell
it's not what I thought the future would hold
it's not how I hoped our love would fall
just gotta keep holding on
just gotta believe

One day we will be together
hugging one another showing our love
I know it's only a matter of time
but it's been so long since I've seen you
when will I know
when will it be over
my child

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/15/2012

This Feeling I Can't Control

For so long the silence was just right
no need to worry no need for love
then one day it was broken by mistake
and the light so bright filtered through

I stood alone there in the darkness
waiting for my eyes to focus
so comfortable was the blackness
as I got a chill waiting for the view
it was always there for me
so blinded by my madness
I couldn't never see it

I caught a glimpse of my reflection
just who's this person in the mirror
a figure of a man that I never got to know
I fall to my knees the tears overflow

My heart is so empty
it cries out for you
how long have you been gone
I'm coming for you

No need to apologize
I'm the one who was wrong
just come home with me
together our love can be strong

Burning...burning
whats this feeling I can't control
the passion of my love has a flame
without love it runs free and untamed

So hot with desire
our blood flows like fire
so hot with desire
were burning down to the wire

Can't you feel it
can't you feel the heat
it's getting stronger with every beat

Two hearts beating as one
full to the brim with each other having fun
don't want it to stop
don't want it to come undone

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/14/2012)

it was all i could do

distant through the years
but i still hear you calling me
i remember those tears
i still don't want to see them

it hurts me way too much
so deep down inside me
i have to turn away
even in my desperation

wasted were those years
you had to be so controlling
always telling me what to do
all i ever wanted was to love you

but you wouldn't let me in
telling me it was a sin
such a hardened heart
not much left to believe in

some one hurt you hard
some one who was there before me
i was just the one
who you came undone on

no laughter left in your eyes
no where to run or hide

it was all i could do
to try and calm you in the night
we argued and we fought
not about us
just what about consumes you

what makes you want to fight
everyone that tries to love you
you keep holding them back
screaming in your sleep at night

you wont let me in
you leave no choice
I'm leaving you
can't handle this anymore

i hope one day
you can find your peace
open your heart
and let some one in

so sorry my love
you leave no choice
you wont let me in

no laughter left in your eyes
no where to run or hide

some one hurt you hard
some one who was there
way before me

i was just the one
who you came undone on

i hope you can over come
what consumes you

When the Peacock Calls

don't think i haven't noticed
the way you look at me
from the corner of your eye
when you think i don't see you
just hope you saw me smile
ya the thought of us has crossed my mind
wondering what it might be like to kiss you
when the peacock calls...its wishing
telling everyone that can hear
he's calling...
"come to me...I'm over here
time is short...the night is coming
look at me...look at me
I'm so pretty...don't you want some"
soon we'll be close
close enough to feel our heat
tremble and shake
anticipation wants to overtake us
so unreal
this magic moment
stiff as still
it must be a kind of magnetic re-simulation
drawing us in together
and then it finally happens
fumbling into position
like two school kids
this kiss
seems to last forever
it even remains on my lips
do we have to stop

What Has To Be

I didn't plan this
but it is what it is
I guess it's just what has to be

I listened to you
when you talked down at me
looking straight through me
never seeing me

Always on some master plan
you didn't care who was in your way
not even me

We always seemed to go to bed angry
the nights always filled with tension
you could of cut them with a knife

There's gotta be more
more to this life
there's gotta be a better place
than looking at your face

Something's out there
it's calling me
telling me this whole thing
is just out of place

That it's all wrong
so I'm going pull out
I'm gonna be strong
pull up my stakes

Well I'm looking for love
ya what i never had
all the while i was with you

And you know it's true
by the things that you do
you never ever consider me
so blind you are all you see

Out on the road
I don't care where i go

So good...so good
to feel so free

To drop all that anxiety
I can't believe
what you use to do to me

So good...so good
to feel so free

Please..I didn't plan this
but it is what it is
I guess it's just...what has to be

(by Roelin Davis all rights reserved 8/13/202)